Shelby Family

3 years.

2012-01-05T08:51:00.002-05:00

We celebrated Jeremy yesterday January 4th.

Forever a special day for our family. (and friends)
Hard to believe it has been 3 years.

His memory is so vivid, the time with him recorded in my heart.
But this year has been different.

Not as sad and certainly not as bitter. Xavier has made it easier to embrace the blessing, truly & fully embrace the blessing of Jeremy in our family.

While I would certainly prefer to have Jeremy with us now - I am comforted he is enjoying heaven, Jesus & like Jack said jumping on the bed with Grandma Diehl:)

GRACE AND PEACE!

Santa

2011-12-19T09:10:00.003-05:00

We did it ... took the annual trip to have a pictures with Santa. Every year my mother plans a night for all her grandkids to get a picture with Santa. This was the first year there were no tears ...

Xavier was especially brave ... each family gets an individual shot too ... Xavier was the last to go. Maybe because he had the help of Jeremy Bear ... this is an great picture:)

not sure what they were telling each other, but it sure was cute!

GRACE AND PEACE!

remaining in HIM

2011-12-06T09:55:00.003-05:00

"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you" John 15:7 This was the verse I read yesterday morning, from Joel Osteen ... perfect timing.

FROM JOEL:

In life, we all have ups and downs. There are seasons that are more difficult than others, seasons of testing, trials and temptation where our character is being developed and our faith in God is being strengthened. Sometimes it can feel like you are taking two steps forward and then three steps backward. But if we’re not careful, we’ll start thinking that life is always going to be this way. Even in the strong seasons, you'll start looking for things to go wrong.

God doesn’t want us to be living life like a roller coaster. He wants to bring us to a place of stability where we remain strong in Him. Jesus said, “I am the vine. You are the branches. If you abide in me, you will bear much fruit and your fruit will remain.” The word “remain” means “to be fixed, immovable, not affected by circumstances.” If you will just keep abiding in Him, just keep meditating on His Word, He’ll bring you through. He’ll make you strong, He’ll keep you stable, and you’ll keep moving forward into the life of blessing He has prepared for you!

Yesterday, we saw our doctor and had an ultrasound.

I was anxious, nervous and had kept my emotions at bay since we had a positive pregnancy test in October.

It is hard for me to believe it was THIS past January that we were in a similar situation. Headed to the Doctor for an ultrasound at 10 weeks ... only to learn that the baby had stopped developing at 6weeks, it was called a "blighted ovum". Heartbroken - confused - mad.

Those feelings shifted and we knew God had a family for us - and we began the process of adoption - Xavier. His smile, laugh and love is contagious. He is the answer to many prayers. The manifestation that GOD desires GOOD things for HIS children.

Followed by Aaron transitioning from his position at Northview Church as the Urban Pastor to the new role at Shepherd Community Center as the Director of Urban & Sports Ministry. Amazing to see how all along the way GOD has been preparing Aaron for this role. (All the way back to working now in the neighborhood his father grew up!)

So yesterday, as we entered the ultra sound (love the tech Erin!) I shared my anxious feeling - Aaron had a meeting, so my mother and Xavier were with me .... and what did we see, a healthy developing baby. Followed by a strong (161) heart beat. It took a while to get the reading of the heart beat due to my laughing, crying and shaking. We also learned that I was off by a week, I thought we were 11w3d, when the baby measured 12w5d (due June13) .... we will be 13 weeks tomorrow!

meet our JUNEBUG!

choosing to remain in HIM.

GRACE AND PEACE!

it's official!

2011-11-17T13:02:00.002-05:00

today was our FINAL HEARING .... we are proud to introduce the newest member of the Shelby Family!

XAVIER MOSES SHELBY!!!

We have loved him since we first learned of him, he then stole our hearts the day he was born on March 30th .... and he continues to bless us daily. Xavier is our prayer answered.

For this child I prayed, and the Lord answered my prayer. 1 Samuel 1:27

with our attorney, Michele Jackson

with the Judge

OUR FAMILY ... Xavier was pretty excited too!

Many thanks to those that have endured this journey, and continue with us. We pray that you will experience the abundant blessings of the Lord!

May Jesus lead your way.

GRACE AND PEACE!

a DYI project

2011-10-12T10:05:00.000-04:00

i have been spending time on "pinterest" a virtual bulletin board. basically, you can find most anything on the internet, and then pin it on a board - LOVE IT!

problem is, I spend time looking but not doing. Last week aaron and i cleaned out the garage, I was inspired to DO something ... I found this bookshelf, that used to be my Grandmothers, one the back written in crayon - their name/address/ $.50 delivery fee ...

So I cleaned it,

Primed it,

painted it!

I sealed it today, and it will move into the house Thursday:)

GRACE AND PEACE!

sonya

2011-10-07T07:32:00.004-04:00

Yesterday, Xavier and I met my college volleyball coach for lunch ... It was great to catch up. Xavier was enamored with Sonya!

GRACE AND PEACE!

6 months

2011-10-04T11:51:00.003-04:00

working on solids ... likes to do it himself ...

sitting up on my own, smiling at my daddy!

6mo stats:

18.7lbs (79%) 27.3" (84%) | compare to birth 6.5lbs (17%) 19"(30%)

He is growing & thriving!

so blessed!

GRACE & PEACE!

what have we been up to

2011-09-15T12:24:00.005-04:00

Little time to write, but I have heard pictures are worth 1000 words ... here are some 5 month pictures

first swing, XMO loved it!!!
first cookout at Papas property .... next year he can enjoy the smores

laughing! check out those hands & legs! This is one healthy guy:)

We are soo incredibly blessed with such a special guy.

We have one more assessment, then we will receive a court date to finalize the adoption! Prayers are welcome, always!!!

GRACE AND PEACE!

2011-08-16T06:47:00.001-04:00

Many things to write about, trying to find the time to sit at the computer ...

Grace & Peace!

4 months!

2011-08-02T09:49:00.003-04:00

4 months!!

16 lbs 11oz - 24.5"

GRACE AND PEACE!

understanding

2011-07-05T20:14:00.003-04:00

One day a rabbi stood on a hill overlooking a certain city. The rabbi watched in horror as a band of Cossacks on horseback suddenly attacked the town, killing innocent men, women and children. Some of the slaughtered were his own disciples. Looking up to heaven the rabbi exclaimed "Oh, if only I were God." An astonished student, standing nearby, asked, "But, Master, if you were God, what would you do differently?" The rabbi replied: "If I were God I would do nothing differently. If I were God I would understand."

This was part of my devotion last week, and I have been thinking about it since.

Specifically, I had a visit with my Special Nurse, which included talking to a mother that recently suffered a stillbirth. It breaks my heart that there is one more family that has suffered loss, while I know she will find fantastic support with my Special Nurse, who I am so thankful for - I hate that there is even a need for her position. My heart aches for this young couple simply hoping to start a family.

I have been thinking, how I often would like to just understand.

Then I realize, I appreciate, that I am working with just enough light for the step in front of me walking in trust, that God, the one who does know and understand has a plan for me, and each of us.

"For I know the plans I have for you." Declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future..." Jeremiah 29:11

GRACE AND PEACE

three months!

2011-06-30T12:55:00.003-04:00

Xavier & I had a "photo shoot" in my sisters backyard ... here are 2 of the 300 i took!

with sophie ....

remembering his brother Jeremy ...

Xavier, 3 months 15 lbs | 24 1/2"

GRACE AND PEACE!

just sayin'

2011-06-14T15:23:00.005-04:00

most mornings, weather permitting - Xavier and I take a walk. We have discovered that we can walk 5 miles through 7 connected neighborhoods with no back tracking and stating off busy roads. LOVE IT!

As I push him, i am amazed that God chose to bless us in this manner, how when i looked back over my journals for the past 2 1/2 years HE heard my prayer, my cry, my plea and answered me in the most unexpected and amazing manner. My heart cry ... "to bring a baby home from the hospital" ... LOOK AT GOD! He did it, in only a manner that HE receives all the GLORY. PRAISE BE TO GOD!!!

I am so surprised by the rush of emotions that over come me with the realization that HE heard me - HE heard my cries and HE answered.

the word from JOEL reminded me of this

Holding Fast

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE“Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for He is faithful that promised)” (Hebrews 10:23, KJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria“Hold fast” is not a phrase we often use in this culture. But in the original Greek, hold fast means not only to embrace, but to embrace with force as if someone is trying to take something from you. In other words, you’ve got to have a firm grip or you’re going to lose out! And notice what we are supposed to hold fast to — our profession, our declaration of faith.

I like to think of it sort of like a tug of war. You’re on one end and the enemy is on the other. He’s trying to pull that rope out of your hand. He’s trying to steal your hope and get you to speak negative words of doubt and unbelief. But you’ve got to be determined and stand strong. You’ve got to persevere and hold fast. Don’t let the enemy pull the seed of faith out of your heart! You might need to dig your heals in and get a new grip, but don’t you dare let go! Keep speaking words of faith. Keep speaking words of hope. Keep declaring God's Word and keep holding fast to the profession of your faith!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, today I choose to hold fast to my profession of faith in You. I know that You are faithful, and I believe that You will complete everything that You’ve started in my life. I bless You and magnify You above all else. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

I continue to lean into Jesus ... I am fairly certain Xavier is just the start of big blessings to come!

GRACE AND PEACE!!

2 mo & growing!

2011-06-13T13:53:00.002-04:00

so blessed with a growing, interactive little guy!

tummy time
really enjoying tummy time!

GRACE AND PEACE!

continued awe

2011-06-02T14:53:00.003-04:00

i love being a mom.
i really love changing dirty (sometimes really dirty) diapers, late night / early morning feedings, the HUGE smile when my son hears my voice, followed by the coo when he sees me.
i love watching him sleep.
i love watching his dad play with him.
i love thanking God for choosing me to be Xaviers mom ... and for choosing Xavier to be my son.

i love that God is not done, i am in a great place.
a place full of joy ... today i was reminded that God has more ... i do NOT want to get in HIS way ...

Get Ready for More
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE“Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back...”(Isaiah 54:2, NIV)
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria God has greater blessings in store for you! He has favor in your future like you’ve never imagined. He wants to take you places that you’ve never dreamed. But in order for us to partake of all these blessings, we have to increase our capacity to receive.Think about this: if you have a one-gallon bucket, and someone has fifty gallons to give you, the problem is not with the supply. The problem is that you don’t have the capacity to receive the fifty gallons. But if you get rid of that small container and get something larger, then you will be able to receive more. It’s the same way with God. If we think we’ve reached our limits, the problem isn’t that God doesn’t have the resources or the ability. The problem is that our container is too small. We have to enlarge our vision and make room for the new things God has for us. Our attitude should be, “Even though the economy is down, I know God is still on the throne. I know wherever I go His goodness and mercy follow me.” When you have that kind of attitude, you’re increasing your capacity to receive so that you can live the abundant life He has in store for you.
A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, today I choose to increase my capacity to receive from You. I let go of limited thinking and old mindsets and open myself to everything You have in store for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen

GRACE AND PEACE

Sacred Parenting

2011-05-20T07:33:00.005-04:00

"For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me" Matthew 25:35-36

our life group started a new study, Sacred Parenting (Gary Thomas) ... how raising children shapes our souls. Not only has our group started this study - I am leading it! ... jumping right in.

this weekend will be the 2nd session ... during my preview I was rocked - by the above well known verse.

