Friday, January 30, 2009

When we HAVE to wait

In 2007 I read the bible through for the first time ever in one year, that was great! I had a one year bible that had daily readings along with some insight. What was special about that bible, it was also in chronological order - so for example when I got to the stories with David, there were Psalms along with the stories. I really enjoyed that year of reading, each reading / devotion took between 10-20 min. I had also give the same bible to my younger sister, so we were reading together - COOL right. YES! Last year , 2008, I got the Power of a Praying Woman Bible, by Stormie Omartian - going through that bible in one year was different, she has filled the bible with various prayers, going deeper studies, devotions from her heart, and many more areas that direct a reader to look for prayers and promises. For 2008 it was perfect. I did not get a "new" bible this year for 2009, instead I was prompted to go back through Stormies Bible - the prayers and insights continue to guide and direct me in His word. And I am certainly in a different life place starting 2009 then 2008.

I wanted to share my reading / "Going Deeper"
"After this, the word of the Lord came to Abram in a vision: ' Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward,' But Abram said, "O Sovereign Lord, what can you give me since I remain childless and the one who will inherit my estate is Eliezer of Damascus?' " Genesis 15:1-2
from Stormie:
Can't you hear the exasperation in Abram's voice? " God, I appreciate you are my shield and reward. That's great and all. Don't think I don't appreciate it, but ... what I really want is for You to fulfill your promise of descendants. Let's get on with that promise about becoming a 'great nation', I want a SON! "
Abram had been waiting a long time. God had promised many descendants to Abram back when he was 75 years old (12:4) He would be 100 years old when Isaac was finally born (21:5). that means Abram and Sarai waited 25 years for God to fulfill His promise.
We don't know how long Abram had already been waiting at this point in the story, but the Bible tells us he was 86 when Ishmael was born (16:16), so we can guess that this exchange between God and Abram occurred sometime in the first decade after God made the promise.
How long do you patiently wait for answers to your prayers? Does a week seem too long to wait? What about a month? Waiting for a year seems to be beyond out ability. To see that Abram waited for a quarter of a century for an answer should give us hope to wait for our own prayers to be answered.
Abram could have given up. He could have decided that he didn't want to wait on God anymore (He did eventually make a mess a of things when he tried to fulfill Gods promise on his own by having a child with Hagar) At this point in the story, however, he choose to believe. IF only he has continued to hang on to that belief.
What answers from God are you waiting for? Is it the answer to a prayer for the return of a rebellious child? Is it the answer to a prayer for the salvation of family members? It is the answer to a prayer for the restoration in your marriage? For a job? for healing? For provision? Whatever it is, keep on praying and waiting. Release it into God's hands and let Him do it in His way and His time. His answer will be worth the wait.

Why share this section - I am one of those waiting.
Which is quite amazing that I recognise where I am - I have never been one to wait. I choose do most things on my own because I do not wait for help (or sometimes not ask for help) But in 2001 when I became a True Christian, I can look back now and see how God has given me the ability to wait -waiting on God to do His work in me and around me.
Aaron and I were married in 2005, I was 32, in my mind I should have been married before I was 30 ... When we began to actively work to conceive, I was ready month 1, it took 16. And now again, we are waiting for God to bless us with a family on earth. We are waiting for my body to heal and our hearts to be mend.
I have found that often there is a large amount of hurt when waiting. But with that hurt comes great comfort. If I did not have that hurt, I would not need to lean on God and His Kingdom. He is teaching me great things - looking over the past few months I see how I can be a better servant of the kingdom, a better wife, friend and sister. Imagine how many more blessings there are then I can actually see. I know I am limited in my sight - there is a reason greater then I can understand for this times to wait. I am very thankful for the limited insight that I have, it helps me continue to wait.

LORD, I will continue to wait patiently and expectantly for your will to be done.


Thursday, January 29, 2009

YES! this is it ...

WOW WOW WOW - the word is so rich, and Joel again delivers one so appropriate!

I Will Say of the Lord
Today's Scripture

"I will say of the Lord, He is my Refuge and my Fortress, my God; on Him I lean and rely, and in Him I [confidently] trust" (Psalm 91:2, AMP).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Your words of faith activate the promises of God. What are you saying of the Lord today? In other words, what are you declaring that God will do in your life? The next verse in this passage says, "And He will cover me, deliver me, and protect me." Notice the connection. "I will say" and "He will do." What a wonderful promise! On the other hand, if we’re not saying anything, we´re not releasing our faith. So you could read the passage in the reverse, "I will not say of the Lord and He will not do."It says in 3 John 2 that God wishes above all things that you prosper and be in health. You can take that promise and say, "God, You said You want me to be healthy. You said You want me to be prosperous. So I say of the Lord, ´You are my Healer. You are my Provider. You are my Vindicator. You are my Victory.´" Remember, when you start "saying of the Lord", your faith-filled words open the door for Him to move on your behalf. Before long, you´ll see His mighty works, and you´ll move forward into the life of victory He has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for saving and redeeming me. I choose Your promises for my life, and I will declare that You are my Refuge and my Fortress, and I will trust You all the days of my life. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

not much to say this morning ... as the word says it all for me.
Continuing to walk in faith, hope, love and trust!


Wednesday, January 28, 2009

snow snow snow

We have snow!
About 10 inches and all schools were out today. I spent 9:30 - 11:30 shoveling the driveway. Aaron came out to help when I got to the end, which was great. Because of the snow plow the end of the drive way causes the most issues - so I am very thankful for the help. By the time I finished the driveway the snow was done, so it looks pretty good. Now, I am feeling pretty sore and I did not go over to my sisters to walk on the treadmill. Shoveling is a great workout, maybe too good - but I have re discovered many muscles.

Why did I take this job on at 9:30 this morning ... I had actually planned to work on my Graduate Class - and my computer was acting up. I almost drop kicked it. Instead I bundled up and stepped outside. When I came in it booted right up and I finished 2 more chapters. YEAH!

I was watching the Hallmark Movie, Loving Leah - I accidentally taped it Sunday, and I have learned that daytime TV is not good - and actually it was a great story. Anyway ... one line really struck me. The main character (LEAH) returned home and was sure her mother was happy she was home. The mom said " A mother is only as happy as her most unhappy child" All I could was imagine Jeremy dancing, praising and rejoicing in Heaven. He is with God - so how happy should I be! I was tearing up and smiling at the same time.
Maybe I taped that show just for the one line ... how awesome and worth it!


Tuesday, January 27, 2009


This is hitting pretty close ... I have for as long as I can remember been an optimist, typically I see the glass half full or try to find a way to fill it up - I have always been that way. Even before I was a Believer. I have had a number of things happen through out my life that could have caused me to be a very unhappy cynical person - but time and time again I decide we have two choices ... I CHOOSE to trust God, I step out in faith and follow His plan. Knowing that he has planned GOOD for me ... today Joel helps to explain this .... :) GLORY!!!!

