Tuesday, July 5, 2011


One day a rabbi stood on a hill overlooking a certain city. The rabbi watched in horror as a band of Cossacks on horseback suddenly attacked the town, killing innocent men, women and children. Some of the slaughtered were his own disciples. Looking up to heaven the rabbi exclaimed "Oh, if only I were God." An astonished student, standing nearby, asked, "But, Master, if you were God, what would you do differently?" The rabbi replied: "If I were God I would do nothing differently. If I were God I would understand."

This was part of my devotion last week, and I have been thinking about it since.

Specifically, I had a visit with my
Special Nurse, which included talking to a mother that recently suffered a stillbirth. It breaks my heart that there is one more family that has suffered loss, while I know she will find fantastic support with my Special Nurse, who I am so thankful for - I hate that there is even a need for her position. My heart aches for this young couple simply hoping to start a family.

I have been thinking, how I often would like to just understand.

Then I realize, I appreciate, that I am working with just enough light for the step in front of me walking in trust, that God, the one who does know and understand has a plan for me, and each of us.

"For I know the plans I have for you." Declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future..." Jeremiah 29:11