In my limited view, I read this verse with eyes that understood it to state I needed to reach out to those less fortunate then me, more specific the people on the side of the road, the folks with out homes and without resources. NEVER had I looked at this statement through the lens of a parent (an adoptive parent at that). Granted this parent lens is a new for me ... but with this lens, I am able to see the manifestation of this scripture. As a parent the first thing you do is meet this little stranger, feed him, clothe him, bring him home, care for him. Care for his EVERY NEED. Without question.

Further, I began to think about my life as a whole, expanding my view of who I may have helped clothe, feed, care for - before becoming a parent ... suddenly my years of teaching and coaching came flooding back.

How different that scripture looks through a new lens - how narrow my view has been ...

I can only imagine as this study unfolds and I continue to learn how to be a GOD Centered person, My prayer , that my lens will be altered and my heart more like HIS.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Our Family

2011-05-12T12:34:00.000-04:00

Enjoying Easter:)

Family Picture Easter Sunday

GRACE AND PEACE!

My Little Love

2011-04-19T10:29:00.003-04:00

His size is little - but my love is HUGE!

3 weeks ago I met my son.
My love for him was immediate, and continues to grow each day.
When he was 4 days old, he recognized my voice, my heart melted and tears of joy filled my eyes.

Who knew that I would have this most amazing experience to gain a glimpse at how Our Father in Heaven loves each of us. We have all been adopted into HIS family, how blessed and loved are we. 4 weeks ago, I thought I understood the Love our Father has for us - blown away. I was not even close to comprehending. PRAISE THE LORD!

My love grows for our little man, I watch Aaron with him, waves of joy pour over - and my love for Aaron multiplies. Parenting together, providing the needs for this little love is our joy and our pleasure. Again, a glimpse of how much Abba, our Father desires to provide for us.

Praise the Lord for this valuable season of learning we are experiencing!

GRACE AND PEACE!

abundance!

2011-04-06T08:34:00.002-04:00

this was a great word from Joel today ...

A Place of Abundance

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE "…We went through fire and water, but You brought us to a place of abundance"
(Psalm 66:12 NIV).

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Everyone has times in life when they feel like they are going through the fire, so to speak, or they feel overwhelmed with everyday life. If that's you today, understand that God is going to bring you through those challenges. He's going to bring you through the fire and the flood into a place of abundance and victory! We serve a God of more than enough, and His desire is to always make sure you have whatever you need to be successful and victorious in every area of your life. Remember, John 10 says that Jesus came so that we can have life—abundant life! He wants you to have an abundance of resources, an abundance of wisdom, an abundance of peace—everything you need. Open your heart and thank Him for His goodness. Begin to receive His promises by faith. Let your praise open the door for Him to move on your behalf so He can take you to a place of abundance in every area of your life!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Heavenly Father, I humbly come to You today, giving You all that I am. Thank You for leading and guiding me into a place of abundance and victory. I give You all the glory, honor and praise. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

our new little love

2011-04-05T14:55:00.004-04:00

Just a glimpse of our little gift ... many more to follow.

Behold Children are a gift of the Lord Psalm 127:3a

first family picture, Xavier only a few hours old

loving the little lambs ... after papers signed
open eyes ... first day home

And so we are off on the next stage of this journey .... with many adventures to follow!

GRACE AND PEACE!

Look at GOD!

2011-04-03T06:22:00.002-04:00

I remain without clear words to describe my heart, my mind, my soul, my emotions that I have actually brought my son home from the hospital. Please bear with me as I begin ...

Xavier Moses is home! (pictures soon)
important stats: 6lbs 9oz, 19 1/2" - 9:22am, Wednesday March 30th
He has been eating, sleeping, peeing and pooping like a champ:)

The scripture that continues to run through my head
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him. " 1 Corinthians 2:9

I consider this part: WHAT GOD HAS PREPARED ...

I certainly never could have imagined how HE was going to answer my prayer, my request, my persistent knocking .... to bring a child home from the hospital. LOOK AT GOD!!!

I am ever thankful for the obedience of fellow servants, that heard a prompting from the Lord - not just in the past few weeks ... I am talking YEARS AGO! So much of this story is attached to decisions and choices made many years ago. Should I be surprised, no because believe it or not it is not MY story, it is Gods story. From the beginning of creation. Oh how blessed am I that I have been chosen to be a part of the story! ... that HE has prepared.

The parts continue to be revealed, each at the appointed time.
Right on time - Praise the Lord!

to be continued ...

GRACE AND PEACE

... and we wait

2011-03-28T09:53:00.003-04:00

the waiting continues.

we all know babies come when they are ready, not just because all of us on the outside are ready.

i turn to the word .... for assurance as i wait ...

In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. Psalm 5:3

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14

We wait in hope for the LORD; HE is our help and our shield. Psalm 33:20

While I wait, I have completed some projects ... new curtains in the kitchen

... the black really makes the kitchen table pop.

Thank you all for the amazing prayers, looking forward to introducing our son - soon:)

GRACE AND PEACE!

a good word - a great reminder

2011-03-24T09:10:00.003-04:00

Aaron & I are in a "final" stage of waiting. Our expectant mom, is in the beginning stages of labor!

He Answers You
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “I will answer them before they even call to Me...” (Isaiah 65:24, NLT)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Have you ever thought about something you wanted or needed, and suddenly that need was supplied even before you had time to stop and pray? God knows your needs before you even speak them. He wants to provide for you and answer the very desires of your heart. Don’t ever think God is too busy to answer you. Don’t ever think your needs are too small or that you don’t matter. The truth is that He cares about everything that concerns you, and He loves to hear you call upon His name! When you put Him first in everything you do, when you faithfully follow His commands, He’ll pour out an extra portion of His goodness and favor upon you!

Remember, you are very special to God, and He hears you and answers you. It may not be in your timing or in the way you expected, but know that He always has your best interest at heart. He is working things out for your good, and He will always answer — sometimes before you even call!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. I trust that You hear me and that You will answer me. Show me Your ways and teach me to trust in You as I surrender to You every area of life. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

she was right!

2011-03-18T08:16:00.002-04:00

My Mom, my mother was right!

let me say that again - My MOTHER was RIGHT!

When Aaron and I learned of the baby due April 4th, it was the beginning of February. We had only just downloaded forms to begin the application process with an agency. I was so overwhelmed with the cost, we have been for the past few months cutting it real tight with just the 2 of us - how would we be able to sliver off any to begin an adoption fund. Then when we learned of this little one coming April 4th - our hearts are ready - it was our bank account that shouted NO.

After my first conversation with the Attorney, hearing just the retainer fee, followed by the total to complete the adoption made me sick to my stomach. Aaron was at work, so my mom was there to listen and offer encouragement to me. What stands out today, was that she encouraged us, me to move forward as if money was not a concern.

Little did she know that that day she was speaking truth over me .... since that conversation the financial blessings have poured in. Each time a cost has come up - our bank account has been ready. We have been blessed in ways I never never imagined or expected.

Double Blessing Bracelet sales continue to surge ... closing in on 300. 2 more Beads By Beth parties this month, 1 in April and 1 in May, my goal is at least 2 a month through the year. I am so thankful that the Lord reminded me of my gift of craftsmanship. THANK YOU!

Thank you dear prayer warriors - your prayers offer encouragement, protection and comfort! I am enjoying this feeling of overwhelming love, that comes from Our Father - through His precious children, thank you!

I lean on this scripture daily:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

It is my prayer that you will each trust the Lord with all your heart - and allow him to make your paths straight.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Children of God

2011-03-14T16:01:00.005-04:00

I had the opportunity to see Third Day live, at Northview Church 3/9/11, they have been a favorite band of mine since 2001 ... when I was saved.

this blew me away, a must share

³All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ. ⁴Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. ⁵God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure. ⁶So we praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on us who belong to his dear Son. ⁷He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins. ⁸He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding. Ephesians 1: 3-8

GRACE AND PEACE!

miracle

2011-03-14T08:55:00.003-04:00

this past weekend Pastor Steve Poe preached at Northview Church, at the conclusion he invited anyone that needed a miracle to come forward for prayer ... the aisles filled and mighty prayers went up to the heavens.

i was frozen in my seat, basking in the goodness of our Lord, and relishing the miracle of Jeremy, while finding myself in the middle of a new miracle. (Or maybe this is part of the same miracle?)

i am so thankful that my spiritual eyes are open to see and recognize where i am and how the Lord is orchestrating everything. What an amazing place to be - so completely humbled.

adoption update:

we officially have an attorney
the expectant birth mom has an attorney
the expectant birth mom and her attorney have a birth plan in place
when she goes into labor, our attorney will be notified, then we will receive a call.
when the little guy arrives, our attorney will be notified, then we will receive a call.
the expectant birth mom will be able to sign papers 24 hours after birth, unless she has a c-section(which is unlikely, baby #1 was vaginal)
when the expectant mom has signed, we will head to the hospital to meet our son.

Due date, April 4th. She has been having contractions for a week - but no "real" progress. It is my prayer that the little guy continue to grow on the inside as long as possible, with the arrival as close to April 4th as possible. We are ready for him, now - so let the Lords will be done.

We have a few more papers to be returned for our homestudy, and hope to have a social worker to our house BEFORE April 1st!

This is such an amazing time, the Lord continues to provide - for ALL our needs. He continues to humble my heart with the ability to receive the blessings. That too is a miracle!

thanks to help from lifegroup girls, the nursery is together ... still desire to get some black out curtains ... thinking brown

for his ride home ... we will put it in the car this week please pray that this process will continue to bring glory to God our Father, that through ALL things HIS name will be praised!

GRACE AND PEACE!

From Aaron ...

2011-03-03T12:15:00.004-05:00

Today, Aaron shared the devotion during the monthly all-staff meeting at Northview Church.

POWERFUL!

happy to share:

Trials, trials, trials, trials, trials

When Beth and I where planning our wedding ceremony we chose Proverbs 3 verses 5 through 6, one of my all time favor verses to quote.

It says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Back in August of 2008 I was ordained here at Northview Church. And while I went through the ceremony with a smile, nobody knew except the Lord, that I was crying in my heart.

Two weeks previous to that glorious ordination day, my wife and I received a diagnosis about our 17-week old baby that he was afflicted with a condition called Trisome 13, which means the presence of an extra (third) chromosome 13 in all of the cells. And this condition is not compatible with life outside the womb.

The commentator Mathew Henry says, “May we learn to obey and trust the Lord, even in tribulation; to live or die as he pleases: we know not for what good ends our lives may be shortened or prolonged.”

Beth and I where completely shocked when we heard the doctor reveal the life of our son would not endure long. To be completely open I thought I was exempt, immune, protected from such affliction, but not so. Proverbs chapter 3 is so poetic and romantic; to me it is so inspiring to hear “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight,” but now, needing to apply it in the midst of trial was sobering.

Nobody’s faith is immune from testing. I thought it strange that we where experiencing this trial, but the Bible says,

In 1 Peter 4:12-13

¹² Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; ¹³ but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy.

2nd - Beth and I are amazed that we didn’t fall apart during that trial. We actually became closer to the LORD and to one another in the midst that stormy season. This trial was lived out in the open and it could not be endured in secret. Not bothering others with our hurts, habits and hang-ups is so common, but so unhealthy.