Choose to Bless Your Future
Today's Scripture

"I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live" (Deuteronomy 30:19, NKJ).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Did you know that with your words you can either bless your future or curse your future? Your words have creative power. If you want to know what your life is to going to be like five years from now, just listen to what you’re saying about yourself today. Too many people go around saying, "I´ll never get well. I´ll never get out of debt." "It´s flu season. I´ll probably get it." "This marriage is never going to last." Then they wonder why they don´t see things turn around. It´s because they´re calling defeat into their future. They´re calling in mediocrity. Don´t let that be you!When you get up in the morning, no matter how you feel, no matter what things look like, instead of using your words to describe your situation, use your words to change your situation. Make a declaration of faith by saying, "This is going to be a great day. I have God´s favor. He´s directing my steps." When you do that, you are choosing to bless your future. You are calling in favor, increase, and opportunities. You are opening the door for God to move on your behalf so you can live the abundant life He has for you!

A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, I commit my words to You today. Help me to speak good things over my life so that I can choose blessing for my future. Keep me close to You so that everything I say and do is pleasing in Your sight. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

What an awesome God, we can choose. He allows us to choose. I pray we all choose HIM.


Monday, January 26, 2009

I could not make this up!

Joel has found the words again!
You Are Equipped
Today's Scripture
"…I have equipped you…" (Isaiah 45:5, NLT).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Do you feel like you are facing something that is over your head? You may be facing something big today, but that is a sure sign that you have a big destiny. You may feel small, you may not see how it´s going to work out, but you´ve got to remember who you are: a child of The Most High God. You have been created in His image, and you are equipped to overcome.When times get tough and you don’t see a way out, don´t allow yourself to get discouraged. Dig your heels in and have the attitude, "I’ve come too far to stop now. This may be extraordinary, but I know I´m an extraordinary person serving an extraordinary God."Every morning when you wake up, remind yourself that you are equipped. You are empowered. You are anointed. You are strong. You are talented. You are creative. You have been armed with strength for every battle. There is no challenge that´s too difficult for you. No sickness that can hold you back. Your enemies may be powerful, but your God is all-powerful. Keep standing, keep believing because you are equipped to live in victory in every area of your life!
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I come before You today with an open and humble heart. Fill me with Your peace and confidence and help me to stand strong in You. Thank You for Your faithfulness today and always. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

Yesterday was a great day. I started the day off at Brookside ... this is my first Sunday back since December, before Christmas. I was reluctant to go, for many reasons - but the main thing is facing people. Those that I have not seen since Jeremy passed, so you can image there were many in the Brookside Congregation that I have not seen. My fears were silly - I left the service receiving hugs, well wishes and blessings - that I can not even count. Next Sunday Aaron will preach, which will be his first of the year - so please pray for his preparation this week.

The day ended with our life group and Extreme Worship ... this go round, the students from North Beach lead the worship. STUDENTS, high school students lead a spirit filled night with a mix of original songs they wrote and favorites from weekend services. It was awesome. The room is always electric - what an amazing way to worship and bring glory to God. North Beach Worship Team also released a CD with their original worship music will all the money going to Horizon International, an organization that helps fight the AIDS epidemic in South Africa. It was powerful. The evening was topped off when the life group gathered - one family lives VERY VERY close to the church and they enjoy having their house full:)

The night was topped with a special conversation with one of the girls - Aaron and I are the only couple in the group that does not have children. Our final conversation was in regards to how I felt being around all the kids and the conversations revolving around the children. Specifically if it made me jealous, angry or hurt. And I could honestly say with out a doubt the God has added an extra layer of protection around my heart. I do not have those feelings of "why not me" and "can't they all see this hurts me" God has removed that from me - any time it has sneaked in, it is gone before I can get the words out or dwell on any of those destructive feelings. Over the past 6 months, our Special Nurse talked to Aaron and I about the feelings of anger and resentment that could creep in, that is being HUMAN. For me, that has been a prayer of mine, I did not want to have that burden weighing me down. So when our conversation went there last night, I was appreciative of the realization by her that I could feel that way - but I serve an awesome God that has cushioned my heart and there is no room for jealousy or resentment - only love. I certainly see all children as a blessing and I know Aaron and I will add to our family - in Gods time. Because he has equipped me!

As I look ahead to this week, I can tell my body is just about healed and I am ready to "reclaim" my body. I plan to walk a little faster and add some weights to tone my arms. I will create a schedule for my Graduate Classes to be completed and set my jewelry studio up in the office. I will continue to listen for promptings for paths to follow and know that I am EQUIPPED.


Saturday, January 24, 2009


From God Calling:
Your Great Reward
You pray for faith, and you are told to do so. But I make provision in the House of My Abiding for those who turn towards Me and yet have weak knees and hearts that faint. Be not afraid. I am your God. Your Great Reward. Yours to look up and say, "All is well."
I am your Guide. Do not want to see the road ahead. Go just one step at a time. I very rarely grant the long vista to My disciples, especially in personal affairs, for one step at a time is the best way to cultivate Faith.
You are in uncharted waters. But the Lord of all Seas is with you, the Controller of all Storms is with you. Sing with joy. You follow the Lord of Limitations, as well as the God in whose service is perfect freedom.
He, the God of the Universe, confined Himself with in the marrow limits of a Baby-from and, in growing Boy-hood, and young Manhood, submitted to your human limitations, and you have to learn that your vision and power, boundless as far as spiritual things are concerned, must in temporal affairs submit to limitations too.
But I am with you. It was when the disciples gave up effort after a night of fruitless fishing, that I came, and the nets broke with the overabundance of supply.

WHY did this speak to me ... I will try to explain
Yesterday, I went for a walk (it was nice outside, today it is in single digits!) and I listened to a podcast, Greg Boyd - Woodland Hills Church in Minneapolis ... the title was "Mary" it was a sermon delivered on the 21st of December. He spoke about when Gabriel came to Mary and told her that God had selected her to be the portal for Him to enter the world ... The angel of the Lord expresses that Mary was "highly favored" Pastor Boyd went on to describe the life that Mary and Joesph faced - none displaying the idea of what would be perceived as favor - over and over there was nothing in the life of Mary as a mother that seemed to show any type of favor. Well, favor by the standards of the world. This mother became pregnant before being with a man, gave birth to her first child in a dirty barn, watched as her son was ridiculed, beaten, and crucified. Nothing that would make her feel favored - until three days later when her son over came death and then 40 days later when the Holy Spirit filled the Church - so as I consider my journey - As a believer in Jesus Christ - I am favored and I trust that even in my current trial Good is happening. Not always for me to see YET - but as I continue to trust God and say yes to His call - I will one day understand. Just like Mary did. Pastor Boyd went on to state that we all need to be Mary's - we all have a calling on our lives and it is up to us to say yes and follow.
KNOWING that that does not mean a smooth journey, but there could be bumps, twists and turns that seem unbearable. But trusting that God will see us through. HE IS SO GOOD! Which is why we can say with loud voices "ALL IS WELL"

Please continue to pray for Aaron and I - as we begin to pray about future pregnancy's and more children. Medically, we have an extremely low chance of any genetic problems occurring. We continue to trust God and his plan for our lives and our family.


