Monday, December 19, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
problem is, I spend time looking but not doing. Last week aaron and i cleaned out the garage, I was inspired to DO something ... I found this bookshelf, that used to be my Grandmothers, one the back written in crayon - their name/address/ $.50 delivery fee ...
So I cleaned it,
I sealed it today, and it will move into the house Thursday:)
Friday, October 7, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
first cookout at Papas property .... next year he can enjoy the smores
laughing! check out those hands & legs! This is one healthy guy:)
We are soo incredibly blessed with such a special guy.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
This was part of my devotion last week, and I have been thinking about it since.
Specifically, I had a visit with my Special Nurse, which included talking to a mother that recently suffered a stillbirth. It breaks my heart that there is one more family that has suffered loss, while I know she will find fantastic support with my Special Nurse, who I am so thankful for - I hate that there is even a need for her position. My heart aches for this young couple simply hoping to start a family.
I have been thinking, how I often would like to just understand.
Then I realize, I appreciate, that I am working with just enough light for the step in front of me walking in trust, that God, the one who does know and understand has a plan for me, and each of us.
"For I know the plans I have for you." Declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future..." Jeremiah 29:11
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE“Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for He is faithful that promised)” (Hebrews 10:23, KJV)
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria“Hold fast” is not a phrase we often use in this culture. But in the original Greek, hold fast means not only to embrace, but to embrace with force as if someone is trying to take something from you. In other words, you’ve got to have a firm grip or you’re going to lose out! And notice what we are supposed to hold fast to — our profession, our declaration of faith.
I like to think of it sort of like a tug of war. You’re on one end and the enemy is on the other. He’s trying to pull that rope out of your hand. He’s trying to steal your hope and get you to speak negative words of doubt and unbelief. But you’ve got to be determined and stand strong. You’ve got to persevere and hold fast. Don’t let the enemy pull the seed of faith out of your heart! You might need to dig your heals in and get a new grip, but don’t you dare let go! Keep speaking words of faith. Keep speaking words of hope. Keep declaring God's Word and keep holding fast to the profession of your faith!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, today I choose to hold fast to my profession of faith in You. I know that You are faithful, and I believe that You will complete everything that You’ve started in my life. I bless You and magnify You above all else. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
i really love changing dirty (sometimes really dirty) diapers, late night / early morning feedings, the HUGE smile when my son hears my voice, followed by the coo when he sees me.
i love watching him sleep.
i love watching his dad play with him.
i love thanking God for choosing me to be Xaviers mom ... and for choosing Xavier to be my son.
i love that God is not done, i am in a great place.
a place full of joy ... today i was reminded that God has more ... i do NOT want to get in HIS way ...
Get Ready for More
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE“Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back...”(Isaiah 54:2, NIV)
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria God has greater blessings in store for you! He has favor in your future like you’ve never imagined. He wants to take you places that you’ve never dreamed. But in order for us to partake of all these blessings, we have to increase our capacity to receive.Think about this: if you have a one-gallon bucket, and someone has fifty gallons to give you, the problem is not with the supply. The problem is that you don’t have the capacity to receive the fifty gallons. But if you get rid of that small container and get something larger, then you will be able to receive more. It’s the same way with God. If we think we’ve reached our limits, the problem isn’t that God doesn’t have the resources or the ability. The problem is that our container is too small. We have to enlarge our vision and make room for the new things God has for us. Our attitude should be, “Even though the economy is down, I know God is still on the throne. I know wherever I go His goodness and mercy follow me.” When you have that kind of attitude, you’re increasing your capacity to receive so that you can live the abundant life He has in store for you.
A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, today I choose to increase my capacity to receive from You. I let go of limited thinking and old mindsets and open myself to everything You have in store for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen
Friday, May 20, 2011
our life group started a new study, Sacred Parenting (Gary Thomas) ... how raising children shapes our souls. Not only has our group started this study - I am leading it! ... jumping right in.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
3 weeks ago I met my son.
My love for him was immediate, and continues to grow each day.