This trial allowed us to see God working through our friends and family, Brookside Church, Northview Church and our Life Group as God demonstrated His love and compassion for us. We are now experiencing the body of Christ supporting and contributing to our calling to adopt a child.

Another calling, more trials, more grace, more joy.

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”

GRACE AND PEACE!

GRACE & updates

2011-02-24T12:09:00.004-05:00

grace: HIS unmerited favor ...

Oh how HIS GRACE flows over me.

The outpouring from those around, known & unknown, to help in building our adoption fund can only be due to HIS AMAZING GRACE!

There is NOTHING I have done to deserve this amazing blessing, masked in financial help ... I am so unworthy of the help that is pouring over us now. Only because of what Jesus did for me and you, am I able to accept these gifts, blessings ... my heart is humbled over & over.

I am so thankful to be offering the double blessing bracelets, as a way to offer something in return to building our adoption fund. It is my prayer that as our family is blessed, we will be positioned to pay the blessing forward. Bracelets can be ordered & purchased through the pay pal button to the right.

ADOPTION UPDATE

Tuesday 2/22, Double Blessing Bracelets available to purchase in Capstone Cafe at Northview Church

Thursday 2/24, we have officially retained an Attorney for our adoption

Friday 2/25 (tomorrow) Aaron and I are meeting the Expectant Mom, we will have some paperwork to be signed demonstrating our intent and her intent for this little boy (DUE APRIL 4th)

Please pray that this process will continue to bring glory to God our Father, through all things HIS name will be praised.

GRACE AND PEACE!

oh wow!

2011-02-14T14:21:00.006-05:00

we continue to be blessed by those that God has placed in and around our lives!

since posting about the upcoming adoption, needing to raise funds and availability of the "double blessing beads" - the words of encouragement and action taken by folks around us : OVERWHELMING! and loving it.

my heart continues to expand ... i accidentally landed on a scripture yesterday at church when trying to get to where the pastor was .... of course it was one that was revealed to me in October, and i have been looking for it since.

"Make room for us in your hearts.
We have wronged no one, we have corrupted no one, we have exploited no one"
2 Corinthians 7:2

There was a note in my bible, i wrote 4 months ago: CHILDREN

Since that time, the Lord continues to expand my heart, in ways i never knew possible. Not just for the family that HE is preparing - but expanding my heart to receive help.

I have always had a VERY hard time asking for and receiving any kind of help. But the Lord continues to do a great work in me, and it is all because of JESUS, I am able to receive this overflow. My eyes and heart are open to HIM - THANK YOU!

For those of you that have ordered bracelets, my life group girls and I are getting busy working to meet the demand, and build a supply so we can sell them at Capstone (northview church) and have them on hand ready to ship. THANK YOU for your continued help for our family building and the women in Uganda!

i praise the Lord for this growing heart, knowing freedom i have never imagined.
PRAISE HIM!

GRACE AND PEACE!

double blessing bracelets

2011-02-10T15:41:00.004-05:00

I have ordered more loose beads from BeadforLife, to begin creating "double blessing bracelets"

1st Blessing - the loose beads are made by women in Uganda, BeadforLife pays the beaders fair trade prices ... and the women many HIV+ or war refugees build income for food, medicine, homes, schools and HOPE!

2nd Blessing - the profits from our sales will help us to grow our family and pass blessings to others.

If you would like to be place an order, click on the BUY NOW button to the right. You will be connected direct to pay pal. Each bracelet set will be handmade with loose multi-colored beads from BeadforLife.

GRACE AND PEACE!

my jericho road

2011-02-09T13:13:00.003-05:00

This morning during my quite time, I surprised myself when I wrote: The journey to building a family is like the Jericho road.
I feel like I have been traveling this road, minding my own business - I have been attacked by bandits. These bandits have left me exposed on the road.

I have been left vulnerable, exposed, bare. Such a contrast to my personality of being a do it your self person - self reliant to a fault.
I am in need of a good neighbor, a samaritan, a friend ... to pick me up, care for me. Helping along this journey to a family.

Who could have foreseen how treacherous this road would be for me, for us.

GOD did, HE knew, and uses all things for HIS glory.

HE knew, it would take something huge to bring me to my knees again and again to fully trust, obey and place all my hope in HIM. SURRENDER.

What is so amazing to me, that the Lord has already placed around us, good neighbors, samaritans, family, friends .... help is here, help is on the way.

The man on the road would not have received help if his wounds were not exposed.
With that said;
I PRAISE THE LORD that I have been left exposed, needing help.
I PRAISE THE LORD, for those he has sent and is sending.
I PRAISE THE LORD, that he loves me.

Parable of the Good Samaritan, Luke 10:30-37

GRACE AND PEACE!

2011-02-08T16:46:00.001-05:00

Fear doesnt listen to logic.You must move against it in faith. DO what you fear & the panic will subside. -RickWarren

encouraged

2011-02-07T11:59:00.007-05:00

I am excited and encouraged, the Lord has continued to be faithful.

Two weeks ago I had a follow up with my Doc, I have been cleared. Aaron and I have the "go-ahead" to begin trying again. Lord willing, it will not take 2 years!

I also had the opportunity to see my Special Nurse ... (I do know her name, I just like to think of her as my special nurse!)
We talked at length, about loss and life - and HOPE.

She provided a step for me, a fantastic support center, able to help us adopt locally. . We are certain the Lord has a plan to provide for us.
What I had not expected was to receive another call (before we could even begin work with the center) that there is a possible baby for us, due in April.
I am feeling an urgency to raise funds "quick", because we have a possibility of adopting in 2 months!!

I spoke with an attorney, I am completely overwhelmed with the financial aspect of adoption.

the BIG ASK ... we need help!

I have been amazed at those around us that have said they would like to assist us in raising the money needed to pursue building our family. Therefore, to help make that easier - we have added a "donate" button to our blog, the button connects with paypal.

your prayers are much appreciated as we continue along this path.

GRACE AND PEACE!

wow!

2011-02-02T12:02:00.002-05:00

I am continually amazed with possibilities opening to build our family - in ways never imagined.

This week, we made first contact with an attorney, to help us begin to prepare paperwork and steps needed to be eligible for adoption. We are waiting to hear back, yet - I PRAISE THE LORD, for preparing the way - I could have never seen this on my own.

I am so very thankful for all the perfectly placed people in our lives - what an amazing blessing!!!

Brag on Him Today

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “The LORD has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes” (Psalm 118:23, NIV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria I love David’s attitude in today’s verse. He was declaring the goodness of God and bragging on His faithfulness! We need to always remember that every blessing in our life is from Him. That promotion, good break, healing or new opportunity — that was God’s doing. Scripture says that every good and perfect gift comes from the Father above.

We used to sing a song growing up, “Look What the Lord Has Done.” It was a song that just bragged on God. It was a great reminder that all through the day we should be bragging on God’s goodness. We should be remembering His mighty acts. See, when we give God all the glory, that’s when He will pour out His blessings in greater measure. When we are humble and don’t try to take the credit, His grace and favor increases on us.

Today, look for opportunities to brag on God. If you are breathing today, brag on Him as your Creator. If you got to work safely today, brag on Him for being your Protector. If you are facing a difficulty, brag on the fact that He is your Deliverer and breakthrough is on the way! Keep declaring His goodness and faithfulness and watch what God will do on your behalf!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father God, You alone are worthy of all the praise and glory for the good things in my life! Thank You for blessing me, thank You for the breakthroughs in my past and the breakthroughs in my future. I bless You because You are good, and I choose to brag on You today! In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!!!

more to come!

2011-01-31T10:01:00.002-05:00

fantastic word from Joel ... as Aaron & I embark into the world of preparing for adoption and family building!

He has big plans, as I continue to put my trust, hope and faith in HIM ... HE continues to bring forth blessings beyond my imagination!

You Haven’t Seen Anything Yet!
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him” (1 Corinthians 2:9, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Today’s verse is really an encouragement for all of us to raise our level of expectancy! It’s like God is saying to us, “You think you’re blessed? You haven’t seen anything yet!” And I’m sure God has been good to you, but He also has things for your future that, if He told you right now, would boggle your mind. You wouldn’t even believe it.

If you would have told me twelve years ago while I was working behind the scenes at my parent’s church that one day I would be a minister in front of many people and have our services in the former Compaq Center where I used to watch the Rockets play basketball, I would have said, “You’ve totally lost your mind!” At the time, I could not even fathom that! Friend, that is how God wants to bless you in your future. He wants to overwhelm you with His goodness and with things so wonderful you can’t even fathom it!

Today, get ready for increase. Get prepared for promotion. This year is the year to step into blessings you can’t even imagine. Keep believing, keep obeying His Word and keep your heart and mind open to what He has for you because you haven’t seen anything yet!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father God, today I raise my level of expectancy. I choose to take the limits off of my thinking. I know that You are able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all I could ever ask, think or imagine. Thank You for the blessing You have in store for me in 2011! In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

action on a whisper

2011-01-24T17:19:00.009-05:00

So last Fall i heard a whisper from God, to get a room prepared. (previous blog, October 2010)
About the same time, a family friend contacted me regarding a possible adoption.

I turned my heart to God, for he knows quite well my desire for children - I began to hear a new song. As I began to hear this new song, I began to see our Kingdom Family - one that only Our Father could create. One that lead me to begin to explore adoption. My exploration was stopped short, when searching online I was overwhelmed and discouraged.

Then around Thanksgiving, a positive pregnancy test. The thought of adoption was pushed even further away. With that loss, my feelings about a family came into question. I was heartbroken.

This year I am doing a devotion on Women of the Bible ... so far I have spent a week on Eve, Sarah, Hagar and this week Lots Wife. The first three provided promises that spoke to my heart, each speaking about children. Those could each be separate entries - maybe.

Last Thursday we received an out of the blue call, remember the family friend with the possible adoption ... well the birth mom was having contractions. She decided the Sunday before, while in a special residence for single moms, that yes this baby would be put up for adoption. The call was to see if Aaron and I were interested - the little girl would probably arrive over the weekend.
I was trembling, crying and I think even laughing.

The green room is painted and ready to be outfitted as a kids room, well there are a few things that need to be tossed, donated or something. My mind began spinning over what would need to be done to bring a baby home in a weekend.

I talked to Aaron, my mom, the mom of the birth mother, and the residency that was preparing for a new arrival. In about 5 hours - I was all in. If it was the Lord's will, I was ready to do what he was calling me to. Just as I was putting together a picnic dinner for Aaron and I to take over to church, I got a call from the residency.

In minutes, I knew the will of the Lord was that this little one was not meant for us. The birth mom has selected a family she had met earlier that week. Then flooded in mixed emotions - we did not even get a chance to meet the birth mom ... I was sad and disappointed. Then I was very peaceful, the Lord calls us to be willing. I pray that I continue to be fully submitted to him. In all things.

From the whirlwind of Thursday, I had created a connection with a fantastic adoption ministry, the counselor I spoke with let me know the steps needed to become potential adoptive parents in their facility. WOW, a first step. Something I was completely stumped by in October.

Friday, I took a step by contacting the adoption ministry. While I have not heard back, I feel confident that I am in alignment with the Lord, he is our provider ... He will provide.