Friday, January 23, 2009

taken care of

God continues to take care of me ( and those around me) He is so awesome and amazing, he truly cares for us and delights when we rely on him.
The past months would have been completely unbearable if I was not in a relationship with Christ, when I read Joel's word today - I was encouraged and reminded of how AMAZING and important that relationship has been and will continue to be.

Created to Overcome
Today's Scripture
"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world" (I John 4:4 NKJ).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Are you facing a situation today that seems impossible? Even if you don´t see how things will work out, remember, you are created to overcome. As a child of the Most High God, the Greater One lives on the inside of you. There are seeds of faith planted in your heart, and the way you activate those seeds is by the words of your mouth. Begin to declare, "I am bigger than this problem. I am created to overcome. I am destined to live in victory because the Greater One lives inside of me."
Friend, when you start speaking like that, all of heaven hears you and gets behind what you are saying. That´s why it´s so important to stir up the fire that God has placed on the inside of you. Don´t just sit back and be passive. That obstacle may look impossible, but God wouldn´t have allowed it in your life if He didn´t already know that you could overcome it! Quit looking at your difficulties as obstacles that are going to hold you back and start looking at them as opportunities that are going to push you forward into the live of victory He has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for Your promise of victory. Fill my heart with Your peace and joy today and help me to stay focused on You. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

I consider my relationships with my parents, sisters and the community of friends that have come alongside Aaron and I on this journey - I am in awe of the Body of Christ. We are seeing the Kingdom work together. Just as God offers His strength and support - he uses those around us to bring the strength and support. They are the manifest of his Glory. The community represents His deep and unchanging love for us. WHEWW - and just to think this is only a small smidge of what we can expect for eternity.

The past few days have been busy - I have walked on my sisters treadmill, visited the children's museum, "lunched", got together with the girls in the life group, and today I am going to the bounce zone. (A large building with bounce houses ... a great way for little people to use energy!) Tonight, Aaron and I have a dinner date - and tomorrow marks the FINAL day of The 21 day fast for Brookside Church. Looking forward to seeing what has been revealed to the Church in this time.

Praying for you all to have a wonderful day ... if you are in Indy, enjoy the "heat" 40+ today!


Thursday, January 22, 2009


A dear friend sent me her reading from the other day - amazing how David also seems to be writing to me ....

PSALM 138, of David
1 I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart; before the "gods" I will sing your praise.
2 I will bow down toward your holy temple and will praise your name for your love and your faithfulness, for you have exalted above all things your name and your word.
3 When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted.
4 May all the kings of the earth praise you, O Lord, when they hear the words of your mouth.
5 May they sing of the ways of the Lord. for the glory of the Lord is great.
6 Though the Lord is on high, he looks upon the lowly, but the proud he knows from afar.
7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me.
8 The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever - do not abandon the works of your hands.

Just a reminder that God has plans for our lives and He will bring us right through any difficulties we face. God is certainly taking care of us. He prepared us even for this journey - which is not the easiest - but I am so thankful for having dear friends, prayer and the Word.


Wednesday, January 21, 2009


So Joel did it again - I think he is planning these devotions just for me.
Oh wait - that is GOD! :)

Hidden Treasures
Today's Scripture
"And I will give you treasures hidden in the darkness—secret riches. I will do this so you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, the one who calls you by name" (Isaiah 45:3, NLT).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Did you know there are treasures hidden on the inside of you? There are gifts, talents, and abilities inside of you that you don’t even know about. Oftentimes, it´s during seasons of difficulty or darkness that those hidden treasures are revealed to us. When we go through times of adversity, strength arises, new abilities arise, new talents. We are "reinvented" so to speak. I think about when my father went on to be with the Lord. It was a dark hour for me, but out of that difficulty the Lord revealed hidden treasures on the inside of me that I didn´t even know about. Look at David in the Bible. Before Goliath, he was known as a shepherd boy. But after he conquered Goliath, after he went through that adversity, he was known as a mighty warrior, and eventually, a mighty king. If you are going through a difficulty today, if you lost your job or a loved one, remember, God still has a purpose for you. He´ll take what the enemy meant for evil, and He’ll turn it around for your good. Keep standing, keep believing, keep hoping because He´s ready to reveal those hidden treasures on the inside of you!
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, I come before You with an open and humble heart. Let Your Word sink deep into my Spirit. I trust You and look for the hidden treasures You have deposited on the inside of me. In Jesus´Name. Amen.

We continue to stand in our trust. My appointment yesterday was fine, it took some courage to enter the office again, but God was with me and all is well. I also talked with my special nurse for and hour - it was a great visit. Thanks for continued prayers:)

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


Yesterday became a good day. Aaron I traveled to Brookside, visited the community center and the church - both were busy with activity for the National Day of Service.
The community Center had $50,000 of renovations completed, this was more then just a little paint. The center was beautiful Then we got to the church and a woman from Northview had organized in conjunction with Obama, for Brookside to be a site for the National Day of service - there were about 45 people serving - the clothing pantry was being organized, one of the bathrooms was painted, the food pantry was stocked - they worked their tails off. What a wonderful way to celebrate MKLJr. Day - I hope that we continue to serve in this manner.
It was such an excellent reminder to me, after a slow morning - that there is still work to be done right here and now. One conversation I had with a good Friend at Brookside, who does work with the food pantry, talked about how he would try each week to empty the shelves - he goal is to send all the food home to those in need. The first weekend he did this, the women that also work in the pantry were filled with fear and apprehension - the What ifs sneaked in ... But much to their surprise, although the shelves had been empty on Sunday, by mid week there was more food then we had room for. The pantry continues to flourish, mostly because one guy was not interested in limiting God, but allowed God to work - like only God can.

