TGIF

It is FRIDAY - yeah:)
The week has been pretty good, I am finding myself in need of a "serious" nap about 3:15 everyday. The serious part comes in that I sleep hard for an hour sometimes more. Then I feel like I could sleep all night.

This weekend is the Alumni Weekend at Southern Illinois, the Girls (volleyball players) are getting together to celebrate 50 years of Volleyball. I think a number of the returning girls will play as well! Aaron and I did not make plans to attend, he will be preaching Sunday and I love answering the door for Halloween ... and I was hoping to be playing volleyball. The 5 hour drive keeps us from traveling over and back in a quick one day trip.  BUT the thought did cross my mind.

Aaron and I are going to have a last minute get-a-way this weekend. Aaron's good friend Jeff (the team mate of his @ University of Illinois that lead him to Christ, and is now a Pastor too) Has extra tickets to the U of I game vs Iowa. I am a little torn... My grandfather played Football at Iowa and my husband played at Illinois. It will be a great time to catch up with Jeff and his wife (who also went to SIU, we were there at the same time and have mutual friends!) and take a quick trip out of town. I look forward to sharing pictures from the trip - we may even be able to make it down to the field with these 2 former players:) 

I also look forward to what my nieces and nephews will be dressed as tonight ... It has been fun to watch the older boys (4th and 2nd grade) decide to be more scary things instead of super heroes ... none the less, I look forward to them ding dong-ing me. I will be dressed with my cool homemade bat head band and homemade t-shirt ... that I ironed on eyes. They are strategically placed on my belly. As if Jeremy were looking out. I could have done a jack-o-lantern on the belly, it is nice and round like a pumpkin. 

Finally, one piece of scripture that I read this morning ...

Be Strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24

have a blessed weekend

GRACE AND PEACE!

Activate Strength

I have added the scripture to my prescription box, what a powerful word! 

I NEED HELP! :) 

How awesome to know, just by asking we are filled with all the "HELP" we need! 

todays scripture

"But as for me, I am filled with power - with the Spirit of the Lord. I am filled with justice and strength..." (Micah 3:8)

word from joel and victoria

Micah knew how to encourage himself in the Lord. He understood how to draw courage and purpose into his life. he realized the power in His words and knew that speaking the truth is the most effective way to prepare him to accomplish all God has in store.

Did you know we activate the blessing of God's favor by speaking it over our own lives? Romans 10:9-10 tells us that salvation comes when we believe and then declare what we believe. God's truth is established when we believe and declare it! (Job 22:28). When we declare God's Word, we invite Him to do what He alone  can in our lives. 

Your tasks today may not be anything like Micah's, but we all need God's help. Activate His strength by declaring that His power is at work by His Spirit in your life. Declare that you are filled with justice and strength as you face the challenges before you because in His strength, you can experience victory in every area of your life. 

prayer

Father in heaven, I invite You to flood every area of my being. Fill me with Your strength, peace, and joy. I declare that I am strong in You. I am filled with Your power. I walk in Your favor. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE! 

Freedom from Fear

From Stormies Heart ...

Finding Freedom From Fear
Not all fear is bad.
A good healthy fear will cause us to do positive and productive things.

Being afraid of something is not wrong. But when we harbor fear, entertain it, and let it grow in us, it becomes a problem. The kind of fear that over takes us, controls us, and paralyze us is not of God. It is a spirit of fear, "for God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline" (2 Timothy 1:7). When you have that kind of destructive fear, take it to the Lord in prayer, and He will set you free from it by the power of HIS SPIRIT. He will rescue you from the torment of it by surrounding you with His love. He will keep your mind sound and give you peace.

God wants us to trust Him enough to take steps of faith in the face of all that we fear. When Pharaoh chased the Isrealites to the Red Sea, they were terrified because they were facing an enormous body of water in front of them and Pharaoh's army fast approaching from behind. They saw no way out. But Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still." (Exodus 14: 13-14). And the Lord delivered them from a frightening and impossible situation.

The most important thing we can do when we feel afraid is to call upon God and ask Him to protect us and set us free from whatever it is we fear. In order to be free of fear, you need to have faith. Too often we don't "fight the good fight" in prayer (1 Timothy 6:12). We don't take the the steps of faith God is asking us to take because of our unbelief. We doubt that God will really protect us or that He even hears our prayers. One of the greatest steps you can take is to read the Bible everyday because faith comes by hearing and studying the Word of God.

Another step you can take is to lift up praise to God. Praise Him for His perfect love, which casts out all fear. Praise Him that He is more powerful than anything you face. Praise Him for His presence, for when you are in His presence, you have nothing to fear.

Stormie is awesome, what more can be said.
I know there are days coming that I will be afraid - but why ponder those when today is great. One day at a time ... that is doable. Like Eliot's mom said (from Oprah yesterday), "I can be sad later - now I am going to be happy."

GRACE AND PEACE! 

3rd post today

got this after school today ... after watching Oprah ...

He Will Respond
Today's Scripture
“Oh, that we might know the Lord! Let us press on to know Him. He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn or the coming of rains in early spring” (Hosea 6:3).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
God promises that He is near to those who call upon His name. It doesn’t matter where you are or what you’re going through; He is your deliverer. He’ll bring light into your darkest hour; He’ll bring rain into the dry places; He’ll bring restoration and healing to the broken places. When you call on His name, you can be assured that He will respond. As sure as the sun will rise tomorrow, God will faithfully respond when you seek Him. Sometimes, people think they have to clean themselves up or change their behavior or habits before they can turn to Him, but that’s not what God says. He is ready to receive you just as you are. Even if you feel like a mess, He’ll take your mess and turn it into a message. His arms are open wide today. Open your heart and call upon Him. Press on to know Him and His goodness.