This is just the beginning.

GRACE AND PEACE!

get ready ...

2011-01-24T17:13:00.003-05:00

Oh the Lord is up to something, while I am not ready to publish the details of all that is going on - this devotion from Joel today let me know the time is near!
it is coming! And oh, God is good all the time! All the time God is good!!!

Get Ready
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE“Get ready! This is the day the Lord will give you victory...!”(Judges 4:14, NLT)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and VictoriaIt’s easy to get stuck in a rut and go into another year coasting on auto-pilot, expecting the same thing: same problems, same struggles and the same income. But God is a God of increase. He wants us to rise higher and continually grow and reach new levels. What I sense in my spirit is that 2011 is going to be an exceptional year; a year for you to see promises come to pass; a year for you to accomplish your dreams. It’s going to be a year of surprises, and God is going to amaze you with His goodness! Maybe there’s an area in your life that you’ve struggled with for a long time. It seems like you just can’t get ahead. You need to get ready. This is the year things are going to change. God is about to release His favor in a greater way. You’ve sown the seeds. You’ve planted. You’ve watered. You’ve been faithful. Now you’re about to come into harvest. Get ready and begin to declare by faith, “This is my time for breakthrough! This is my season! This is my ‘above and beyond’ year, and I receive victory in Jesus’ name!”

A PRAYER FOR TODAYFather God, thank You for Your goodness and faithfulness in my life. Today, I choose to take the limits off of my thinking and lift my eyes to You. Help me to see the good things You have in store for my future. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

precious prayer

2011-01-20T15:00:00.002-05:00

this is too special for me not to share ....
last night I was at Brookside Church, my regular Wednesday routine. I was in the Nursery with the kids, I think there were about 12? It was a typical evening, some coloring, playing dress up, cooking, trains, and reading books.

One super sweet little girl, who is 4, asked "Miss Beth, which one is your son?"
my reply " I do not have a son here"
she was stumped, and looked at me sideways
my reply, " we can pray to God that he would give me a son"
she said " okay", bowed her head, then looked back up at me " How do you do that? Show me."
So I bowed my head and said, " Lord please give me a son"
she repeated, "Lord please give Ms Beth a son. Amen"
then she ran off and played more.

My heart was so filled by that special moment. Only to almost burst, when on her way out she said "Ms Beth, show me again how to pray for your son"
We did it again. What a precious blessing are all of Gods children!

I am so comforted and peaceful, that HE hears all our prayers and answers them.

GRACE AND PEACE!

2011-01-15T10:57:00.001-05:00

But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

another bump

2011-01-10T11:47:00.004-05:00

i hit another life bump.

i have been dreaming about writing a post to announce a pregnancy for 2 years

- but instead we hit a bump last week at our 9w5d appointment.

When I called the DR on November 30th, to schedule an appointment following a positive home pregnancy test ... the earliest date to see my doc was January 4th, which put us at 9 weeks and Jeremy's birthday - I thought, fantastic, what a great way to celebrate a special day.

Aaron and I shared only with our family ... waiting until the new year to share with the world.

When the 4th arrived, Aaron and I were anxious to hear the heartbeat and possibly have an ultrasound. Well, we had the ultrasound ... and that is when we saw evidence that our baby had stopped growing at 6w4d. My body was confused and continued to produce the pregnancy hormone and I continued to have all the typical symptoms associated with pregnancy.

We returned to the DR on Friday, nothing had changed, it is considered a "missed abortion" and had a D&C that afternoon.

This was not at all how I had expected 2011 to begin, with this mix of emotions i have found myself in a weak place - and in this place there is only one direction to turn ... the WORD.

from Encouragement for Today:

Let me breathe a little life into your weakness today. Whatever it is, however large it may loom: "...the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express" (Romans 8:26). We don't have to have all the answers. We don't have to make suggestions to God. It's okay to be so tired of our weak places that we run out of words to pray. Look at the beautiful verses written to us girls Jesus tucked in around Romans 8:26 about weak places... "There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1). "You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit" (Romans 8:9a). "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31b). "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us" (Romans 8:37). Maybe we need to sit still for just a moment or two today. Quietly sit without the weight of condemnation or the swirl of trying to figure things out. Quiet, with nothing but the absolute assurance the Spirit helps us in our weakness. He understands our weak places. He knows what to pray. There is a purpose to this weakness. Though it doesn't feel good, things will be worked out in a way that good will come from it (Romans 8:28). In that quiet stillness while the Spirit prays for us and we just simply soak in truth, there will be a flicker of light. A slight trickle of hope. A grace so unimaginable, we'll feel His power overshadowing our weakness.

So while i work through this new bump in life, I will keep my eyes fixed on HIM, moving forward. knowing that I am NOT alone ... I am so thankful for family, friends and a fantastic LifeGroup ... once again we get to travel this road together. Just another bump ... I know that the Lord has a family for Aaron and I, in HIS time, in HIS way.

GRACE AND PEACE!

rejoice in the Lord always!

2011-01-04T12:10:00.004-05:00

Lord, I praise you and thank you for my precious son Jeremy. How I miss him, I am also comforted knowing who's arms and presence he is daily. Thank you Lord for 9 months & 71 minutes to love on him, kiss him, and hold him.

Such an honor to be his mom.

Thank you Lord for blessing me in such a mighty way.

precious Jeremy ....

still my favorite picture ...

2 years later, while I miss him so - I rejoice in how the Lord continues to bless and keep me. How humbled my heart is today.

from Joel: Who Will Receive the Blessing?

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD? Or who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, Who has not lifted up his soul to an idol, Nor sworn deceitfully. He shall receive blessing from the LORD, And righteousness from the God of his salvation” (Psalm 24:3–5, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria God wants you to receive every blessing that He has in store for you. In His Word, He tells you about His wonderful blessings, but He also tells you how to receive His blessings — by having clean hands and a pure heart.

We are made pure and clean by the precious blood of Jesus when we make Him our Lord and Savior and turn away from anything that displeases Him. I’ve found that most of the time, it’s not the big things that keep us from God’s best; it’s the small things — maybe it starts with an offense that turns into unforgiveness. Maybe you watch something on TV or the internet that you know you shouldn’t, and it becomes a bad habit that steals your time and pollutes your mind.

Today, make the decision to let go of anything that would keep you from His blessings. Make the decision to be a person of excellence and integrity. Treat others with respect and kindness and look for ways to be a blessing. Be determined to live a life that pleases God so that you can receive the abundance He has in store for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for the blood of Jesus that cleanses and renews me. I choose to turn away from anything that displeases You so that I can live righteously before You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

GRACE AND PEACE!!

did not meet the goal ...

2011-01-03T11:48:00.002-05:00

but we did make progress!

Aaron was able to paint for a few hours 2x last week and now half the middle room is green. I LOVE IT!

aaron doing the edges ...

in the day light .... artificial light ...
Still not sure what to do with all the stuff in the middle, but when the room is painted, then it can all find new places to go. I am looking forward to moving my brown rocking chair in along with a book shelf to start. Then when the room is "needed" we will be able to add to it.

Feels so good to be obedient to the whisper I heard in Sept/October ... just building the boat!

GRACE AND PEACE!

special project

2010-12-27T10:37:00.004-05:00

i wrote weeks ago, about preparing a room - hearing a whisper and getting a room ready. Aaron received a gift under the tree, for a special project ....

I have been working to reorganize the room - throwing many things out. My goal is for me to tape the room and Aaron to paint ... before the end of the week and the end of 2010!

Pictures to follow!!

GRACE AND PEACE!

2010-11-29T19:27:00.001-05:00

Advent confronts this corrosion of the heart with the insistence that God has not abandoned the world, hope is real and something is coming.
- Rob Bell

Christmas Season

2010-11-27T10:33:00.004-05:00

Thanksgiving has been celebrated, it is officially the "Christmas Season".

Let the preparation for the birth of Our Savior, Jesus.

Is that always the focus?

Yesterday, I pulled out the Christmas Tree, hung the ornaments, and have started to transform the house with red, green, lights, and little trinkets.

I am questioning, is this all in preparation for the birth of Jesus?

While, some of the items are a bit much ... they do provide a consistent reminder of the upcoming celebration.

It is my prayer that I will keep my eyes focused on the REASON for the SEASON.

In addition to the start of Advent ... this weekend Northview Church is launching the Brookside Christmas Experience.

This will include a gift drive (now until 12/16), a Family Festival (12/12) , Christmas Dinner (12/19) and the Christmas Store (12/21&22). We are so excited to be working with Shepherd Community Center to offer similar services to families during Christmas. The gifts collected will be used to stock the Christmas Store, the store will provide an opportunity for families (adults and children) to select items for family members.

As the Volunteer Coordinator for Urban Ministry for Northview Church I have been charged with the task of lining up the volunteer force that will be needed for ALL the events.

Please pray that those able and willing will provide the gifts needed for the Christmas Store and those called to serve, will move into action.

If you want to serve, click here!

On a different note, Beads By Beth is heading into a fantastic season - this Friday the 3rd, I am working with 2 other local artists to host a holiday open house. Along with 3 other custom parties - LOVING IT!

You are also invited to attend, OPEN HOUSE

To keep the business moving forward, I started a facebook page :beads by beth and a twitter @beadsbybeth, and have continued the original blog ... check 'em out!

GRACE AND PEACE!

thankfulness

2010-11-25T11:07:00.001-05:00

great devo for today, thanksgiving ....

November 25, 2010 Finding Thankfulness / Rachel Olsen

"They will celebrate your abundant goodness and joyfully sing of your righteousness." Psalm 145:7 (NIV)

Devotion: In the American tradition, today is an official day of thanksgiving - a day to reflect on, celebrate and express gratitude to God for our blessings. Many will gather with family and friends ... perhaps by candlelight, or firelight, or the light of a TV screen broadcasting parades and football games. Many will eat turkey - some hot and moist, and some slightly overcooked and dry, but well-rescued by gravy or cranberry sauce. And many will acknowledge Who provides both family and friends, as well as food and fire.

In the Judeo-Christian tradition, every day is a day to give thanks to God. In fact, each day that the Lord allows us to draw breath is cause to give thanks. Have you thanked Him today?

Have you praised His Name?

Perhaps this day finds you in a tight spot. Maybe this hasn't been your week, your month, or even your year. Maybe you're having trouble seeing what you have to be thankful for. How about your heartbeat? How about the sun that rose today to illuminate and warm the earth? How about the clothes on your body, or the food in your cabinet?

Take a moment to absorb the great gift that the forgiveness of your sins and the purging of your guilt through Jesus Christ is. And the fact that a day is coming when there will be no more sickness and no more tears. That's cause for deep gratitude.

One thing I'm giving thanks for today is my Bible, which is the living, active Word of God preserved for me and you. It teaches me to count my blessings and focus my mind on the gracious loving kindness of God. The Psalmist David leads me to do that through Psalm 145. Let me leave you with his words today, to jumpstart your own Thanksgiving.

A psalm of praise by David

I will exalt you, my God the King; I will praise your name for ever and ever.  Every day I will praise you and extol your name for ever and ever.

Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom.  One generation commends your works to another; they tell of your mighty acts.  They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty—and I will meditate on your wonderful works. They tell of the power of your awesome works—and I will proclaim your great deeds.  They celebrate your abundant goodness and joyfully sing of your righteousness.