Which brings me to my Joel reading today - one real life experience of how God works in abundance ... coupled with this teaching - watch out 2009!
Crowned With Abundance
Today's Scripture
"You crown the year with a bountiful harvest; even the hard pathways overflow with abundance" (Psalm 65:11, NLT).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Do you see this year as being crowned with a bountiful harvest? Notice, God didn´t say He would crown with a "barely-get-by" harvest or a "just-let-me-survive" harvest. No, He blesses His people with an overflow harvest. Even the hard places overflow with abundance. Our attitude should be "2009 is going to be a great year. I can already sense it! Favor is coming my way. Blessings, good ideas, promotions already have my name on them!" As long as you stay faithful and keep sowing good seeds, eventually that harvest will find its way into your hands. Do your part to make sure you are ready to receive at the right time. Make sure you aren´t holding on to negative mindsets, mediocrity, disobedience, sin, fear, or anything that would hold you back or keep you from God´s best. I encourage you today to take inventory of your thoughts, attitudes, and actions. Ask the Lord to show you any area of your life that needs adjusting. As you keep an open and humble heart before the Him and diligently follow His commands, you will receive the bountiful harvest He has in store for you.
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for Your peace, joy, and provision. I trust You today knowing that You have good things planned for me this year. Search my heart and know me so that I can live a life that is pleasing to You. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

I am planning for abundance in 2009 - I refuse to limit God or myself. Lord keep my head and my heart focused on you. Today, I do have a DR visit, to see how I am healing physically and mentally - I know that with God, the appointment will be just fine. Prayers welcomed @ 2pm.


Monday, January 19, 2009

Anticipatory Love

Anticipation - I try to teach that on the volleyball court. Think about what your opponent might do and be ready to counter the attack. But I have never really thought about Gods Anticipatory Love for us.

This morning I woke up with the feeling of empty arms. Desperately wanting to hold Jeremy. To the point it hurt and I did not want to get out of bed. But I did, then read in God Calling about Anticipatory Love. The longing I feel God knows about - he knew I would feel that way. The Lord is practicing Anticipatory Love - He is preparing something for me. He knows the longing of my heart and I trust that He has planned something even greater for me then my current longing - I can not even begin to imagine.

The scripture in my journal:
"... Walk in Him, rooted and built p in Him and established in the faith, as you have been taught, abounding in it with thanksgiving." Colossians 2:6-7

So I continue to walk in Faith, Trust and BELIEF - my roots are getting stronger like the palm tree ... God is good, all the time - Thank you LORD!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

2 weeks

2 weeks ago we welcomed Jeremy into our world, then watched him peacefully go into Eternity. As I consider the time we had with Jeremy, I know that God did that for us. I know that he gave us the gift of a perfect delivery, a perfect hour and a perfect passing. When I consider over the 6 months to prepare for Jeremy's arrival we were guaranteed nothing, most T13 babies do not have a live birth - I am so very thankful and praise God that we had a great delivery - and the opportunity to meet Jeremy, hear his breathing and heart. Such a peaceful little man - Glory To God!

Today in God Calling I read about Faith.
Over the months, Faith has kept me moving forward and in this devotion I begin to understand HOW and WHY - and pray that it will continue:

Pray daily for Faith. It is My Gift.
It is your only requisite for the accomplishments of mighty deeds. Certainly you have to work, you have to pray, but upon Faith alone depends the answer to your prayers - your works.
I give it you in response to your prayer, because it is the necessary weapon for you to possess for the dispersion of evil - the overwhelming of all adverse conditions, and the accomplishment of all good in your lives, and then you having Faith, give it back to Me. It is the envelope in which every request to Me should be placed.
And yet "Faith without works is dead." So you need works too, to feed your Faith in Me. As you seek to do, you feel your helplessness. You then turn to Me. In knowing Me, your faith grows - and that faith is all you need for My Power to work.

Last night at our Life Group gathering we shared our Goals for 2009, very typical for starting a new year .... here are mine:
- Be Still. Work to hear the call the Lord has on my life now. I have been trying to rush into what I should be "doing" right now - and I need to allow the Holy Spirit to work in me before anything is determined.
- Be a more Thoughtful Friend - the last few weeks I have seen a new level of friendship and I know that I can do better.
- Refrigerator Rites, this goes along with my friends - continue to build community and experience life with our Life Group and Friends.
(Refrigerator Rites: the ability to go into someones fridge w/o permission and take the last diet coke, or whatever - because you know them that well)

I pray to be intentional about these areas, and please pray for the rest of the group that they will also be intentional about their goals for the year.

Finally, I have a dear friend that decided to go to church today, she was moved during the service Tuesday for Jeremy - so please life this family in your prayers that they will not just visit but feel the tug of Jesus at their hearts and be forever changed. PRAISE GOD!!!!


Saturday, January 17, 2009


Continue trusting God with your needs and desires. He will make a way for your to do the things you think you can't, meet the demands that seem impossible, and reap the rewards for a job well done. Luci Swindoll, Irrepressible Hope Devotional

The statement above is from a Journal a friend gave me in October, it is filled with short devotions in the corners along with scripture - the next page ... "Trust in the Lord with all your heart ... and He shall direct your paths" Proverbs 3:5-6

I do write in a journal -- I started the day we came home from the hospital without Jeremy. I write the notes to Jeremy and God. Fill him in on the day before and what the day ahead may hold.

Today I wrote about missing my routine of going to school. And wondering what is in store for the next few months. Then I read in my God Calling Devotion:

Silence. Be silent before Me. Seek to know, and then to do. My will in all things.
Abide in My Love, an atmosphere of loving understanding to all men. This is your part to carry out, and then I surround you with a protective screen that keeps all evil from you. It is fashioned by your own attitude of mind, words, and deeds towards others.
I want to give you all things, good measure, pressed down and running over. Be quick to learn. You know little yet of the Divine Impatience which longs to rush to give. Does one worrying thought enter your mind, one impatient thought? Fight it at once.
Love and Trust are the solvents for the worry and cares and frets of a life. Apply them at once. You are channels and though the channel may not be altogether blocked, fret and impatience and worry corrode, and in time would become beyond your help. Persevere, oh! persevere. Never lose heart. All is well.

my prayer: Dear Lord, continue to walk with me daily. Open my ears and heart to hear your voice in all I do. Go before me in all things, providing strength and comfort. We thank you for the many blessings we receive today and turn them over to you with praise and thanksgiving. Continue to comfort my heart, and trust you always. All is well. In Jesus' name. Amen.

The last line is the best - All is well. I trust that God has that plan set out, and I will work to hear his voice for direction. not often do we have a chance to simply be still and listen. What an opportunity.
Tonight our Life Group resumes, we are reading Crazy Love .... Aaron and I looked up the website ... Turns out the author, Francis Chen, is a guy that Aaron has listened to his podcasts, he is the Pastor of Cornerstone Church in Simi Valley CA. He has a great speaking voice and strong message, I will be adding him to my list of sermon podcasts. All along, I thought this was a woman - silly me:)

Also, yesterday (on the coldest day in 12 years!) We confirmed spring break plans. We will be heading to North Captiva Florida ... you maybe familiar with the Fort Myers area, Sanibel and Caprtiva ... North Captiva it is a small island with beautiful homes and no cars. Sounds like a great getaway! My sisters family went last year, this year the whole family is going. (My parents along with both sisters families) We have three months to get into "bathing suit" shape ...