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for always receiving me with open arms. I choose today to give You all that I am. I choose to press on that I may know You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Psalm 28

Thanks to Aaron, when I need to read more of the Word I always look to the Psalms - specifically the Psalm number that corresponds with the date.
Today I read Psalm 28 2, 6-7 ....

2 Hear my cry for mercy
as I cry for help,
as I lift up my hands
toward your Most Holy Place.

6 Praise be to the Lord,
for he has heard my cry for mercy.
7 The Lord is my strength and my shield
my heart trusts in him and I am helped
my heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.

Yesterday I was not very hungry, that worries me. I wonder if Jeremy is okay.
Then last night I woke up with a very hungry stomach. Jeremy was so active he woke me up, I drank some water then realized it was not the middle of the night, but my alarm would be going off in about 5 min. So we rolled out of bed, that is what JP and I do now, got ready for school and had a big breakfast - eggs, bacon, toast, hot cider ... then we read.

As I knowingly head into the home stretch, Jeremy continues to encourage me. This morning as I read he was kicking and jabbing, my heart lept with joy as I read the Psalm, typically I read out loud so Jeremy can hear the word too. As the day progresses, Jeremy has continued to be active - what a JOY - praise be to God.

I am comforted through my reading to know that David, a man after God's own heart cried out to the Lord for mercy. And I know that God is love and if he hears David, he hears me. I cannot hold in the pain, hurt, fear, uncertainty - I must release it to God. Here on earth, no one has the answer, no one can explain why or provide the knowledge we long for - Only God can provide what I am longing for, and with that only in his time. I will be patient, pray and rest knowing that He loves me and  "The Lord is with me like a Mighty Warrior" Jeremiah 20:11 

He can and is able to do things that we can not explain - I pray for his will to be done in this time of waiting for Jeremy. HIS WILL - not my own.  He is my strength and my shield ... GLORY! 

GRACE AND PEACE!

Rescuer

A great word from Joel, I will post my morning reading later today - it was powerful. BUT this I needed to share as well. Reminds me of one of my favorite songs "Rescue" .....
I need you Jesus, to come to my rescue ....


He is Your Rescuer

Today's Scripture
“Daniel, servant of the living God! Was your God, whom you serve so faithfully, able to rescue you from the lions?” (Daniel 6:20b).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Most people won’t ever literally come face to face with a hungry lion, but we’ve all been in situations where we feel like we are about to be “eaten up” or destroyed.
Daniel lived a life of excellence and found favor with the king. The king kept promoting him and giving him more authority which made the other administrators jealous and angry. They manipulated the king into signing a law that Daniel could not follow.
Daniel prayed and still found himself in the lion’s den. How would you respond in that situation? I’m sure Daniel believed that God would deliver Him. I’m sure he hoped it would be before he was thrown into that den. Have you ever prayed and prayed for something and it looked like things just kept getting worse? Daniel trusted that God was working His plan for His glory. In the end, Daniel was protected and his enemies were destroyed.When it looks like your friends have turned on you and you are headed for the lions’ den, don’t be discouraged because God has the final say. Keep believing Him, keep trusting Him. He’s promised to never leave you or forsake you. He’ll shut the mouth of the lion; He’ll silence your accusers; He’ll stand with you in the fire, and He will lead you into victory in every area of your life.

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, You are my Light in dark times. I thank You for Your faithfulness and trust that You have a wonderful plan for my life. No matter how things seem, I will put my hope and trust in You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Now what

My volleyball team did not advance to Regionals, we fought the good fight with the top team in the state but came up short. There are no regrets - we played a well as we could, which was all I asked of the team. We faced a team that should end up winning the State Finals- are they beatable, yes. Enough about them, I am extremely proud of my team. They played with heart and courage. They finished the season playing their best volleyball - what more can a coach ask!

So I pose the question ... now what? I am certain I have been "hiding" behind volleyball to keep me from dealing with the reality of my pregnancy. I firmly believe that God will bring me through, and my heart knows this. I have been able to protect my mind since July ... but now the next 10 weeks I need to get serious. Aaron and I need to read the booklets we received in September, we need to make plans. Will it be hard - absolutely. Will God be with us - for sure. Will we survive - defiantly. Will we become stronger and better through this experience - without a doubt. Do we need to understand everything now - no (but it would be helpful)

May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance 

2 Thessalonians 3:5

As we face the reality of making plans, I need to be filled with the strength and perseverance of Christ.
How do you do that? My best guess - pray for it. It will not arrive, unless I ask.
So I continue to boldly ask the Lord to strengthen my heart, my mind and my soul. Strengthen me from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. Strengthen Jeremy, continue to cover him with all your love and strength. Allow Aaron the strength and comfort needed to make decisions that are pleasing to you. Cover our Family with your love and perseverance.

In addition to the above reading, I also took a look at 

Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation
          whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life
        of whom shall I be afraid?

4 One thing I ask of thee Lord,  this is what I seek:
         That I may dwell in the house 

        of the Lord all the days of my life,
   to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

   and to seek him in his temple.

5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me

      safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the

    shelter of his tabernacle and 

set me high upon a rock.

13 I am still confident of this; 

  I will see the goodness of the Lord

 in the land of the living.