When he was 4 days old, he recognized my voice, my heart melted and tears of joy filled my eyes.
Who knew that I would have this most amazing experience to gain a glimpse at how Our Father in Heaven loves each of us. We have all been adopted into HIS family, how blessed and loved are we. 4 weeks ago, I thought I understood the Love our Father has for us - blown away. I was not even close to comprehending. PRAISE THE LORD!
My love grows for our little man, I watch Aaron with him, waves of joy pour over - and my love for Aaron multiplies. Parenting together, providing the needs for this little love is our joy and our pleasure. Again, a glimpse of how much Abba, our Father desires to provide for us.
Praise the Lord for this valuable season of learning we are experiencing!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
A Place of Abundance
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE "…We went through fire and water, but You brought us to a place of abundance"
(Psalm 66:12 NIV).
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Everyone has times in life when they feel like they are going through the fire, so to speak, or they feel overwhelmed with everyday life. If that's you today, understand that God is going to bring you through those challenges. He's going to bring you through the fire and the flood into a place of abundance and victory! We serve a God of more than enough, and His desire is to always make sure you have whatever you need to be successful and victorious in every area of your life. Remember, John 10 says that Jesus came so that we can have life—abundant life! He wants you to have an abundance of resources, an abundance of wisdom, an abundance of peace—everything you need. Open your heart and thank Him for His goodness. Begin to receive His promises by faith. Let your praise open the door for Him to move on your behalf so He can take you to a place of abundance in every area of your life!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY Heavenly Father, I humbly come to You today, giving You all that I am. Thank You for leading and guiding me into a place of abundance and victory. I give You all the glory, honor and praise. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
open eyes ... first day home
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Xavier Moses is home! (pictures soon)
important stats: 6lbs 9oz, 19 1/2" - 9:22am, Wednesday March 30th
He has been eating, sleeping, peeing and pooping like a champ:)
The scripture that continues to run through my head
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him. " 1 Corinthians 2:9
I consider this part: WHAT GOD HAS PREPARED ...
I certainly never could have imagined how HE was going to answer my prayer, my request, my persistent knocking .... to bring a child home from the hospital. LOOK AT GOD!!!
I am ever thankful for the obedience of fellow servants, that heard a prompting from the Lord - not just in the past few weeks ... I am talking YEARS AGO! So much of this story is attached to decisions and choices made many years ago. Should I be surprised, no because believe it or not it is not MY story, it is Gods story. From the beginning of creation. Oh how blessed am I that I have been chosen to be a part of the story! ... that HE has prepared.
The parts continue to be revealed, each at the appointed time.
Right on time - Praise the Lord!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Aaron & I are in a "final" stage of waiting. Our expectant mom, is in the beginning stages of labor!
He Answers You
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “I will answer them before they even call to Me...” (Isaiah 65:24, NLT)
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Have you ever thought about something you wanted or needed, and suddenly that need was supplied even before you had time to stop and pray? God knows your needs before you even speak them. He wants to provide for you and answer the very desires of your heart. Don’t ever think God is too busy to answer you. Don’t ever think your needs are too small or that you don’t matter. The truth is that He cares about everything that concerns you, and He loves to hear you call upon His name! When you put Him first in everything you do, when you faithfully follow His commands, He’ll pour out an extra portion of His goodness and favor upon you!
Remember, you are very special to God, and He hears you and answers you. It may not be in your timing or in the way you expected, but know that He always has your best interest at heart. He is working things out for your good, and He will always answer — sometimes before you even call!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. I trust that You hear me and that You will answer me. Show me Your ways and teach me to trust in You as I surrender to You every area of life. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
GRACE AND PEACE!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
- we officially have an attorney
- the expectant birth mom has an attorney
- the expectant birth mom and her attorney have a birth plan in place
- when she goes into labor, our attorney will be notified, then we will receive a call.
- when the little guy arrives, our attorney will be notified, then we will receive a call.