Friday, January 16, 2009

Day by Day

Today's devotion from God Calling:
It is the daily strivings that count, not the momentary heights. The obeying of My Will day in and day out, in the wilderness plains, rather than the occasional Mount of Transfiguration.
Perseverance is nowhere needed so much as in the religious life. The drudgery of the Kingdom it is that secures My intimate Friendship. I am the Lord of little things, the Divine Control of little happenings.
Nothing in the day is too small to be a part of My scheme. The little stones in a mosaic play a big part.
Joy in Me. Joy is the God-given cement that secures the harmony and beauty of My mosaic.

I wake up each morning not sure what type of day I will have, the past two have been fine - we continue to get cards i the mail and have received more flowers. These small outpourings are very helpful to remind Aaron and I that we are not alone and that yes, we do have a son. A son that is loved deeply.

This reading today, reminded me that God is with me each day - in all the little things. Making the coffee, reading my devotions, taking a shower, talking on the phone, visiting friends, walking on the treadmill - He is in Life. He is right there with me. What a HUGE blessing in that realization. And that is a realization I need to have everyday!

Thank you for all the donations to the Jeremiah Parker Shelby Memorial Fund, you have eased the financial burden considerably! THANK YOU!


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Power and Wealth?

Joel speaks so strong and loud .
He Gives You Power
Today's Scripture

"And you shall remember the Lord your God, for it is He who gives you power to get wealth…" (Deuteronomy 8:18, NKJ).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
God wants to do something great in and through you. He has promises and blessings in store for you that you haven’t even thought of yet. The Scripture tells us that He gives us power to gain wealth. Wealth is simply having abundance. God wants you to live in abundance so that He can use you to be a blessing to others. When we are willing and obedient to Him, we open the door to His promises. In other words, when we live in excellence and integrity, when we follow the Word of God, we will walk in His blessing. Like a tree planted by the water, your leaf will not wither because you are connected to an unlimited supply line. Notice one more thing about this verse: it says that "He gives us the power to get wealth." See, God gives us the ability, He gives us creative ideas and inventions, but we have to be diligent and do our part and step out and use what He’s given us. We have to sow seed in order to see the harvest that He has promised. Receive His power today and choose a life of integrity so that you can move forward into the abundant life He has prepared for you.
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for giving me the power to live in abundance. I choose to be faithful to You and to Your Word. I choose to diligently follow Your commands and ask that You bless everything I set my hands to. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

In this devotion, I was struck by the words :"gives you the power" we still have to do something. We do not get to just sit back and have wealth or abundance come to us - their is some action on our part.

We continue to obey and listen for God in our day. We got a call early this morning for our 4 year old niece, she needs a ride to gymnastics because her brothers have a 2 hour delay for school. The two hour delay is not as exciting when you are on leave:) But I still find my self doing a small cheer when my district popped up on the screen. So I am off to gymnastics this morning. What a treat, my niece is excited that I am taking her, she did a happy dance. That is plenty to smile about!

Thank you for continued prayers, we are so blessed by each of you.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

What now?

We celebrated Jeremy yesterday. The ceremony was great, the continued outpouring of love for Jeremy, Aaron, our families and me - overwhelming. We do not often get a glimpse of how many people care about us - the past few days Aaron and I have been so blessed by so many, we are so blessed by this outpouring. The past day we have been given the gift of a glimpse of heaven - We imagine the welcoming party that Jeremy was received when he entered eternity. Thankfully we witnessed a similar outpouring the past few days.
Love continued to pulse through my head and heart yesterday. Love for a little man so few people got to meet in his short time here. But I know that Time is not the determiner of love - we love so deep in a very short amount of time.

So what now ... we have bills to pay.
But the Lord blessed us with friends that set up the Jeremiah Parker Memorial Fund - so little to none will come from our savings. What a HUGE blessing - thank you if you donated.
We have thank you notes to write, that will take some time, but what a blessing to have so many friends and family to thank. It is again, a reminder of the Body here on earth.

Then What? Day by day we will figure it out.

Which of course brings me to my Joel Reading today:

The Greatness of His Favor
Today's Scripture
"But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us…raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus"(Ephesians 2:4-7, NKJ)
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Oftentimes, people set their focus on what God has done in the past—how He parted the Red Sea or stopped the sun for Joshua or fed thousands of people with just a little boy’s small lunch. Yes, God has performed many amazing miracles throughout history, and it’s important that we give Him praise and glory, but at the same time, we also have to look forward to what God wants to do in our lives today. In this verse, Paul says that " in the ages to come" God would do things that far supersede anything He's ever done before. I believe that the "ages to come" that he is talking about is this day right and the time we are living in right now. God wants to outdo Himself in our generation! Remember, God is a God of increase. Where you are today is not where you are supposed to stay. He has greater levels of his favor and blessings in store for you/ Dare to dream big! Dare to keep a God -Sized vision in front of you! Dare to take hold of every blessing that the Lord has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today

Father in heaven, thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. Today I open my heart and mind to You so that I can see the greatness of what You want to do in my life. Use me for Your Glory, In Jesus' Name, Amen.

One day at a time, we will keep moving forward. With peace that passes all understanding and simply love. Aaron and I just being together. I have an awesome husband and friend. What a blessing.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009


During our celebration of Jeremiah we shared the BEAUTIFUL slide show of images that our special photographer captured during the hour we shared with our son. Have some tissue and enjoy.

The photographer, Jessica Strickland is simply amazing, she has a true gift to capture life in still images. We are very blessed that she was able to spend time with us. She is the same photographer that took the maternity pictures in November. The images are amazing!



Yesterday was a long afternoon, but we were so blessed by the outpouring of love, support, tears, prayers and hugs. The outward demonstration of Gods love for Aaron, Jeremy and me provides strength and encouragement from God. Thank you ....

Reading Joels word this morning is a reminder in our Faithfulness was are in store for the fullness of blessings - that no mind can imagine!
The Fullness of the Blessing
Today's Scripture
"But I know that when I come to you, I shall come in the fullness of the blessing of the gospel of Christ" (Romans 15:29, NKJ).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Are you living in the fullness of His blessing? God’s blessing is His supernatural empowerment. It is His favor. And we’ve all seen a measure of His blessing, but I believe there is a whole new level He wants to take you to. God has promises and opportunities in store for you that you haven’t even thought of yet! What you’ve seen in the past is only a fraction of what God wants to do in your future. Understand that God likes to outdo Himself. He wants to open doors for you and bring out talents and abilities you didn’t even know you had. Remember, the God we serve is a God of abundance. He is the God of more than enough. Not only does He want to meet your needs, He wants to give you enough to bless other people. That’s living in the fullness of the blessing. Don’t settle where you are. Your destiny is not determined by the economy, by your past, or what anyone else thinks or says. Your destiny is determined by Almighty God. He wants you to tap into a greater measure of His blessing and live the abundant life He has in store for you!
A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I come before You today with an open and humble heart, ready to receive all You have for me. Teach me to live a life that is pleasing to You so that I can be an example of Your love in the world around me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Yesterday a friend reminded me of a scripture I looked to over the volleyball season for players and myself:
"Don't be afraid; just believe." Mark 5:36B
pray: Jesus, help me to not be afraid when bad things happen, but ratter look to You and have faith that You will work a miracle in my life.
* I know we did not get the specific miracle prayed for with Jeremiah's life, but I do know there are many other miracles surrounding him and his life. One day we will witness them ALL!