As Aaron and I head into territory that we are unsure of, we know we are not alone. We know that not only is God with us, the body of Christ goes with us too. As David wrote in this Psalm, with God why fear, why doubt, why be afraid. We will continue to trust and walk in faith that God has a perfect plan. 

I would like to end with this prescription ...

Now, may the Lord of Peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. 

The Lord be with all of you.  

2 Thessalonians 3:16

GRACE AND PEACE!

 

Celebrations

Tonight my family celebrated the October Birthdays ... for me, my father and younger sister. Combined age ... 133. We spent the evening with the Pope. Well, at Buca di Beppo - with the Pope as the center piece. The table was awesome, it fit the entire crowd - all 18 of us.
It was also nice to have Aaron home, his flight was delayed and he got in just before 4 am this morning. We spent the day lounging.

The evening ended with the exchanging of gifts ... one sister gave me a very cool journal.
The other a wall hanging with a statement that I have to share:

When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out into darkness, FAITH is knowing one of two things will happen ....
There will be something to stand on or You will be taught how to fly.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Joy-Thanks-Praise

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1Thessalonians 5:16-18

GLORY .....
"be joyful" - we must make a choice. We cannot determine how we feel in each situation, but we can control our reaction. How can we be joyful in spite of our feelings. We can do that by no allowing our feelings or current situation to interfere with our worship. Whatever the situation - w must intentionally and continually acknowledge the greatness of God - in the midst if our situation. hard - yes - but what an awesome way to experience the JOY OF THE LORD!

"pray continually" - pray for everything right when you think of it. Allow prayer to be a natural response to whatever is happening. Just like we do not "think" about breathing or making sure our heart is beating. The challenge, is to develop a prayer life that goes on and on in the background of our lives - no matter the circumstance.

"give thanks" - this is why we pray. To express our gratitude for God who He is and for all he has done. It is our choice to be thankful even in the tough times. We need to say thanks even when we cannot see the whole picture. Something good always happens when we thank God - We gain the mind of Christ and the leading of the Holy Spirit - we invite God to work in our situation.

Continue to pray, praise, and allow the joy of the Lord rise in your heart.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Embracing the Moment

from Stormies Heart ....
Walking step by step with God requires embracing the moment you are in. For example when you are tempted to become fearful, frustrated, uncertain, or panicked about what is happening in your life, stop and see that God is in it. And with Him, you have everything you need for the moment. Here and Now.

It's amazing that when we open our eyes to the whole picture, we have a different perspective. When we embrace Him, we see the blessings that are right in front of us. We can be content right where we are no matter what state we are in - literally and figuratively - because He is there. (Philippians 4:11)

Regardless if what your situation is at this moment, God had an abundance of blessings for your. Right where you are, God is working powerfully in your life. He wants you to close your eyes, call out His name, and say , "Lord show me your hand in my life right now." He wants you to sense his presence. He wants you to trust that when you are afraid, you can turn to Him and find his peace. When you are weary, you will find His strength. When you are empty, you will find His fullness. When you are sad, you will find his joy.

When you embrace the heart of God in the nitty-gritty details of your life, you will find a oneness with him you never dreamed possible. And you'll sense that He is in control and will not let you get off course. Whenever you feel angry, sad, depressed, or fearful, say, "God, reveal Yourself to me in this moment. What are you doing in my life that I am not seeing? If all things work together for good, then show me the good."

When you are determined to see the good you will find it. If God knows your thoughts (Psalm 94:11), your heart (1Samuel 16:7), when you stand and sit down (Psalm 139:2) and how many hairs are on your head (Matthew 10:30), then He knows where you are at any given moment. He sees your circumstances. just because you can't see anything ahead doesn't mean He can't. He can and does. He knows where you've been. He knows where you are headed. He knows where you are supposed to be going. And He knows how to get you there. You have Him, and He is all you need.

This was my reading this morning - Stormie Omartian
... what a blessing that I chose this bible last Christmas - The Power of a Praying Woman Bible. It is full of prayers, insights, and pages that have been drawing me in. Everyday I either learn something new or I am reminded about how much God loves me (and us). Everyday, I read something that I need to fuel my soul. WOW!

I will continue to embrace the moments today, tomorrow and always. Everyday is a special day - I will be intentional to find the multitudes of blessings in each moment.

GRACE AND PEACE!

This Road

From a dear friend ... who thought of me when listening to this song and shared.
... often how I feel ....

This Road, by Ginny Owens
A million miles away from anything familiar
a thousand places I would rather be
so I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side
though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering
in my heart I know your plan is so much bigger
but this small part is all that I can see
and I believe you haven't left me here to wander
still I can't help but ponder where you're leading me

(chorus)and I ask why this road
why this way
and this load
tell me how far must I go till I see
till I know why this road

A million miles away from anything familiar
what was it like to be so far from home
though you came in love
the world misunderstood you
there must have been some days when you felt so alone
but you endured, cause there was joy before you
joy that came because you sacrificed
Since you gave yourself just to spend forever with me
surely I can trust you'll lead me through my darkest times
when I ask why....(chorus)

From here I can not see
why and this load
you know how far I must go till I see
till I know why this road
you'd choose this path for me
but I don't have to understand to believe
that you know why
You know why this road
why this way

THANK YOU FRIEND!

my reading today:
We always thank God for all of you, mentioning you in our prayers. We continually remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith your labor prompted by love and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Thessalonians 1:2-3


PRAYER:
Lord, go before me this day, bless Aaron and his group in Miami, bless all the prayer warriors, bless Jeremy. Go before me in all things today. Thank you for the safe travels for Aaron and safe arrival of my GMA and Aunt. Continue to build your strength in me, that I my be filled by you today and pour into each life that is precious to you today. IN your name - Amen

Faith - Love - Hope

GRACE AND PEACE!

