emotions

Sunday, tomorrow, is Mothers Day and to be quite honest this "hallmark holiday" hurts my stomach. Daily I am bombarded with thoughts of Jeremy, they just seem to have quadrupled this morning. I am pretty sure this is normal and I need to acknowledge the feelings. But I do not lose my trust in the plan that God has for me ... 

From God Calling:

Harmony Within

Follow my guidance. Be afraid to venture on your own as a child fears to leave its mother's side. Doubt of your own wisdom, and reliance on Mine, will teach you humility. Humility is not the belittling of the self. It is forgetting the self. Nay more, forgetting the self because you are remembering ME. You must not expect to live in a world where all us harmony. You must not expect to live where others are in broken accord with you. It is your task to maintain your own heart peace in adverse circumstances. Harmony is always yours when you strain your ear to catch Heaven's music. Doubt always your power or wisdom to put things right; ask ME to right all as you leave it to Me, and go on your way loving and laughing. I am WISDOM. Only My Wisdom can rightly decide anything - settle any problem. So rely on ME. All is well.

What an awesome reminder that as we humble ourselves - to walk in obedience to HIS will ... asking for wisdom and guidance - all is well. My heart continues to ache, but I rest in knowing I do not ache alone. For the Lord is close to the brokenhearted. Who better knows and understands the loss of a son. 

from Stormie Omartian:

Walking in obedience has not to do only with keeping God's commandments but also with heeding God's specific instructions. ...Whatever he asks you to do, remember He does this for your greater good. God's ways are always better then ours, and obedience to His word clears the path for our prayers to be heard.

my prayer:  Lord, I pray, help me move beyond myself. I am dreading mothers day and the emotions that surround me. Help me Lord to feel your presence always, to know that you have a good an perfect plan - you are in control. Remove from me, anything that does not bring glory to YOU. Fill me with wisdom to walk in obedience with you. Because of You Lord, I can walk in obedience, trusting You along the way - always. You alone, provide the strength needed, the endurance beyond measure. Lord, I thank you that before I think it or ask it - you know my every need. You are my strong hold, my foundation. Praise to you Father, in Jesus Name - AMEN.

GRACE AND PEACE!