The LORD is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.

The LORD is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made.  All your works praise you, LORD; your faithful people extol you.  They tell of the glory of your kingdom and speak of your might,  so that all people may know of your mighty acts and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.  Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures through all generations.

The LORD is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The LORD upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.  The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time.  You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.

The LORD is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does.  The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.  He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them.  The LORD watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy.

My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD.  Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever. Psalm 145 (NIV)

Dear Lord, today I want to say thank You for my life. Thank You for the chance to feel sunshine, to taste fruit, to swim in water and to watch lightening. Thank You for my home and family, my church and friends. Thank You for the chance to know and serve You, now and eternally. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

believing HIM

2010-11-08T12:06:00.004-05:00

the word fills me up! and i will keep my eyes fixed on HIM ... believing in HIS promises

from joel osteen

Persevere Until You See the Promise

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised” (Hebrews 10:36, NIV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria What are you believing God for today? Promotion? Healing? Stronger relationships? Deliverance? God has promised all these things to you in His Word because it’s His heart for you to live in blessing and wholeness.

When you follow the will of God by obeying His Word and precepts, it opens the door for His promises to be fulfilled in your life. You may be doing all the right things today — don’t give up! Perseverance will carry you to the promise.

Perseverance means that you are focused, that you are believing what God says about your situation. It’s looking away from distractions and any negative, defeating thoughts. Perseverance looks away from discouragement and looks to the Word of God. Perseverance has a voice, and it says things like, “No weapon formed against me shall prosper! If God is for me, who can be against me! I am more than a conqueror through Jesus!”

Whatever you are believing for today, keep believing! Stand strong and fight the good fight of faith. Ask God to give you endurance, perseverance and patience so that you can see His promises fulfilled in every area of your life!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for Your good promises to me. I ask that You give me a heart that is steadfast and fixed on You. Fill me with Your peace and perseverance so I can live in victory all the days of my life. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

a whisper

2010-10-25T15:13:00.004-04:00

During my stay in Denver and since, I have heard a whisper of the Lord asking me to prepare a room.

More specifically to prepare a room for children.

Before I go further, we are not at this time expecting. pregnancy remains a prayer request

I think I have a bit of a feel for what Noah felt when the Lord commanded him to build the ark. He lived in a land with no visible body of water and they had never experienced rain. Noah was obedient to the Lord and spent the next 120 years building an ark. The result, when the rain came he was ready.

I have been reluctant to write about this, but I desire to have all prayer warriors to have some insight for specific prayers.

In obedience to the whisper, I will be transforming the "middle room" into a kids room. I had a vision of a crib and bunk beds in that room. Before any of that happens, I must reorganize and reevaluate the items in the room.

Overwhelmed by the work ahead of me, I began in the attic on my Birthday. Yep, making room there - so we have areas to store the items I do not re-purpose, give away, or throw out. We received an amazing blessing from dear friends and family of gift cards to Lowes. These gifts will help us to paint, create window treatments, and develop storage solutions. I am so excited to get to work on the space. So when the kids come, we will be ready.

Northview Church just completed a series called *free. I learned that I am overly concerned with how others think of me - when really I should only be concerned with how God thinks of me. "Am I not trying to win the approval of men or of God? Or and I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, i would not be a servant of CHRIST." Galatians 1:10

So the whole idea of preparing a room, for our future family seems a bit crazy in the present. ... with GOD all things are possible. I certainly do not want to miss a blessing.

I have started a private blog, writing notes to our future children. I do not know exactly how these children will come to be in our home - I only know that the Lord is doing a work in my heart and I love the feeling of being in alignment with HIM.

Exciting times lay ahead ...

GRACE AND PEACE!

mounting a comeback!

2010-10-22T14:49:00.002-04:00

the artist in me is awakening ...

yesterday I met with two other local artists that create handmade items. We are planning a holiday open house to peddle our wares.

who are these ladies ... click on them to learn

Wendi Hull, Whimsical Dezign, handmade Handbags and Totes

Stephanie Williams, Blue Eyes and Bare Feet, Clothing and Design featuring a collection for girls created from vintage and recycled fabrics.

I was so inspired by these two ladies ... I look forward to how we are going to work collaboratively and encourage each other! What a blessing.

our open house is set for December 3rd ... details to follow, be on the look out for new designs!

humbled

2010-10-19T11:28:00.002-04:00

Today I visited Fishers High School.

More specifically I was a guest of Matt Rund, Performing Arts Department Chair /speech and drama teacher, and Speech Team Coach.

Before Matt taught at FHS, he was at North Central ... his 2nd year was my first year.

So why the visit?

Over a year ago, shortly after Matt and I became friends on Facebook, he asked for permission to use my blog/my story of Jeremy, for a script to use for a speech. I said sure.

Fast forward to last week, Matt sent me a note that he had the student that was perfect for the script would I like to come in and observe.

Honestly, I had forgotten that he had asked ... so I was surprised at the invitation. But made plans to attend class today.

So 10:30 am rolls around - so different to be visiting a school after having been a teacher for so long. My feelings were mixed, what was she going to share - how would i feel hearing someone else share my story - how would i feel hearing someone share her interpretations of my story - I was concerned about my emotions, would i even be able to hold it together.

the scripture from Joel was quite timely:

"Be strong and very courageous, that you may observe to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go" Joshua 1:7

With the strength of the Lord, and peace from HIM ...

I sat and observed a fantastic prose performance by a talented Senior at FHS.

She was outstanding.

Yes, it was emotional, hearing my story through another voice, my journey with Jeremy and trisomy 13 ... what a blessing.

I am so humbled that the Lord continues to use Jeremy in such a powerful manner. What an honor to be his mom.

How fitting that this weekend Pastor Poe asked us all to bear our hurts and scars to others ... reminding me that HE uses ALL things for HIS glory.

today was no exception.

i am so blessed and humbled.

GRACE AND PEACE!

2010-10-19T10:06:00.001-04:00

And the voice of Truth says, this is for my GLORY.
More to post later today.
grace and peace

time to breathe

2010-10-12T10:02:00.002-04:00

where have i been?

The end of September was filled with conferences and travel.

I must have been running on empty, because I was so blessed at each conference.

beyond my imagination.

Conference 1:

True Woman 10, Now is the Time ...

This was an amazing time to be filled with a particular focus on Pastors Wives. All the ladies that presented were new to me ... and all POWERFUL!

The only name I recognized, Nancy Leigh DeMoss, but after the conference my eyes have been opened, the veil has been lifted there are many on the journey to living as a Biblical Woman - I had no idea. check them out: TRUEWOMAN

Going into this 3 day conference, I was just moving along, working through how the transition of Aaron was going to effect me ... these 3 days, gave me the time to reflect on how my prayers, actions, and words can honor God and Aaron.

I left feeling convicted that I need to affirm Aaron more. Affirm his leadership in the home and ministry.

Conference 2:

DeVos Urban Leadership Initiative(DVULI) , Reunion - Denver Colorado

Aaron participated in this 15 month program, 1 part grad school , 1 part boot camp, 1 part retreat. DVULI, is a tuition sponsored leadership development program for urban youth workers. (DVULI) Aaron was a part of the Indianapolis City group, 2008. Every 3 years they have a Family Reunion for Graduates and spouses. The reunion is a time to reconnect and be filled with the word of God. There were fantastic daily devotions, keynote speakers, breakout sessions and FUN! We reconnected with the Indianapolis group, and made new friends from all over the nation. Imagine being surrounded by 400 other Urban Ministry Workers ... the stories and work being done across this nation - the Lord is truly up to something BIG! I had no idea the network created by DVULI!

Following the DVULI conference, Aaron and I extended our stay in Denver.

Saturday we had the chance to stay with Jeff and Kim, they have been in Denver 8 weeks. They are the process of planting a church in Denver (harvest bible). hard to believe, that Aaron and I were able to share our start up experiences with Brookside Community Church. I enjoyed spending time with Brooke (3) and TJ (1.5), their little ones.

Sunday, we headed over to Bill and Ann's ... they have been in Denver for a year and half, with their 2 girls Katelyn (9) and Allison (7) - they are soo tall! Both enjoy playing volleyball:) We vegged out at their place, had the opportunity to watch the Colts game (not the colts best showing), head to a state park for a bike ride ... and have a mountain view during dinner.

Having the time to visit with friends, fellowship was just as filling as the conferences. It was fantastic to sit and talk about life. We are so blessed to have friends that are willing to open their homes to us. Providing a time to breathe.

and now we are back, refreshed, refueled, and ready to hit the ground running in the name of the LORD!

"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things are all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." 2 Corinthians 9:8

GRACE AND PEACE!

and the season changes

2010-09-22T11:25:00.002-04:00

Today is the final day of Summer, Fall officially starts tomorrow. I find it quite fitting that just as the seasons are changing, Aaron and I are in a season of change and transition.

Immediately in my head when I think of transition - my mind goes to volleyball. For more then half my life i have been "practicing" transition. It is the movement from offense to defense back to offense to defense (you get the idea) - it is the flow of volleyball. Constant movement.

So I am not at all surprised when life also parallels volleyball.

The Lord has Aaron and I on the move again.

This past Sunday Aaron announced that he will be transitioning out of the role as Brookside Community Church Senior Pastor. A position he has filled almost 4 years, in addition to serving as the Northview Church Urban Pastor. Over the past 4 years both ministries (brookside and urban) have grown to the point each is in need of a single focused leader. After MANY months of seeking the Lord, Aaron felt the Lord was asking him to focus on developing Northview Urban Ministry. The search is is on for a Senior Pastor for Brookside Community Church.

I am still processing what this looks like for me ... I have been VERY involved with the Brookside Church Youth Ministry (Sunday and Wednesday) along with helping to train and place volunteers. I believe I will continue to train and develop volunteers for urban environments, to be placed all over the city of Indy - with a focus on the Brookside Community. I have heard it said "urban ministry is bigger then brookside" - I am certain that Aaron and I needed the experiences of Brookside Church to be equipped to do work beyond our imagination.

I am open to how the Lord will use me, we are planning to continue to be involved with Brookside Church on Wednesday Family Nights, and attend Brookside Church one time a month - and Aaron will preach every other month, one time.

Last weekend the Brookside Church Leaders gathered, the Lord has raised up a fantastic group that will continue to serve the Brookside Church congregation. There is stability that has been established over 2 years that will provide a foundation for the next leader to continue to build. What an amazing blessing to step back and say "LOOK AT GOD!" He has been so faithful, and I pray I can do my part and be obedient.

Love the following scriptures ... all from Joel this week:

"But thanks be to God, Who in Christ always leads us in triumph…"

(2 Corinthians 2:14, AMP)

"We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose"

(Romans 8:28, NIV)

“Let this same attitude and purpose and [humble] mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus: [Let Him be your example in humility:]”
(Philippians 2:5, AMP)

Prayers are welcome as Aaron and I enter this transition ... as well as for the Brookside Church family. I am rejoicing that the time has come for the Lord to raise up more leaders that will be serving the Brookside Community and the Near Eastside of Indianapolis - ultimately transforming lives and a city!

GRACE AND PEACE!

new

2010-09-15T11:47:00.002-04:00

i have recently started to run ... specifically because i am tired of jiggly parts and desire for my clothes to fit a different way. i have yet to return to pre-baby weight/size ...

the word from Encouragement for Today ... right to me!