Fall Break

Yes ... today is a Wednesday / Friday! Our school at 3pm is on Fall Break - YEAH.  

My volleyball team won last night, so we are still in the Tournament. We play Saturday, against the #1 ranked team in the state. I am so pleased that we have the opportunity to take them out. I got an email from a parent this morning that said, "We can not match their height (they have 6'6 and 6'4 middles) - but we do have the skill and the spirit." What an excellent reminder! With Fall Break, the team will have the opportunity to have three intense practices plus time to rest. GREAT OPPORTUNITY! 

Aaron is on a plane now, to Miami for a conference and will return Sunday early (1am). My Grandmother and Aunt are headed to Indy from the West Coast, they arrive sometime this evening - this will be a BUSY Fall Break - but a nice change of pace.  

My reading this morning took me to Psalm 23:3,

he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

prayer: I pray that you, Father, would restore my soul and lead me on the path you have for my life.

happy fall ....

GRACE AND PEACE!

Measure of Faith

I thank God daily, for the measure of Faith he has allotted me - we all have two choices, we can become defeated by our circumstance or we can praise God and move forward ... Joel hits the nail on the head today. I choose VICTORY.

Give Your Faith a Voice
Today's Scripture
“And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, ‘I believed and therefore I spoke,’ we also believe and therefore speak” (2 Corinthians 4:13 NKJ).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Every believer has been given a measure of faith. In order to see the promises of God come to pass in your life, you have to give your faith a voice. You must declare what God says about you in His Word. Those seeds of faith inside you are activated when you speak them out into the atmosphere. That’s why the scripture tells us, “Let the weak say I am strong. Let the poor say I am rich.” When you give your faith a voice and send forth the Word of God out of your mouth, the Bible says that He watches over His Word to bring it to pass in your life. Don’t dig up your seed by speaking against His Word. Don’t allow words of defeat or negativity to come out of your mouth. Instead, water your seed by continuing to declare the Word of God. When you wake up every morning, thank Him that His promises are coming to pass in your life. As you do, you will see those things come to pass, and you will live the life of victory God has prepared for you.
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I humbly come before You giving You my thoughts, my actions, and my words. Help me to activate my faith by speaking Your Word daily. May my words and thoughts be pleasing to You always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

praise him!

GRACE AND PEACE!

3 days of Reading

After my Friday Post, I felt much better - as I suspected writing about my hard time made the rest of the day better and brighter.
Aaron and I had a great dinner out - then I was off to bed early for the 4:30 alarm. The weekend was busy and good. Saturday was spent in Northern Indiana at a volleyball tourney - we played some grate ball! What an excellent way to head into sectionals. Sunday was good neighbor weekend without church. The Church building closed for the weekend and the BODY of Christ took to areas of need in Hamilton and Marion County. Aaron sent the Brookside Church out as well, to "be the Sermon". In the Brookside area it was an amazing site to see the Northview members working along side the Brookside members. THE BODY AT WORK!

Today, I had my 28 week labs and a quick appointment with the DR. All is well - Jeremy had a strong heartbeat and the glucose drink tasted like sunkist (almost). We go back November 4th (PLEASE VOTE) for an ultra sound and see the DR again, that will be 31 weeks ... and We are getting closer to the time that we need to have our plans in place for the arrival of Jeremy.

With a thankful heart the last three days of reading were amazing ....
My Saturday morning reading was fulfilling and allowed me to keep moving forward:
but I press on to take hold of that which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-14
Paul was still writing from prison, but he knew that there was something glorious ahead. I know there is something glorious ahead - and I will continue to move forward, pressing on toward God. I know he has called me for something - and I am joyful to get closer day by day.

Sunday Reading:
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Philippians 4:4
two times Paul tells us to rejoice in the Lord ... ALWAYS. Not sometimes but always ... not the easiest thing, but I sure will try!

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the Peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
With Thanksgiving in our prayers and petitions ... the Peace of God will guard our hearts and minds - THANKSGIVING - sometimes I forget that part. How much greater can my peace be if I honestly enter into authentic thanksgiving to our Lord when I pray and meditate on the word.

Monday Reading:
Finally, brothers whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praise worthy - think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me - put it into practice. And the God of Peace will be with you. Philippians 4:8-9

STORMIE: All things that are true of God are true of Him no matter what is going on inside us or in our lives.

God is Good all the time, All the time God is Good .... I will continue to praise him in all things at all times.

PRAYER: Lord, go out before me in all things. I thank you for the delay at the DR office for Aaron and I to spend and extra 3 hours together. I thank you for the strong beat of Jeremy's heart today and everyday. I thank you for our prayer warriors and ask that you provide for each of them above and beyond their expectations. Continue to heal Jeremy, you have marvelous plans for Jeremy I thank you for the lives he has already touched and will continue to touch. Thank you for your continued strengthening of my heart and protection of my thoughts and tongue. In your name, Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

encouragement

Joel Osteen is too good not to share.
The weekend was great, and I am heading out in about an hour for my glucose test (I am hungry!) I will post again this afternoon, my reading over the weekend and this morning was powerful ... but this I had to share:)