Again, thank you all ... we have another big day at hand.


Monday, January 12, 2009


I looked for something specific to Faith, I am very unsure of what emotions today and tomorrow will bring - the only thing I can count on is that God will be with us. And He will guide us through.

My Reading today:
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you" Matthew 17:20
And without faith it is impossible to please God,because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6

Lord, increase my faith today - increase me faith that I can move mountains in Your name. Give me the strength to stand strong on your promises and believe Your every word. Help me to pray in power about the plans you have for me. Help me to lean on Your perfect strength today (and everyday) that I can be an outward demonstration of Your Love Peace and Joy. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit today - You are my strength and my stronghold. I thank you for loving me perfectly. In Jesus name, Amen.


Sunday, January 11, 2009

From the Star

I remember in high school English having to write my own obituary, last Thursday I wrote one for my son - today it was in the Indy Star .... I am not sure if my English teacher would approve or what grade I might receive, but it seems like everything that we learn regarding rules flies out the window when life really happens.

Published at
Shelby, Jeremiah P., Infant
January 11, 2009

Jeremiah Parker Shelby Infant was born at 11:17 on January 4, 2009 and passed away at 12:28 p.m., January 4, 2009. Although his time with us was brief, he touched us all forever. Jeremiah is survived by his parents, Aaron and Mary "Beth" Shelby; grandparents, William and Nancy Diehl, Steven and Janice Shelby; many aunts, uncles and cousins. A Fashionthropic T-shirt in memory of Jeremiah has been designed with all proceeds going; to the Memorial Fund of Jeremiah Parker Shelby for Trisomy 13 Awareness. Services will be held Tuesday, January 13, 2009, at 11 a.m. at Northview Christian Life Church. Calling will be held Monday, January 12 from 4 p.m. to 7 p.m. and Tuesday from 10 a.m. to 11 a.m. at the Church. Arrangements entrusted to Flanner and Buchanan Funeral Center, Carmel. Those who wish to sign the on-line guest registry or to share thoughts with the Shelby family may do so by visiting www.

This morning Aaron and I slept late (8am!) I went over to use my sisters treadmill, only walked for about 25 min (very slow). Then dear friends picked us up and we went to the movies - we saw "Yes Man" nothing like the physical comedy of Jim Carey to make you laugh. Laughing feels good. We will lay low the rest of the day, watch some football and prepare for tomorrow.


Saturday, January 10, 2009

Game Plan

Last week at this tine I was in excruciating pain as my body prepared for Jeremy's arrival. I recall just a day or two earlier I had prayed that I would KNOW that I would KNOW it was time - last Saturday I KNEW! The contractions started at 12:45 am Friday - they became more intense and frequent Saturday - and we headed to the hospital at 12:15pm ... When I called the DR she told me to call back when the contractions were 3-5 min apart and I could not talk through them. Well part of the competitor in me was sure I would never be headed to the hospital - thankfully I listened to the Holy Spirit and submitted. All mothers have a birth story, we learn so much about these amazing bodies we have been blessed with - Only God could create something so efficient and beautiful. And not freak our husbands out too much.
Jeremiahs impending arrival marked the end of one chapter of the journey, just to have us start a new chapter. And I can count on the underlying theme to be the same - GOD.

FROM JOEL, as I ponder in what this new chapter will entail, I enjoyed this devotion:
Plan for a Comeback
Today's Scripture
"Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ…" (II Corinthians 2:14, NKJ).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
God promises to always lead us into victory! That means, no matter what you are facing, no matter what’s going on in the world around you, no matter what anybody says, you should always be planning for a comeback! In the middle of that adversity or tough time, start making your list of who you’re going to invite to your victory celebration. You don’t have to wait for everything to be perfect before you decide to celebrate what God is going to do in your life. Put some action behind your faith. That means if you’re in the hospital, start planning what you’re going to do when you get out. If you lost some money when the stock market went down, start planning your coming-out-of-debt party. When things don’t look good in the natural, remember, we serve a supernatural God. With God leading you into victory, you can always plan for increase. You can plan for restoration. You can plan for a comeback that will make you stronger and better than you ever were before!
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, I give You thanks and praise today for the promise of victory. Give me Your vision for the future so that I can move confidently into the abundant life You have for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

The coach in me, is always looking for a strategy, or a game plan to come back or to stay out in front. Sometimes the plan and focus has to change completely, other times small tweaks, and sometimes you just keep doing what you are doing. For me, I plan to keep doing what I am doing, leaning, trusting, and walking in Faith that God will direct me. He is the master planner, I simply need to listen and obey.

Aaron and I continue to lift each of you up in prayer, thank you for all your love support and prayers!


Friday, January 9, 2009


Last year I attended the Discipleship Walk, this is a weekend of spiritual renewal, growth and an opportunity to create a closer relationship with Jesus. That was one year ago this weekend. Reflecting back on that weekend, my journey was forever changed. I developed new and meaningful relationships and my relationships that were established prior to the weekend were strengthened. Those relationships are a strong hold for me now. In addition to my walk with Christ, that was also changed forever.

At the end of the weekend we got a devotional, the devotions are day by day, and last year I decided I would wait until this year to use it. The title is God Calling. It is written from Gods perspective, as if he is talking direct to me ... I felt the need to share my reading from yesterday

Love Bangs the Door
Life with Me is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. My guidance is often by shut doors. Love bangs as well as opens. Joy is the result of faithful trusting acceptance of My Will, when It seems not joyous.

Saint Paul, my servant, learnt this lesson of the banged doors when he said "our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory." Expect rebuffs until this is learned - it is the only way.
Joy is the daughter of calm.

Nothing over the past 6 months has been easy in the natural. When we received the news during our first ultra sound at 17 weeks that we were looking at Trisomy 13 - and the prognosis was not good. It was another 2 weeks when we found out that our tests had come back showing yes, Trisomy 13. We were given information that the likelihood for our pregnancy to make it full term and to have a live birth was unlikely. Considering that - Aaron and I have been so extremely blessed that we carried Jeremy for 40 weeks and had the opportunity to hold our son - alive and be with him when he passed. Today I marvel at that blessing and miracle.