September 15, 2010 Defined By God | Shari Braendel

"The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord." Psalm 45:11 (NIV)

Devotion: One word. Flabbergasted. That was the emotion I had coursing through my body as I sat at the coffee shop discussing my weight issues with a friend. I told her I had recently cut out certain foods from my diet, but was continuing to maintain my "happy weight," that number the scale just seems extremely happy to faithfully report whether I have eaten healthy and exercised that week or not. We had a good laugh as she described how sometimes she locks her scale away so she's not tempted to jump on it every day just to find out if she's still her same "happy" self.

As a result of this conversation I realized that if I am not careful I can easily allow the scale, or the mirror, to become a compass that shifts my focus and points me in the wrong direction. It seems illogical, yet at times I look to this digital device, or this earthly reflection to gauge my emotional status and essentially define me.

The Bible tells us that the God of the universe is enthralled with our beauty. Seriously? Yes, indeed! He thinks we are amazing and wonderful. Unfortunately, more often than not, we look in the mirror and only see our flaws; hair that's just a mite too frizzy; a tummy that's a bit too fluffy; and thighs that have a few too many dimples on them. My friend Renee likes to call her cellulite "the fingerprints of God." One time I shared that with a group of women, and one of them said, "Well then He must have REALLY big hands!"

So, what would life look like if we accepted God workmanship? Can you imagine how different we would feel about ourselves if we glanced in the mirror and told God "thank You for making me so wonderfully"? If you listen closely, I bet you would hear Him respond, "All beautiful, you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you" (Song of Solomon 4:7, NIV).

No matter your size or shape, the number on your clothes tag or your scale, you are beautiful! Let's embrace that we are fine just the way we are because if God says so, then it's true!

Dear God, thank You for making me the way I am. Please help me to have more confidence. I will practice defining myself through Your eyes and not my own. I am grateful, and humbled to be Your beautiful daughter, and I can feel Your approving gaze upon me. In Jesus' name, Amen.    

Application Steps: Make a list of five things you really like about your outer appearance. When you find yourself in a funk, remember to define yourself through God's eyes. Accept a compliment with a smile and a thank you.

Reflections: When was the last time you gave yourself permission to treat yourself to something new? You are valuable to Him, and to those who love you. It is okay to take care of yourself too. Does my scale define me?

Power Verses:

Psalm 139:14, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." (NIV)

Song of Solomon 4:1, "How beautiful, you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful!" (NIV)

Ephesians 2:10, "We are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." (NIV)

I will continue to run and accept this new body - that will never quite be the same, just like inside i am not the same ....

GRACE AND PEACE!

my heart

2010-08-30T10:42:00.002-04:00

powerful scripture to meditate ...

"The eyes of the LORD move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His" 2 Chronicles 16:9 NASB

My prayer is that my heart will be fully and completely HIS!

The world has yet to see what God can do with and for and through and in a man who is fully and wholly consecrated to Him - Henry Varley

GRACE AND PEACE!

clothes, a whole new look ....

2010-08-26T10:16:00.002-04:00

I have heard and read this account so many times - but I never really thought in this light, It gives me deep pause ...

Day 28: Sacrifice Required

Scripture Focus: Romans 3
The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife, and clothed them. —Genesis 3:21, NASB

Imagine the scene in the garden. Prior to the fall, everything operated in perfect harmony. Formed by the masterful hand of God, creation displayed a beauty unknown to those born since the fall. All creation danced in a song of praise for the Creator; the animal kingdom knew no fear of man; there existed no concept of pain or death. The earth was full of the knowledge of the Lord as the waters cover the sea. But one act of disobedience changed all that and threw all of creation into a state of corruption and groaning (Romans 8:20-22).

Adam and Eve’s disobedience in the garden was not a mere flirtation with sin—it was an act of high treason against the Creator. The holy God, the Provider and Sustainer, the Just and Merciful, the Giver of all good things—spurned. His instructions disregarded. His commandment rebelled against.

The penalty for treason had to be paid. Blood would be shed. Death would now enter the perfect garden. If we stood as observers, what would we have witnessed? Consider the relationship that Adam had developed with the animal kingdom.

Before Eve, the animals were Adam’s only companions. He not only named and cared for them, but Adam probably spent many hours of enjoyment with the animals under his rule.

Then death came to the animal world. Genesis 3:21 gives a glimpse into God’s redemptive plan. The details are hidden, but it is clearly implied that a blood sacrifice was made. Adam and Eve must have stood transfixed by the shocking sight as they witnessed one of their precious lambs, never having shown hostility or aggression, quietly obey the Creator’s call.

What were they thinking as the Master laid His tender hand on the willing subject’s neck? Were they horrified at their first sight of blood as the lamb’s life ebbed away? Did they feel remorse that an innocent creature was bearing their death penalty and providing the necessary covering for their sin? Later, did they relive those moments every morning as they dressed in their garments of skin? Someday we may know the answers. But for now we understand that this sacrifice would be the first foreshadowing of the Lamb who would be slain for the sin of the world. This was the first hint of the ultimate sacrifice that would one day be made at the cross.

Take Time to Reflect
How does the death of Christ relate to the sinful choices we have made as women and the breach in our relationship with God and others? Have you allowed your heart to grow cold and indifferent toward God’s grace? Read Romans 3, and spend some time expressing gratitude for Christ’s sacrifice.

All I can think on now is that I am wearing clothing today as a sign of my own sinful life, and how Jesus paid the price through the cross to cover my sin. I will now look at clothes in a whole new light.

GRACE AND PEACE!

2010-08-24T15:29:00.005-04:00

M Left to our own devices, we sometimes choose the most locked up, dark versions of the story, but what a good friend does is turn on the lights, open the

2010-08-24T15:29:00.003-04:00

M window, and remind us that there are a whole lot of ways to tell the same story.

From bittersweet, by shauna niequist

So thankful for those dear sweet

2010-08-24T15:29:00.001-04:00

M friends!

graceandpeace

the word i needed

2010-08-23T10:31:00.003-04:00

My day starts every morning with multiple email devotions. (Joel Osteen, John Piper, True Women, and Encouragement for Today, from Proverbs 31 women) They are always good, sometimes just in time - others I know I need to pass to friends.

The past few nights I have been not sleeping well, when that happens it always means something is on my mind. Lately it has been our finances. Every month is tight - there is little to none left over at the end. Every month the Lord has blessed us. Some times when I am sitting down to take care of the bills the accounts do not have enough - but we have never missed any payments or even been late. The Lord continues to provide and make a way out of no way. SO you would think I would be doing good in the department of trusting in the Lords provision ... ugh. I am not at all. This is causing restless nights and worry in my head and heart.

Over the weekend I shared with Aaron my troubles, worry and emotions. He had just the right words and calming spirit, yes he was chosen for me! thank you Lord!

This morning 2 of the devotions and my daily bible reading provided reminders and comfort to my weariness.

Encouragement for Today, from Proverbs 31 women (this is just part)

Feelings were getting in the way of my faith. So I went to Psalm 25 (NIV), and allowed the following verses to wash over my spirit.

Verse 1, "To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;"
I felt discouraged, unworthy, hopeless, rejected. So I poured my feelings and my soul out to God. And He listened.
Verse 2, "...in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me."
God reminded me to trust Him, not a desire or a dream. Not the world's view of things. Not my abilities. Not my time frame. Not my ideas. Just Him. I prayed about my enemies - intangible feelings such as self doubt, insecurities, frustration, and discouragement.
Verse 3, "No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse."
Regardless of whether or not my desires become a reality, I will not be put to shame, because God is my God. If His plans coincide with my dreams, I know He will keep His eternal promises.
Verses 4-5a, "Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me,"
These words stopped me in my tracks. I began to think more rationally. Why have I been beating my head against a wall? Why have I been consumed with anxiety and frustration? Am I allowing God to direct my paths?God gently reminded me that He is the teacher; we are the students.
Verse 5b, "...for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long."
If I put my hope in my own desires and abilities, I simply set myself up for failure. My only hope for joy and fulfillment comes from Christ alone. Hope can only be found in Him, not people, careers, husbands, children, church, financial success, a carefree life, or dreams that come true.
Disappointments will always happen. With God, however, we can turn those disappointments into God's appointments to trust Him. The first step is exercise our faith over our feelings.
Dear Lord, You know the hurt in my heart and the sting of disappointments I have experienced. Please help me trust You, instead of being consumed by feelings. Empower me with a faith that is stronger than my emotions. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

From Joel:
"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You"

(Isaiah 26:3, NKJ)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria

Do you need more peace in your life today? Are you frustrated or upset over something or fighting off discouragement? The first question to ask yourself is "What am I thinking about?"

If you're thinking about your problems all the time or how impossible everything is, then your life is going to follow that negative direction. But, when you get your mind going in the right direction, when you focus your mind on the Word of God, then you are setting yourself in the direction of peace.

Today, choose to keep your mind focused on the Father. Be empowered by meditating on His Word. As you set your thoughts in the right direction, your life will head down the path of peace and victory He has in store for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Heavenly Father, thank You for peace today. I receive it as a comforting blanket to my heart, my mind and my emotions. I choose to focus on Your Word today. Direct my steps and guard me by Your peace. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
My daily reading has me in Jeremiah ... "The Joy of Restoration"
I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint. Jeremiah 31:25
... just the words i needed today!
GRACE AND PEACE!

little bit clearer

2010-08-22T08:07:00.002-04:00

I am attending the True Women 10 conference in September (23-25).

I signed up for a 40 day devotion to help prepare my mind and heart for the event ... they are all fabulous! If these devotions are any indication, the 3 days are going to awesome!

yesterdays helped open my eyes to the work the Lord has been doing in me:

Day 33: Complementary Versus Competing

Scripture Focus: Mark 9:33-41
“Whoever exalts himself shall be humbled; and whoever humbles himself shall be exalted.” —Matthew 23:12, NASB

“The role of men and women in ministry is complementary. True enrichment for both Christian men and women comes when these roles are fulfilled side-by-side. A woman’s ministry is primarily maternal in flavor and style, and the man’s is primarily paternal. This marvelous and rich role difference should be celebrated and reflected. It’s cooperative ministry.” —Joni Eareckson Tada*

The woman was created to fulfill a vital role in man’s life, serving as his co-regent over creation and functioning as his helper. Some women react to the concept of being a “helper” as if that were an inferior position. But to the contrary, the helper role is honorable, vital, and can be embraced when it is seen as a necessary complement for the man.

Let’s look at one “helper” whom Jesus commended as the greatest Old Testament prophet.

In the Gospel narratives, John the Baptist stands out as a premier player, one of a kind and necessary in preparing the way for the coming King. But what did John say of Jesus and himself? “He must increase, but I must decrease” (John 3:30, NASB). Why didn’t John grasp for fame? Why didn’t he grumble over losing the following he had acquired in his wilderness ministry? Because he understood the principle “It’s all about Him; it’s not about me.”

Do we view John as less than the impacting proclaimer that he was because he played a supporting role when the Son of Man arrived on the scene? No, we hold him in even higher regard for humbly taking his rightful position as the “preparer of the way” while refusing to be proclaimed as “The Way.”