Encourage Yourself
Today's Scripture
“David was greatly distressed, for the men spoke of stoning him…But David encouraged and strengthened himself in the Lord his God” (I Samuel 30:6)
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
It’s good to have friends and family around to cheer you up when you’re down, but in order to truly live in victory, that encouragement has to come from the inside. When your mind is telling you it’s not worth it, when your circumstances seem difficult, deep down inside, your spirit has to have the resolve that says, “I refuse to settle where I am.”
That’s what David had to do. He was facing a major setback. His family was killed, his city was destroyed, and his own people were now against him, but he still managed to encourage himself in the Lord. How did he do that? He replayed in his mind the victories from the past. He recounted God’s faithfulness. As he rehearsed over and over the goodness of God, strength began to rise in his heart. There are so many places you can see the hand of God at work. Thank Him for saving you today. Thank Him for the miracle of life. Thank Him for His faithfulness. Focus on the fact that God didn’t bring you this far to leave you now. Stir up that inner strength and encouragement. As you do, you’ll rise higher and higher and live the life of victory the Lord has prepared for you.
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for Your faithfulness today. I choose to focus on You and the good things You have prepared for my future. I thank You for making a way out of no way, and I will bless You always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Hard Day

It is only 11am, and i am having a hard day. I am very un-motivated to do anything. My classes are wonderful - they are all working steadily (praise the lord) the school day is actually going well - I am just feeling sad and down. My eyes well up each time I am alone and I am overwhelmed with a sense of grief. I pray that by sharing this, it will be removed. I will become emotionally stronger and the day will get better.

i read this morning in Philippians, a letter that Paul wrote while in prison ... and how i feel towards all the prayer warriors out there ...

I thank my God every  time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:3-6

I cannot begin to express my thanks for the prayers and support from everyone - I know that God has big plans for my family - and just as stated above, he has begun a good work in me and he will see it through! 

All is well - and I will praise him through this storm.

Aaron and I will celebrate my birthday tonight ... out to dinner - but not too late my team heads north tomorrow, 5:45 am bus departure. Sometimes I do ask, Who made this schedule! :) 

have a blessed day ... and weekend

GRACE AND PEACE!

Armed for Battle

Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes ... Pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Ephesians 6:11, 18

Paul is instructing us specifically on how to take our stand, how to be prepared for battle. As Aaron and I get closer to the arrival of Jeremy, there are numerous battles going on in my head and around me. Revisiting the Armor provides strength and a visual to take the stand needed as we head into more waiting and trusting ... There are a number of areas that are uncertain and we will not have absolute answers until Jeremy arrives. We are told through out the bible to wait patiently ... yeah, anyone who knows me, knows I am not a very patient person and I like to do things on my own - what lesson for me to learn. But I am a willing student and servant - I will walk by faith not by sight.

Paul gives us specific pieces of Armor ...
the Belt of Truth ( fight Satan's lies)
the Breastplate of Righteousness (protect our hearts)
shoes (firm foundation in our walk with Christ)
the Shield of Faith (repel Satan's accusations)
the Helmet of Salvation (protect our minds)
the Sword of the Spirit (the Word of God, to give us knowledge, instruction and ever-increasing faith)

Paul instructs us, to daily dress for the battle ... then when dressed PRAY.
Pray on all occasions and with all kinds of prayers and requests.

I am armed for battle ... are you?

on a side note ... for the past 6 months I have been called "35" simply because I would be 35 at the time of delivery ... well today I am officially 35. WOW!

GRACE AND PEACE!!!

A Prayer for Believers

My morning reading today ... yes I am going to post the entire scripture ... too good not to! 

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. i pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 3:14-21

Stormie writes: Have you ever needed great strength - an extraordinary measure of ability to handle an extremely heavy problem? Sometimes we look at our situations and wonder how we can possibly make it through. It is beyond our ability to cope. BUT we can reach out to the only One who is able to provide everything we need to rise above it.  

Paul prayed that God would give the Ephesians great inner strength out of God's own unlimited resources. his most impassioned plea was that the believers would begin to comprehend the vastness of God's love - its width, length, height, and depth. No matter how great the storm in our lives, God will wrap His love around us, covering and protecting us as we walk through it. Thank God daily that His love is so powerful it can give you the strength and ability to transcend any situation.

I thank the Lord daily that he loves me enough to fill me with his strength. He is the renewable energy source! :) 

have a blessed day .... what a powerful word today! 

GRACE AND PEACE!

Peace that passes understanding

Joel Osteen does it again, a word just for me!

Jeremy is becoming more and more active, last night Aaron and I had a blast watching the contortions in my belly. Almost like somersaults. He moves more often and it really does not matter what I am doing. He moves when I am standing, walking, sitting, laying down. He will also move when I place my hand or Aaron's on my belly. Jeremy will also move when hands are placed then you talk to him ... hard to put into words how amazing it is. Simply put, only God can create something so awesome.

back to Joel ....
Peace That Passes Understanding
Today's Scripture
“And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:7 KJ).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Many people carry anxiety and worry about life—their jobs, money, homes, and relationships. They allow these cares and concerns to overwhelm their thoughts and affect every area of their lives. They don’t sleep well and become touchy and edgy with people throughout the day. If that’s you, recognize that God has a plan for you to live in peace—peace that passes understanding. What does that mean?
It means that you can have peace in your heart when it doesn’t make sense to have peace—when the world around you is anxious and upset; when circumstances are beyond your control; when things aren’t going the way you thought they would. You serve a good God, and no matter what things look like today, He is working behind the scenes on your behalf.
One definition of “peace” means, “to set at one again.” When you are at one and in unity with the Father through Christ Jesus, His supernatural peace will automatically begin to fill your heart. All of that anxiety and uneasiness will disappear as His supernatural peace guards your heart and directs your steps into the abundant life He has for you.