I can only image considering this passage what greater Glory He has planned ... in that I enter into a peace that surpasses understanding. Then a feeling of JOY that can not be described - the Lord does hold us in his palm. Now please do not assume that tears are not being shed, at any given moment there are tears and there is sadness, but again we have been so covered in prayer we come out on the other side with some new thought of what a blessing Jeremy continues to be.

Today Aaron took the final things over to the funeral home, which I am sure was no easy task, but he was able to take care of that. We have finalized the plans for the services next week - prayers are always welcome. THANK YOU ALL!


Thursday, January 8, 2009

He lifts you up

To try and say yesterday was a hard day is an absolute understatement, so this morning when I got up to read the devotion from Joel - I have to know that God is at work, He has not left us, and He is creating in me something new ...

He Lifts You Up
Today's Scripture

"I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair…He set my feet on solid ground…He has given me a new song to sing…" (Psalm 40:1-3, NLT).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Have you ever felt like you were in a pit of despair? Just like God lifted David out, God is going to lift you out. Where you are right now is not where you’re going to stay. There are brighter days up ahead for you filled with favor, promotion, and increase. As you walk uprightly before Him, no good thing will He withhold from you. Notice that God gives us a new song. We have to do our part to sing that song. That means you don’t go around talking about your problems, how bad things are, or how you’re never going to make it. No, you have a song of victory! If somebody asks you how you’re doing, your attitude should be, "I’m too blessed to be stressed! I’m moving forward in strength and power." Remember, praise precedes the victory, and the Bible tells us that God is enthroned on our praises. As you magnify and lift Him up, He will lift you up out of your despair. He’ll set your feet on solid ground, and you’ll move forward in joy and victory in every area of your life.
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for lifting me up and setting me feet on solid ground. I will sing the new song You’ve placed in my heart. Keep me close to You always and moving forward in the plan You have for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

A deep thanks to all, never have we felt alone or deserted - because of your prayers we know we are not alone. That does not mean sadness does not creep in - but it has a short stay when we recognize how blessed we truly are to have so many wonderful people surrounding us - thank you.

Today we will meet to plan the service to celebrate our son, Jeremiah Parker Shelby ... and there are many reasons to celebrate, sometimes it is hard to see those blessings through our tears - but be assured they are there!


Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Services will be held at Northview Christian Life Church ( in Carmel Indiana.

Monday January 12th: Calling 4-7pm
Tuesday January 13th: Calling 10-11am / Funeral 11am-12pm
There will be an opportunity for Fellowship following the Funeral.
Following the services we will have a private ceremony, for the family, at Oaklawn Memorial Gardens.

Thank you all for your continued prayers, these have not been our easiest days - but we remain steady in the Promises of our Lord.
Like the Palm Tree, we grow stronger in the strom.


Palm Trees

A few weeks, or maybe months ago I heard Joel Osteen preach on this topic - it strengthened me at that time and does again today.

Nothing Can Hold You Back
Today's Scripture

"The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree…" (Psalm 92:12).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Have you ever seen a palm tree in the midst of a great storm or hurricane? That tree may be bent so far over that it’s almost touching the ground, but when the wind finally stops, that palm tree bounces right back up. And do you know that while that palm tree is hunched over under the pressure of the storm, it is actually growing stronger?

The reason God said we’d flourish like a palm tree is because He knew there would be difficult times. He knew things would come against us to try to steal our joy and victory. God said, “You’re going to be like a palm tree because the storms of life will come, the winds will blow, but you are going to come right back up again stronger than before.” Nothing can hold you back! No weapon formed against you will ever prosper. No matter what’s happening in the world around you, keep standing. Keep praying. Keep believing. Your brightest days are right out in front of you, and God’s plan is to bring you blessing and victory all the days of your life.

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for making me strong in You. I trust that You are working in my life, even in the midst of the storms. I know You will bring me out stronger, wiser, and better off than ever before. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

We are off to make arrangements for Jeremy today ... we will have details posted this afternoon/evening.


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Destined for Blessing

From Joel Osteen:
Destined for Blessing

Today's Scripture
"For we are God's [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live]" (Ephesians 2:10, AMP).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
You are destined for blessing! Are you living the good life that God has prearranged for you? Everything you need to live as an overcomer is inside of you by the power of the Holy Spirit. As a believer, there are seeds of success on the inside of you. There are blessings in store for you. If you´ll get into agreement with God in your thoughts, attitudes, words and actions, then you will be positioned to receive all of His spiritual blessings. Choose to start your day by declaring what God says about you. Declare, "I am blessed. I am prosperous. I am healthy and strong. I have favor. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am the head and not the tail, above only and not beneath." Friend, when you start speaking like that, all of heaven takes notice. Your faith activates His plan for your life. Angels are dispatched on your behalf. Blessings are set in motion. Before you know it, you are living the good life He promised and moving forward into the destiny of blessing He has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, thank You for loving me and for setting me up for blessing. I choose to speak Your truth over my life so that I can be all that You’ve called me to be. I honor You today and always. In Jesus´ Name. Amen.

Over the past 6 months Joel's word has helped to keep my heart, eyes and head focused on God. Today has been no different. Thank you for all the Prayer Warriors you have also helped me stay focused on God, the one in control.

Tomorrow, Aaron and I, along with my parents will meet with the funeral directors to make arrangements for Jeremiah's services. Tentatively, we are looking at Monday 1.12.09 for the calling with services on Tuesday 1.13.09. When the details and times are certain we will post again.

Aaron and I have been so overwhelmed with the stories and praise each of you for sharing how our son has impacted you for the Kingdom - he has blessed us so much.
We are equally impressed how quickly our support system moved into action. If you have not seen the amazing shirt designed by our friend, please see the link in the previous post - again a blessing.

Our deepest thanks to each of you, we are on this journey together - THANK YOU!


Monday, January 5, 2009

The Kingdom Working

This was put together by our Awesome Life Group ....

Our Brookside church pastor, Aaron Shelby, and his wife Beth welcomed Jeremiah Parker Shelby January 4th then released him to be with Jesus approximately one hour later.....Due to the financial cost of a funeral, two different options have been set up for friends and family to contribute to the family....
1. Memorial Fund * ALL Donations will go directly to the Shelby Family to cover funeral expenses. If the financial blessing outweighs the cost, the remaider of the proceeds will be forwarded to the trisomy 13 charity of the parents choice. * Donations are being accepted at all FORUM CREDIT UNION branches. Just go into the branch and give them jeremy's name and tell them it is for a memorial fund....After the funeral services...all money will be released to the Shelby's so please make your contributions prior to that date. All donations will be anonymous. Here is a link of all their locations... You must copy and paste this link
2. Fashionthropic T-Shirt in memory of Jeremiah has been designed and about Half of the total cost goes directly to the shelby's to help them cover expenses...This is a GREAT way to help out and have an item to remember him by.....check out the link

We will be posting arrangements when they are set, thank you ALL!


