On my way to the service, my palms were sweaty and I seriously thought about skipping the entire service. Then that still small voice reminds me that IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!
Watching the video in the sanctuary surrounded by the 4:30 service attendees - was a little strange. We noticed the people around us realize WE were the couple on the screen. I cried, again, and heard the sniffles around. The video techies at Northview put together an awesome video. The editing - using the footage, images, and audio to create a comprehensive 5 minutes that told our story. It was all done in a professional manner and we could not be more pleased. The message Pastor Steve delivered was strong and serious. If you are interested .... it is on line www.nvcl.org - click Reset week 2.
There is a clear sense of relief since taping and viewing the video. I never would have imagined that re-opening the wound of loss and grief could actually provide a new layer of healing. I feel like I have emerged with new eyes ... new feelings of passion for projects I am working on.
Quick recap ... in the past 2 weeks Aaron and I shared our pregnancy journey 3 times. Weopened up raw wounds and now they are healing again. This time we both have a greater sense of each other - it is not our personal experience, but our shared experience. We loved talking and sharing because we did it together.
i am changing gears ...
CRUSIE NOTES : we have our new passports, we recently got information about what to pack ... we are 3 weeks from heading half way around the world.
the biggest factor in packing is the climate, low 64 - high 80 ... And evening wear: We have 2 dinners that require aaron to wear a suit and tie and for me a dress ... the other nights are Country Club Casual ... I will be researching that.
Thank you for continued Prayer ....
GRACE AND PEACE!