- the expectant birth mom will be able to sign papers 24 hours after birth, unless she has a c-section(which is unlikely, baby #1 was vaginal)
- when the expectant mom has signed, we will head to the hospital to meet our son.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
When Beth and I where planning our wedding ceremony we chose Proverbs 3 verses 5 through 6, one of my all time favor verses to quote.
It says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Back in August of 2008 I was ordained here at Northview Church. And while I went through the ceremony with a smile, nobody knew except the Lord, that I was crying in my heart.
Two weeks previous to that glorious ordination day, my wife and I received a diagnosis about our 17-week old baby that he was afflicted with a condition called Trisome 13, which means the presence of an extra (third) chromosome 13 in all of the cells. And this condition is not compatible with life outside the womb.
The commentator Mathew Henry says, “May we learn to obey and trust the Lord, even in tribulation; to live or die as he pleases: we know not for what good ends our lives may be shortened or prolonged.”
Beth and I where completely shocked when we heard the doctor reveal the life of our son would not endure long. To be completely open I thought I was exempt, immune, protected from such affliction, but not so. Proverbs chapter 3 is so poetic and romantic; to me it is so inspiring to hear “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight,” but now, needing to apply it in the midst of trial was sobering.
Nobody’s faith is immune from testing. I thought it strange that we where experiencing this trial, but the Bible says,
In 1 Peter 4:12-13
12 Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; 13 but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy.
2nd - Beth and I are amazed that we didn’t fall apart during that trial. We actually became closer to the LORD and to one another in the midst that stormy season. This trial was lived out in the open and it could not be endured in secret. Not bothering others with our hurts, habits and hang-ups is so common, but so unhealthy.
This trial allowed us to see God working through our friends and family, Brookside Church, Northview Church and our Life Group as God demonstrated His love and compassion for us. We are now experiencing the body of Christ supporting and contributing to our calling to adopt a child.
Another calling, more trials, more grace, more joy.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
GRACE AND PEACE!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
since posting about the upcoming adoption, needing to raise funds and availability of the "double blessing beads" - the words of encouragement and action taken by folks around us : OVERWHELMING! and loving it.
my heart continues to expand ... i accidentally landed on a scripture yesterday at church when trying to get to where the pastor was .... of course it was one that was revealed to me in October, and i have been looking for it since.
"Make room for us in your hearts.
We have wronged no one, we have corrupted no one, we have exploited no one"
2 Corinthians 7:2
There was a note in my bible, i wrote 4 months ago: CHILDREN
Since that time, the Lord continues to expand my heart, in ways i never knew possible. Not just for the family that HE is preparing - but expanding my heart to receive help.
I have always had a VERY hard time asking for and receiving any kind of help. But the Lord continues to do a great work in me, and it is all because of JESUS, I am able to receive this overflow. My eyes and heart are open to HIM - THANK YOU!
For those of you that have ordered bracelets, my life group girls and I are getting busy working to meet the demand, and build a supply so we can sell them at Capstone (northview church) and have them on hand ready to ship. THANK YOU for your continued help for our family building and the women in Uganda!
i praise the Lord for this growing heart, knowing freedom i have never imagined.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I feel like I have been traveling this road, minding my own business - I have been attacked by bandits. These bandits have left me exposed on the road.
I have been left vulnerable, exposed, bare. Such a contrast to my personality of being a do it your self person - self reliant to a fault.
I am in need of a good neighbor, a samaritan, a friend ... to pick me up, care for me. Helping along this journey to a family.
Who could have foreseen how treacherous this road would be for me, for us.
GOD did, HE knew, and uses all things for HIS glory.
HE knew, it would take something huge to bring me to my knees again and again to fully trust, obey and place all my hope in HIM. SURRENDER.
What is so amazing to me, that the Lord has already placed around us, good neighbors, samaritans, family, friends .... help is here, help is on the way.
The man on the road would not have received help if his wounds were not exposed.
With that said;
I PRAISE THE LORD that I have been left exposed, needing help.
I PRAISE THE LORD, for those he has sent and is sending.
I PRAISE THE LORD, that he loves me.
Parable of the Good Samaritan, Luke 10:30-37