Sunday, January 4, 2009

Jeremiah Parker Shelby

born 11:17 am
6lbs14 oz , 21 inches
passed 12:28 pm
surrounded by his loving family, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, and Dear Friends.

Arrangements to follow.

Please pray for strength, healing and understanding.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6


We got 10!!!

We are at 10 cm and waiting to get rid of a little bit of cervix.

The cart is all set up in the room and the doctor, special nurse, photographer, and all the family are here.

It is GO time!!

Keep praying - we can feel it!



At 7am ... 8cm, +1
DR will be back @ 9, she thinks we will be ready to go!

Continuing to walk in Faith and Trust!


40 weeks....

we made it to the 40 week mark!

As of the last check there has been some progress ... 4/5. Contractions are continuing to be instense and longer, according to the monitor. The epidural is great!

If needed we will move things along around 6am, but right now I am planning to sleep, as I have been up for 24 hours.

thank you for the blankets of prayer.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

waiting in the hospital

we are here ...
contractions have been consistent, about 2 min apart. But my cervix is only 0-1 ... so we will continue to check the progress, and possibly induce in the morning.

Jeremy and I are being monitored, Aaron is very calm and helpful.
All is well:)

God is in control - thank you for continued prayers!!!


A few hours change everything!

We will most likely be heading to the hospital today ...
at 12:45 i had my first "contraction" the next one was at 1:15am ... and they have continued to be steady since - it is now 11:15 am ... the length varies between 3min - 7 min.
I woke Aaron at 2:30, then called the DR at 4am when I had an hour of 5 min apart contractions. She is calm and cool, we are to call back when the contractions are 3-5 min apart and I cannot talk through them.

The contractions are becoming longer and more intense - between 3 and 7 min. I am going to take a shower get dressed - then call the DR again.

Yesterday I asked for prayers to KNOW when labor would begin ... God hears all things - I KNOW this is labor.

We will post again when we can ....


Friday, January 2, 2009

Is it time yet?

Still no "body"" changes for me ... today I have been very lazy after a sleepless night. Not that I was not tired, I just could not get comfortable. I spent most of the time adjusting, squirming, sitting, laying .. it was not enjoyable. Then to top it off, my throat is super raw - from my sinus draining. Which means each time I swallow if I had been sleeping, then I would be awake. It is a no win situation.
BUT enough on the complaining stage - I have talked to enough Moms that the sleepless nights are VERY normal so I will just suck it up and do the best I can.

Last night Aaron and I spent time at my Sisters with her Family (she has 4 kids) and watched the Rose Bowl, would have been a good game if Penn State had played the 2nd quarter! I am ready for the Big Ten to win a Rose Bowl already ... those who might not know, Aaron played Football at the University of Illinois, so we always root for the Big 10. In his years there, he did go to 4 bowl games - but never the Rose Bowl - even though one on the years they tied #1 in the Big Ten ... oh well! He still had some great experiences and it is fun to hear the stories.

Anyway, I am always recharged when I am with my nephews and nieces ... something about playing Jenga and helping the 4 year old with her "homework" no, she is not in school ... and if you ask her she will say she is "Home Schooled" I wonder where they get these things!

So the question most asked "How are things going" - well for the most part good. The bag is packed, I am ready for contractions to start and meet Jeremy. At the same time, I feel like I already know Jeremy, and I pray for the opportunity to feed him, hold him in my arms, change his diaper, watch Aaron hold him and change him, watch our parents with Jeremy ... and all our friends and family meet him and spend time with him. The hard part for me is not knowing how much time we will have.
In my heart, Jeremy is coming home and my heart does not worry about how much time - it is my head that gets stuck on the time and wanting to be sure there are no regrets. How do you get your head to trust that God has a plan, my heart is completely there.

Questions have come in regarding visits to the hospital - my feelings, it you are comfortable coming to the hospital come visit. Aaron and I are creating a list of numbers and emails so we can update people - if you would like to be included you can send us an email: and will will add you to our list. We will of course keep the blog updated as best we can.

Please continue to pray for Jeremy's arrival and specifically his heart. Pray for me, that I will KNOW if I go into labor, for a a speedy and safe delivery. Pray for Aaron to remain calm and cool when I am not.

from Joel today ....
It's Your Time
Today's Scripture
“The vision is yet for an appointed time..." (Habakkuk 2:3).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
God has planted seeds of greatness on the inside of you, and He has predestined that those things in your heart come to pass. You may have had more than your share of unfair things happen in your life. You probably have plenty of reasons to just settle where you are. But understand, the depth of your past is an indication of the height of your future. If you’ve been through a lot of negative things in the past, it just means that your future is bigger and brighter and greater than you can even imagine. It’s your time to step out and embrace all that God has for you! Are there dreams and promises that you’ve let go of? Are there things that God has placed in your heart, but because of time, because of disappointments, you’ve given up on them? Today is the day to give your dreams a new beginning. Today is the day to allow faith to rise in your heart. Remember, what’s happened to you is not nearly as important as what’s happened in you, and you are stronger and wiser than ever before. It’s your time; it’s your season to move forward into the destiny that God has prepared for you!
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for the destiny that You have placed in my heart. I choose to stand in faith knowing that You are working behind the scenes on my behalf. I am confident that I will embrace all that You have for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Jeremy is a seed of greatness - I stand in faith that God has grand plans for him and all of us!


Thursday, January 1, 2009



2009 .... wow '08 went so fast.
Being pregnant for 39 of the 52 weeks in the year certainly added to the 2008 experience.

Aaron and I sat and marveled at all the wonderful blessings we have received this past year.

Urban Ministry and Brookside Community Church continues to thrive.
Aaron graduated from the DeVos Urban Leadership Initiative, the Diversity Leadership Academy and was Ordained in August.

For me ... my biggest blessing, Jeremy. He has taught me that I have a pretty amazing support system that has been placed around me ... and that it is Gods plan for me to receive help and support. I reflect back on how independent I have always been, I always want to do things myself and receive a measure of satisfaction when I am able to complete whatever the task on my own. (yard work, fixing things around the house, well, most manual labor jobs) This year I have had to go outside myself and receive help from those that God has placed in my life. And I have this feeling .. this is just the start. Receive help from "outside" the family is a big one too ... typically when I needed something one of my sisters, my Mother or my Father could help me. I have found that there have been some very amazing people with special gifts and talents that have been placed in my life - I am no longer as apprehensive to ask for help or to seem weak if I need help. This the the kingdom at work. GLORY!

We look forward to all that God has planned for the upcoming year ...
to quote GranDaddy (Aaron's Father)
"Hit the ground running in the name of the Lord! "