So why do we, as women sometimes take offense at being considered a supporting player rather than the leading character when it comes to God-assigned roles? Somehow we’ve convinced ourselves that there is less value in this position, so we view our role as demeaning or as less significant than the man’s.

Where did that kind of thinking come from? Perhaps during a dialogue in Eden? We’ll take a look at that fateful exchange tomorrow.

Take Time to Reflect
How did Jesus respond to His disciples’ competitive spirit in Mark 9:33-37? Do you compete with the men around you, or do you try to use your gifts and abilities to complement them? Do you seek to honor worthy men in respectful and appropriate ways, or do you have a demeaning attitude toward men? Ask God to open your eyes to your own attitude and behavior.

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*Interview with Joni Eareckson Tada, www.ReviveOurHearts.com/Resources/Videos

for more info on the conference: http://www.truewoman.com

So thankful that I know HE is doing a work in me, and HE is not done ... THANK YOU!!!!

GRACE AND PEACE!

the WORD

2010-08-11T08:31:00.003-04:00

yesterday was a a downer day. typically day 28/29 of my cycle for the last year has been a depressing day, yesterday was no different.

i do not talk about it much - but it seems to be always on my mind. ugh. the more i try to put it out, the stronger it pounds in me. it is wearing me out.

daily i find myself handing it over to the Lord - sometimes multiple times in a day.

this morning, a powerful reminder at the right time ... the scripture from joel:

"But as for me, I shall sing of Your strength; Yes, I shall joyfully sing of Your loving kindness in the morning, For You have been my stronghold and a refuge in the day of my distress" Psalm 59:16

Words from Joel: Everyone goes through situations and circumstances in life that can cause distress, worry or anxiety. The key to overcoming these situations is exactly what David did in today's verse. Even though David's very life was at stake, He knew that His source of strength and victory was in His worship. He knew that He would find refuge during the day of distress as He sang praises to the Most High God. No matter what you're facing in life today, realize that there's no better place for you to be than in the presence of Almighty God. Everything you need is found in Him. When you begin to worship Him, when you call upon His name, He promises to be near you. And when God shows up on the scene, the enemy must flee! Today, if you've been fighting discouragement, worry or anxiety, cast those cares on the Lord. Come into His presence with singing and enter His courts with praise. Let Him be a refuge for you and give you the strength you need to overcome every obstacle in Jesus' name!

Prayer for Today: Heavenly Father, I humbly come before You today. I declare that You are good and faithful. I will sing of Your love and mercy. Fill me with Your strength and joy as I worship You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

So thankful for the living WORD that i can study each day, the encouraging emails and podcasts that are available. His word is all around me - strengthening me and pushing me forward. He continues to transform me, the work is not done. I submit to the work that must be completed.

GRACE AND PEACE!

with hope ...

2010-07-29T18:22:00.002-04:00

today was a long day - information overload ... i look forward to implementing this new information.

when i got home this evening, i began cleaning out my email box and read the devotion i received from Joel ... WOW looking forward with hope.

Greater Than the Past

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE"The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house," says the LORD Almighty. "And in this place I will grant peace…" (Haggai 2:9, NIV).

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria God wants to amaze you with His goodness! We are living in a day where God is increasing His favor. Maybe you have seen God's goodness to a certain degree. In reality, you haven't seen anything yet! God has favor in your future that will supersede anything that you've seen in the past.

The Scripture talks about how the glory of the latter day will be greater than the glory of the former day. That means what God did for your parents or grandparents, He's going to surpass in your generation. The blessing and favor of past generations was good, but we serve a God of increase! He has greater things in store for your future!

Today, I encourage you to get your hopes up. I encourage you to enlarge your vision. Be expecting God to bring opportunities across your path. Be expecting to meet the right people and get the right breaks. Prepare your heart and mind to receive the increase and blessing God has in store for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for being the God of increase. I trust that You have great things in store for my future. I surrender every area of my mind, will and emotions as I wait on You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

- Joel & Victoria Osteen

The wait continues to build perseverance in me ... and for that I am thankful.

GRACE AND PEACE!

look at GOD!

2010-07-27T19:50:00.002-04:00

today was a day only GOD could have ordained - love it when it is obvious!

The morning started with me making the attempt to mow the yard, the battery lasted only for three rows - that is the space between the sidewalk and the road in front of the house. I would have had just enough time to get the yard mowed before it would be time to head out to pick up the jeep. Instead, I learned that the batteries for the lawnmower were not getting a full charge, because the cord is not connecting flush. ugh - but at least now I know.

Aaron then took me to pick up the jeep that looks brand new :) I do not think I wrote about the crash I was involved in 2 weeks ago - but now the jeep is fixed, oh how I missed it.

Then on to meet a group from Northview Church for an activity that would take us to Fashion Mall. While driving to the mall, I was asked if I missed teaching ... the quick answer is not like I thought I would. What I miss is the people, the other teachers and the students. Thankfully I have been able to keep in touch with a many through facebook (I troll pages to see what people are up to - this is your warning if we are friends on FB beware!)

As we entered the mall, each pair (2x2) hit the shops with a list of challenges in hand. I was paired with Miss Janice from Childrens Ministry - our first stop the Apple store, with the explicit direction to enter the store and ask "how can an iPad help me do my job better". We had a plan and entered the store - before I could get to the iPad area I heard "beth beth" ...

A former studnet with her adorable little baby (almost 1) was calling out to me - first it is shocking to realize I have former students with children ... but second I had not seen Erica in a long time. She was one of my devoted jewelry students that spent multiple class periods for 2 years in the studio.

Then with tear filled eyes she filled me in on the recent nightmare of her life and how she had thought many times over the past 2 months to reach out to me ... you see in early June there was a horrible automobile accident - a limo with a wedding party on the way downtown to take pictures. One of the groomsmen was killed - her husband. Shocking, unbelievable, complete tragedy. My heart aches for her loss, and for sweet little Annebelle.

Only GOD could have ordained such a meeting - quite random for me to be in the mall on an ministry assignment ... to cross paths with a dear student, now mom ... now widow. I pray that she will find peace that passes all understanding.

We will work to get together soon, she has also connected with another teacher that I have maintained contact with ... that will be great. All I can do is shake my head and say, "look at GOD!"

GRACE AND PEACE!

yoga?

2010-07-26T16:56:00.002-04:00

i did it, today was the first day i completed a full hour of yoga.

10 years ago, or so, i tried yoga, hated it.

it was sooooo boring. i fell asleep.

last week i ordered a yoga dvd, realizing how tight my hamstrings are was one of the main reasons and that it can help with conception. (oh yeah, aaron and i are working on creating a baby)

last week i did about 20 min, and it was doable. today, i completed the full hour. who knew that it would be hard - i made it, but not with out sweating and a struggle. i was not about to fall asleep, like i did years ago. well maybe at the end with the relaxing. among other areas that need work, breathing is a major one, i was concentrating on the pose in many instances that i forgot to breathe.

all in all it was great.

so regardless of if this leads to conception, i know my body will feel better for it.

who knew the "older|wiser" beth would enjoy yoga.

this is a good word:

Run Your Own Race

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE "…let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith…" (Hebrews 12:1-2, NKJ).

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria It's easy to be tempted to go through life competing with everyone around us. When we see someone who's more talented, better looking or has more gifts, instead of running our race and being comfortable with who we are, oftentimes we feel inferior and think, "I've got to catch up to them." The problem with this unhealthy competition is that it's a never-ending cycle. There will always be someone ahead of us. But, it's a very freeing thing when you realize, "I'm not competing with you. I don't have to have as big a house as my neighbor to feel good about myself. I don't have to keep up with my co-worker. I don't have to be a certain size. No, I understand that I'm not in competition with my friend, my neighbor or my co-worker. Instead, I'm going to be the best me that I can possibly be." Friend, that's an attitude God can work with. When you focus on being who God made you to be, that's when you'll rise up higher and position yourself for every spiritual blessing He has in store for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father God, I humbly come to You giving You all that I am. I choose to keep my eyes on You and allow You to work in my heart and mind. I declare that I am free from competition today. In Jesus' Name. Amen. - Joel & Victoria Osteen

have a great start to your week ... i am!

GRACE AND PEACE!

5 years ....

2010-07-23T14:01:00.002-04:00

today Aaron and I celebrate the completion of our 5th year as a married couple. When I think about all the the Lord has packed into 5 years, my mind cannot even being to go where He is taking us.

The most fabulous part looking back over the 5 years, that the Lord has been in the center of everything and I have the guy that was created for me by my side. So amazing. What a perfect plan.

Thought I would also share the word from Joel ... it is fitting

The Most Blessed

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE "If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; but when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed" (Proverbs 29:18, The Message).

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria God wants His people to be the most blessed! He wants His people to constantly increase so they can be examples of His goodness. But, in order to partake of everything He has in store for us, we have to be open to what He wants to do in our lives. We have to have a vision for increase. We have to look for what He is doing and obey what He tells us.

If you're not expecting favor, or if you are just satisfied with where you are, then you are living below your privileges. But if you will get a vision for increase, a vision of who you are as a child of the Most High God and see what He wants to do in your life, then opportunities, favor and increase will open before you. Just like this scripture says, as a child of the Most High, you are entitled to be the most blessed!

I encourage you, today, to take time to focus your thoughts on God and His promises. Meditate on His Word and ask Him to increase your capacity to receive. Then, follow His commands and look for His goodness—and get ready to be the most blessed!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Heavenly Father, I choose right now to set my mind and focus on You. I choose to look for what You want to do in and through me. I let go of any wrong thinking, attitudes or actions that would hold me back. I choose to obey You and thank You for Your blessing in my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

- Joel & Victoria Osteen

I will keep my eyes fixed on HIM!

GRACE AND PEACE!

Creativity

2010-07-19T09:53:00.003-04:00

This past weekend I felt a surge of creative juices flowing. I have some ideas for jewelry that are aching to be expressed ... i have not felt this in some time.

I sent out notes to multiple friends about hosting Beads by Beth custom parties - I am ready to get back in the creative game!

before I can get moving on the ideas that I have, I had to first attack Jeremy's room, the area that houses all my jewelry materials and had become a huge dumping ground for papers. To simply continue to move piles is not cleaning up. I had a major purge on Saturday, which in turn opened the creative flood gates wider!

This morning when I read Encouragement for Today ... titled Rediscovering Creativity, I knew it was worth sharing!

Rediscovering Creativity, Glynnis Whitwer

"But forget all that - it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers for them in the desert!" Isaiah 43: 18-19 (NLT)

Devotion:

There are days when my inspiration well is dry. Cracked and dusty in fact. On those days nothing is flowing, not a gurgle or a drip. Try as I might, I can't manifest a single creative thought.

Dinner? Will toast and peanut butter work?

Writing? See Jane ... uh ... run.

Daughter's history project? Let's see what we can make with lined paper.

On those days, I'm convinced I'll never again write a witty word and my family is destined for mediocre meals. Even more concerning is the worry that I'm raising children who will perpetuate my blandness. What depressing thoughts!

Yet on other days, I'm the Colorado River of inspiration. A little muddy at times, but fast and free flowing. Thoughts with tinges of brilliance (and far above my normal level of thinking) burst from my brain faster than my fingers can type. Relief seeps into my heart. Gourmet meals are just an hour away! I'm not empty after all!