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I give You my cares and concerns. I choose to trust that You are working behind the scenes for me. Fill me with Your peace and joy today as I surrender every area of my life to You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

THANKS to ALL you Saints!

Just read in Ephesians today, Paul was thanking his friends for praying for him and that they had come to know Jesus too ...
so I am following suit - THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS!

For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you and remembering you in my prayers. Ephesians 1:15-16

It amazes me daily, as I see various friends in all locations that tell me " I am keeping up with your blog". What a blessing. I never imagined that so many friends that I have met and have yet to meet, read this blog. I thank you all - through your reading and prayers I remian strong.

Last night I had my first dream of Jeremy in my arms, he was smiling and simply adorable.
have a blessed day ... and week!

GRACE AND PEACE!

28 weeks

Today, we start our 28th week!
12 to go ... wheew, that has gone quick. Over the last two weeks or so, I have noticed not only my belly growing, but I am tired often and eating more. I am also becoming a much better sleeper in my sides ... I have always been a back sleeper that does not budge. In an attempt to avoid kankles, my sister gave me some support stockings that are simply amazing - even though I do find myself sitting in the classroom and at volleyball more then ever. The support socks are excellent.

Sectional draw for Volleyball happens tomorrow as we head into our last week of regular season, 2 matches and a tourney next weekend ... the season has gone so fast. I have a strong feeling that we will rally here at the end and continue to play excellent volleyball.

what did i read this morning:
I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more then a watchmen waits for the morning, more then watchmen waits for the morning. Psalm 130:5-6

prayer: Help me to wait patiently on You, Lord, for your perfect timing and answer to my prayers.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Multiple Prayers

Another Friday Morning ... another good week. A long week - but good week. On the volleyball side, we played matches Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. That makes for 3 late nights and a somewhat "crabby" Beth. It has been homecoming week at the high school, nice to see most of the students participating in spirit week. Aaron and I plan to attend the football game tonight - we will see what the day brings.

Reading today:
I will praise you,O Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High. Psalm 9:1-2

God gives us such a powerful weapon with which we can fight our battles - the weapon of praise. Enemies will turn back, because they cannot stand in His presence. This is a weapon that never runs out of ammo ... when we use ALL our heart. WE do not praise God for our troubles, but in the midst of them. We rest secure that He "remember; he does not ignore the cry of the afflicted." (Psalm 9:12)

prayer: Lord we come to you humbly again today, cover us in your grace, mercy and peace today. Bless each person that reads this blog, and those in our hearts. I continue to life Jeremy to you, continued growth, cover his heart, lungs, brain, kidneys, liver, muscles and bone - bless him from head to toe. Praise be to you God our Father, in Jesus Name. Amen


Proverbs 10:22
The blessing of the Lord brings wealth, and he adds no trouble to it.
pray: Bless me, Lord, for I know that no sorrow comes without your blessing.

from joel ....

The God of Comfort
Today's Scripture
“As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you…” (Isaiah 66:13 NIV).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Oftentimes, when people face challenges, they seek comfort in things that are familiar. It may be work, or an activity, or relationships; and of course, we all know about “comfort food.” But those things only bring temporary comfort. True comfort is found in a personal relationship with God in heaven through His Son, Jesus.
According to Webster’s dictionary, comfort means: to give strength and hope; to ease grief or trouble. No matter what difficulty you may be facing today, God wants to bring you comfort. Like a mother cares for her child, He longs to give you strength, hope, and confidence. Make the decision to put Him first in every area of your life.
Let go of those things you know are holding you back. Let Him be Lord over all! As you surrender to His grace, you will be filled with His peace and joy. You’ll be empowered to overcome every obstacle, and you will live in victory all the days of your life.
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I come to You today and invite You to fill my whole being. Give me Your comfort and strength and empower me by Your Holy Spirit to live in the victory You have planned for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

2 Corinthians 12:8-10

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. but he said to me, 'my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10

In my reading today, I am nearing the end of 2nd Corinthians, and this was a statement from Paul regarding a thorn that was stuck in his side. He asked God 3 times to remove the hardship - take it away. God said no. Let this draw you closer to me. I will give you grace to bear it and unexpected power through it. Trust Me.   

For me, the reading placed into perspective that I pray continually for Jeremy's healing and strength to continue to move forward. Paul, asked to have a hardship removed, something that would have made his life easier, but God use the thorn to draw him in. Over the past 3 months God has been drawing me in. Everyday, I turn to him and he extends his grace and power to help me daily. The thorn Paul was experiencing was not from God, but God used the thorn to his glory and honor. 

We pray not to get something out of God - instead they help us to find our way to God. Prayer means accepting Gods answer even if it is not what we prayed it would be.  I pray that I will be able to accept his will for me - - surprisingly similar to Jesus in the garden, praying for the cup to pass, but he was willing to obey God and follow his will for the Cross. We need to trust and obey that God the Father. He has a perfect plan.  For when I am weak - I turn to him and he will make me stronger then thought possible. 

GRACE AND PEACE!

Comfort

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have receive from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Clearly, Paul did not have the same high school English teachers that I did ... but what an amazing statement. Praise be to God - yesterday we did have our 3rd ultra sound, which I was feeling anxious about. Each time we get to look in on Jeremy, we are amazed. The Lord settled me as we entered the office and Jeremy was very cooperative. We saw his adorable profile, the filling out of his cheeks ... and he now weighs 2lbs 6oz. His femur is measuring a week ahead of the rest of him, which means he has long legs. His head now measures a few days behind, and over all he is in the 49th percentile of size/weight ... he is average! What great words to hear. His kidneys look great, his liver is doing well - none of the things that were worrisome last month regarding those areas were evident yesterday. His heart is still showing growth, and the left side is still showing smaller, but the rate is great. (143 yesterday)

Jeremy even put on a bit of a show, he sucked his fingers, then looked like he was talking to us, we could see his belly moving in and out as he was taking in and out fluids. It was precious. He was much more active during the ultra sound and that was great for me to see ... and Aaron too.

Thank you all who prayed and lifted us up - and continue to lift us in prayer. Along with God we are leaning on you!

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which provides in your patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. Ans our hope for your is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, you also share in our comfort. 2 Corinthians 1:5-7

Paul, when writing to the church in Corinth - was also writing to us. Paul clung to God in faith and prayer was able to endure everything the world and the devil could throw at him. Through our steadfast prayer, faith and hope - we too can endure everything as the body of Christ.

Again - our deepest thanks for our Prayer Warriors ... the next appointment October 20th, for the 28 week labs. One praise, Aaron and I both have negative blood types so I do not need the RO-GAM shot! YEAH! praise be to the Lord!
have a blessed day

GRACE AND PEACE!

1 Corinthians 14:33

For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.
1 Corinthians 14:33

Aaron and I have an ultra sound and dr appointment this afternoon (1pm if you would like to pray then!) I have mixed emotions, what will we see - improvement? The same? Will Jeremy be in a new position? Will he move during the exam? This is the last week of the 2nd trimester, next Sunday we hit the 28 week mark, the entrance to the final 3 months. That brings many areas of question ... my mind is in disorder and full of paradox -
We need to create a birth plan. Actually, multiple plans. I need to read the material from the hospice. Will we make it to the due date, will Jeremy come home with us, and for how long? I have recieved a few baby items, do we have a shower? What type of shower should we have? I have plans for a nusery, do we prepare the room over next 3 months? How long can I live in dread and hope? Where is the line of dreams and reality? Possibillities and Poor prognosis? Can I fully trust that God is in control and His perfect will is always completed - correctly. Regardless of what my will says. I trust that God does not cause pain and suffering - but he will use it to bring glory to the kingdom. He will provide the measure of faith needed in all circumstances. ... can i trust and obey daily?

my mind is in disorder ... which bings me to the prescription today ...
For God is not a God of disorder but of peace. 1 Corinthians 14:33
stormie wrote:
It is up to us to fill our minds with Gods word and the words of people in whom Gods spirit resides. It's up to us to fill our hearts and thoughts with praise so that we leave no room for the ememies propaganda. It's up to us to find order by asking the God of peace to rule our lives. Only then will we know the peace that passes all understanding.

prayer:
Lord fill my mind and heart with your peace, love and strength. Focus my head on you, create in me a new heart that is strong in you and trusting in your plan for me, Jeremy, Aaron, and our prayer warriors. We know you use all things to bring glory and honor to you, guide and direct me to follow your will today. Allow the peace of knowing that you love me and all things created by you. Let your peace overflow from me, spill over to others that may need to know you today as I move and cross paths with others. Do not allow the emeny near Aaron, Jeremy or me today. I ask for you to protect our comings and our goings, our meeting with the Doctor and our development of birth plans. I am trusting you, Lord, Father, Abba - to continue to hold me in the protection of your hands.
By your grace, cover my thoughts, protect my heart.
In the name of Jesus Christ our savior - allow my prayers and petitions to be pleasing to you. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Intersections

Aaron and I typically attend the big church ( in the BURBS) on Saturday night, then head to the inner city church that Aaron in the lead pastor on Sunday. AS I have stated before, we are in the middle of a spiritual growth campaign, Living a Life on Loan. Earlier in the week Aaron received an email that called for all hands on deck, for as many services as possible. The Church wanted all pastors and elders to be available for prayer following the service. Wives too if possible. I was ready.

Well, we arrived a bit late and the only seats available were in the front row, middle. Which at Brookside is my typical seat - but at Northview we usually seat three rows back to the left. Anyway, the sermon was great the worship was great. ( one of my favorite songs You Never Let go) Pastor Poe talked about how what we do when we interact with people influence the opinions others have about the church. Each time we cross paths, these are intersections. He spoke about the stories we are all living, how each of our stories are important and that they can always be changed by God. I of course started to think about my story, what will my story look like in 3 months? What do I want my story to look like in 3, 4, 5 months and in a year?  How much control do I have in my story?  Am I truly the writer, or am I a reactor to the circumstances?  I tell my players often that you need to take care of what you are in control of - what exactly am I in control of?  I am in control of my health and the health of Jeremy for the next 3months. After that the book is un written, I dream and hope regarding the miracle God can perform, according to his will but until the, I must simply walk in faith.

The end of the service ended with card board signs, Pastor Poe talked about the various pan handlers that will hold up signs at street corners that tell their stories ( testimonies) in 3 lines. Then about 20 church members came forward with their testimonies on cardboard, stating the hard times faced on one side and the other side how God changed their pain and suffering into joy. I lost it. Sitting in the front row, Aaron's arm around me, I could not stop crying, I was overwhelmed by the pain these people have faced and all have come through on the other side, better, stronger, more faithful then ever. I am sure it was not a quick shift, but through their cardboard signs, I felt uplifted - regardless of our circumstances - we will come through.

At the end of the service, the Pastors and Elders were called forward to pray with others that needed to move forward. past hurts and hangups, all along I had anticipated to go forward with Aaron - but all I wanted to do was to get tot he bathroom. On my way to the bathroom, I crossed paths with another Pastors wife, we always are friendly when we see each other, but have never spent time together. She stopped me, and let me know she was on her way to find me, because she had an overwhelming sense that she needed to pray with me. We sat behind the stage and prayed. She prayed from her heart, but she also prayed from my heart. Out loud, I heard words that I have been suppressing, dealing with frustration, unfairness, and confusion. In the end, she prayed for supernatural healing and peace - such a powerful prayer. What a sense of comfort and calm following the moment behind the stage. That was a God moment, for us to intersect in a private place to share a few minutes praying.

I did finally make it to the bathroom, and when I returned, the sanctuary was empty, expect for the pastors and elders. What an unexpected happening, I was planning to be there for others and I was the one that needed to be ministered to.I thank God for preparing that intersection on my life Saturday night!
So powerful ... God is Good .... All the Time!

GRACE AND PEACE!

Great Week, with Romans

This has been a good week, praise be to God. This week was the first time I not only felt Jeremy moving, I saw him. It was quite surreal to see my belly shape shifting on the out side. Surreal, and awesome. Jeremy had a very active week, I look forward to the ultra sound Monday to see if he has changed position. This Sunday we will hit the 27 week mark.

The book of Romans has been a great study this week .... these are some of my new prescriptions that have been uplifting me this week.

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18

For in this hope we are saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. Romans 8:24-25

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

What then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor daemons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

Consequently, faith comes from learning the message and the message is heard through the word of Christ. Romans 10:17

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in payer. Romans 12:12

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

PRAYER: Lord, I submit to you and your perfect will. Continue the work you have started in me. Build in me trust, hope and peace. Continue to fill me with your Holy Spirit minute by minute today. Father, I lift in praise and thanksgiving all the Prayer Warriors, my family, friends. Place a hedge of protection around our comings and goings today. Continue to move in Jeremy's life, as he grows and moves. Knowing you create all things for a purpose, and your glory will be revealed in all things.

In your name, Amen

GRACE AND PEACE!

He Keeps Watch

Continued encouragement from Joel Osteen :)

He Keeps Watch
Today's Scripture
“The eyes of the Lord are in every place, keeping watch upon the evil and the good” (Proverbs 15:3).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Everyone has seasons when they feel overwhelmed by the busyness of life. In fact, one of the tricks of the enemy is to get you so caught up in the everyday “hustle and bustle” so that he can distract you and make you feel disconnected from the Father. But no matter how overwhelmed you may feel, you can find rest in knowing that the eyes of the Lord are upon you. He sees everything you are going through and everything you are facing. He knows where you are right now, and He knows how to get you to where you need to go. He knows what you need, and He knows how to provide for you.
All He asks is that you stay in faith and obey His Word. The Psalmist said, “I have been young and I have been old, but I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging for bread.” Remember, God is faithful! He’s keeping watch over you. He’s keeping watch over your family. He’s keeping watch over His Word to bring it to pass in your life! Stand strong today knowing that you serve the God who sees and makes a way for you!
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for watching over me and making a way even when there seems to be no way. I trust that You will never leave me nor forsake me. I bless Your name today and always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Finding the Words

This morning I read from Stormie a "going deeper" devotional ...
I have entered into the book of Romans, which I love ... but this was simply great to read this morning

I read Romans 8:18-38 ( I am sure I will comment directly regarding some of those passages later)
When Words Don't Come

" In the same way, the spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Romans 8:26-27

FROM STORMIE:
When we pray, we are talking to God - maybe out loud, or in a whisper, or silently. Probably most of us try to carefully choose the words to say. We want to get it just right, to be specific, to talk to God in a way that is pleasing to Him and that really expresses our hearts. But sometimes the words won't come. Sometimes the pain is too deep, the questions too difficult, the situation to confusing or complex, the fear too acute. We want to talk to God, but we don't know how to express what we feel. What then?
God promises that when we don't have the words, the Holy Spirit prays for us! HE searches our hearts and knows what's going on, and intercedes. He pleads with God on our behalf.

In times of grief or suffering - when we can barely see past the pain to communicate with anyone ... the Holy Spirit helps us to pray.
In times of uncertainty - when we are so unsure of the path ahead that we don't even know what kind of guidance to ask for ... the Holy Spirit helps up pray.
In times of fear - when we are so frightened that we don't know where to turn or who to trust ... the Holy Spirit helps us pray.
In times of feeling overwhelmed - when the crushing weight on our shoulders pushes us to our knees ... the Holy Spirit helps us pray.
When you can't find the words, simply sit with God and invite the Holy Spirit to enable you to communicate to God your deepest thoughts, feelings, fears, and doubts. He will help you pray.

Since July 31st (the day of our 1st ultra sound) I have, on many occasions, not been able to find the words to speak to God. This devotion clarifies how and why with out my knowing, I feel peaceful even when I do not speak, my deepest prayers are heard. Each "In Time of" that Stormie spoke of, I have have felt - all at once or separate. In those times I will just sit quite, pull out my prescription cards, or go to the Bible - That is the Holy Spirit working on my behalf. What an awesome prayer partner we all have. He knows our needs and our heart better then we ever will.
Looking at yesterdays reading ... the Holy Spirit is one outward representation of Gods Love for us. God loves us so much he has sent help, because we can not do it our self! 

What a strong foundation to lean on.

GRACE AND PEACE!