I've experienced both these conditions. And it got me thinking about the circumstances surrounding them. I've realized there are certain patterns that foster my times of creativity. Because I'm designed by a creative God to be creative, I want to dig in deeper to these ideas and work them into my life in greater measure.

The first circumstance that breeds creativity seems to be a new or renewed commitment to a God-given vision. In the past six months, God has refocused my personal ministry. Last year I had a sense He wanted to do something different in and through me, and spent time praying about it and waiting. As I embraced what God was showing me, He rewarded me with exciting ideas, more than I've had in years.

Turning to this new vision has meant leaving other things behind. That was painful. But as I listen to God and obey, I'm energized for the future.

The second circumstance that sparks my creativity is getting out of my routine, and positioning myself around something creative. A simple trip to a book or craft store can jump-start my thinking. I love going to a gourmet or niche grocery store. Farmer's markets, art museums, music stores, concerts or a model home might do the same for you.

We all have creativity designed into us. Yet many believe they were shorted in the idea department, while others got an unfair share. Not true! Perhaps you've put borders around what you think creativity looks like. A mom who whips up an amazing breakfast her toddler will eat is just as creative as a woman designing a line of fashion. God blesses both - they just don't look the same.

Take time to pray about God's vision for you, and position yourself in a creative environment. Who knows what amazing new thing God will do!

Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for making life beautiful and creative. Thank You for placing a bit of Your creativity in me so that I can enjoy You more. Help me to shake off the negative thoughts about my own lack and be open to whatever new thing You long to do in me and through me. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Through the purge, clean and re-organization the Lord is about to do something BIG ... I have my seat belt ready ... here we go!

GRACE AND PEACE!

checking in

2010-07-17T12:45:00.002-04:00

i am still here ... just not blogging so much. a goal is to find the time to sit and write.

The Lord continues to move in mighty ways, I find it hard to keep up with all He is doing.

Life in ministry is beyond anything that I could have imagined. it is challenging - quite hard at many times ... but I am certain that I am right where the Lord desires to use me.

I am prayerful that I will blog more ... sharing all the wonderful ways that the Lord is moving.

I send out a weekly Northview Church Urban Ministry Praise and Prayer report - if you would like to be added send me an email to : northviewurbanministry@gmail.com.

GRACE AND PEACE!

the monkey and the fish

2010-06-25T18:21:00.002-04:00

day 2 of our vacation i pulled a book off the shelves ... the monkey and the fish by dave gibbons

the title was the sole reason that i picked the book.
typically i pick a fiction, one of my favs would be Janet Evanovich, the Stephanie Plumb series ... but the newest book is not available to me right now so I will settle for this one.

so far, i am enjoying it. and thought this would be worth sharing ...

preface:
A typhoon stranded a monkey on an island. In a protected place on the shore, while waiting for the raging waters to recede, he spotted a fish swimming against the current. It seemed to the monkey that the fish was struggling and needed assistance. Being of kind heart, the monkey resolved to help the fish.
A tree leaned precariously over the spot where the fish seemed to be struggling. At considerable risk to himself, the monkey moved ar out on the limb, reached down and snatched the fish from the waters. Scurrying back to the saftey of his shelter, he carefullly laid the fish on dry ground. For a few moments, the fish showed excitement but soon settled into a peaceful rest.
- An Eastern Parable

Translation? The fish died.
Relevance to the 21st century church?
Everything.

The title of the book is taken from the Eastern Parable above, this book by Dave Gibbons is liquid leadership for a thrid culture church ...

today I read about defining 3rd Culture:
Third culture is the mindset and will to love, learn, and serve in any culture, even in the midst of pain and discomfort.

Immediatly, I could relate. I understand this concept, I just called it Urban Ministry. It has been my life for the past year.
"even in the midst of pain and discomfort" It is against all we know to embrace pain ... but as stated by dave, it is the catalyst for helping people to see God.
again this I can relate to, my world is not the same that I had imagined. this past year (actually almost 2 years) have been filled with much pain and discomfort - beyond anything I could have ever imagined. And again and again - I have witnessed God at work. While I still long for my son, I also trust in the Lord and know that he has a plan and will use this pain and discomfort for HIS will.

I have been told that as the book unfolds I will discover that 3rd culture is not just a trend or a new thing but the heart of God. In fact ... GOD is 3rd culture. And if GOD is 3rd culture, then that is where I want to be.

I look forward to the journey ahead and how the above parable is explained, it is my prayer that I share this journey with whoever cares to come along.

GRACE AND PEACE!

plumb line

2010-06-21T16:52:00.002-04:00

This is what the he showed me: The Lord was standing by a wall that had been built true to plumb, with a plumb line in his hand.

And the Lord asked me, "What do you see Amos?"

"A plumb line" I replied.

Then the Lord said, "Look, I am setting a plumb line among my people Israel; I will spare them no longer." Amos 7:7-8

The scripture above was part of my morning reading. I use plumb-lines to teach drawing ... but wanted to have a clear understanding of what the prophet Amos was teaching. I looked up the definition of a "plumb line" ... it is a tool used to determine a truly vertical line. A plumb line is used to determine the straightness of a wall.

Today I have been reflecting on me, am I in correct alignment.

It has been my prayer that the Lord would reveal to me where I am off line. I have been so focused for so long on one specific thing - that I have lost sight of all the other amazing blessings that have been showered all around me. It is my prayer that the Lord will work on me, so that I may have to correct vertical alignment.

the word from Joel was moving as well ... Stir it Up

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE "Therefore I remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you through the laying on of my hands" (2 Timothy 1:6, NKJ)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria Do you ever feel like you’ve “lost your fire or enthusiasm?” We all have times when we feel overwhelmed by the pressures of life, but that’s when you need to stir up what God has placed on the inside of you. Remember, there are no disadvantages with our God. You have everything you need to succeed. No weapon formed against you is ever going to prosper; you just have to stir up the gift inside. How do you stir it up? By speaking God’s truth and meditating on His word.

Start right now by simply declaring, “I am going to see God’s favor in a greater way. New doors are going to begin to open for me. Supernatural opportunities are coming my way. God is setting up divine connections for me. I’m always at the right place at the right time. I am going to overcome every obstacle and defeat every enemy. I’m going to see every dream, every desire that God has placed in my heart come to pass, in Jesus’ name!”

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father in heaven, thank You for the dreams, desires, and gifts You’ve placed on the inside of me. I choose to stir up those gifts and declare what You say about me. Have Your way in my heart today. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

my story

2010-06-16T13:17:00.002-04:00

after 2 years of keeping this blog, i am amazed at my story, my journey - which continues to unfold.

i especially loved this word from Joel today ... because regardless of what plot turns take place, i am assured of the ending.

Your Story Ends in Victory

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed" (Psalm 139:16, NLT)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Did you know that all of your days have already been written? God has already recorded every part of your life from the beginning to the end. He knows every disappointment, every loss and every challenge. The good news is that even though you've had some challenges, even though you've faced some setbacks, your story ends in victory. Your final chapter concludes with you fulfilling your God-given destiny and experiencing His eternal restoration.
Any time we face a disappointment in life or go through a loss, we have to remember there's another chapter in front of us. We can't stop on that page, we have to keep moving forward. Instead of focusing on what didn't work out, wondering why we went through a marriage that didn't last, or why we didn't get that position we worked so hard for, focus on the future. Let go of the past and press forward because your story ends in victory, and God will restore everything that has been stolen from you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Heavenly Father, thank You for setting me up for victory. Thank You for holding me in the palm of Your hand. I choose to release the questions and disappointments in the past so that I can be ready to receive the victory You have prepared for me! In Jesus' Name. Amen.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Time for an update

2010-06-15T11:16:00.005-04:00

after almost 2 years of the same template ... it is time for an update. will this one be it, i will be trying this one out for a few days, but my mind may change.

Saturday I entered one of the most hectic 10 days of the year. I have been preparing and planing for this week since January. This is KidsGames week check out the websites for more info ... (www.kidsgames.com www.kidsgamesindianapolis.com).

What is so awesome about KidsGames ... it is international sports ministry. This is a way to use sports to share the Gospel of Jesus ... what an amazing vehicle. There are 7 sites in Indy participating this year, we had a Youth Leadership training Saturday. Brookside Church is partnering with Connection Pointe Christian Church of Brownsburg to bring this amazing program to the Brookside Kids this week.
This is our second year partnering with Connection Pointe. Sunday when we headed over to Conseco Fieldhouse for opening ceremonies for KidsGames, the neighborhood kids were paired with Connection Pointe kids.
I was so moved when a number of the kids knew each other, it was a like a famly reunion - they hugged and laughed then spent the day together. I got a little teary-eyed when I realized that these relationships will continue to grow over the next years. As this partnership continues, the Connection Point Kids are 7, 8 and 9th grade ... the neighborhood kids are k-5th grade. Relationships, that is what it is all about.

GRACE AND PEACE!

eyesight

2010-06-10T08:30:00.003-04:00

¹⁵ When the servant of the man of God got up and went out early the next morning, an army with horses and chariots had surrounded the city. "Oh, my lord, what shall we do?" the servant asked. ¹⁶ "Don't be afraid," the prophet answered. "Those who are with us are more than those who are with them." ¹⁷ And Elisha prayed, "O LORD, open his eyes so he may see." Then the LORD opened the servant's eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. 2 Kings 6:15-17

Imagine if we looked on all our situations (difficult and not so difficult) with spirit filled eyes. We would see ALL that God is doing. Faith reveals that God is doing more for HIS people then we can ever realize through sight alone. Situations can seem impossible, insurmountable ... remember there are spiritual resources at work even when you cannot see them.

My Life Application Study Bible goes further to say that if you do not see, the problem may be your own spiritual eyesight ... not a lacking of God's power.

It is my prayer that my eyesight will be faith filled - always. Of course it is not easy, but with his strength in me, I can learn to see. I think it might take practice, and I am willing.

Lord, strengthen my spiritual eyesight - allow me to see all that amazing power that surrounds me. AMEN.

GRACE AND PEACE!

His Time

2010-06-09T07:02:00.002-04:00

a great reminder, everyday.

Quicker Than You Think
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise…" (2 Peter 3:9, NIV)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Do you realize that as a believer in Jesus, you have a tremendous advantage in life? The Creator of the Universe is not only fighting your battles, but He is lining up the right people, the right breaks, and the right opportunities to move you forward. You may be facing a situation right now that looks like it's never going to turn around, but I believe that you're going to see some changes quicker than you think. You're going to come out of debt quicker than you think. You're going to accomplish your goals much quicker than you think. That relationship is going to be restored quicker than you think!
Remember, God is not slow in keeping His promise. I believe we are entering into a decade where we're going to see the hand of God move like never before. He is going to open up doors that no man can shut. He is going to turn impossible situations around and take you places that you never dreamed. It's time to get ready for more of God's favor because that breakthrough is going to happen quicker than you think!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father in heaven, thank You for being faithful to Your Word. I trust that You will complete the work You've begun in me. Help me keep my heart and mind focused on You as I stand strong in faith to see Your promises come to pass in my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

Today is the first session of Art Club. I pray the kiddos are as excited to learn how to create art as I am to teach them. I pray that the Lord would bless this work that he has established for my hands.
Our get to know you will be a self portrait ... then through the summer we will work on all the features, and continue to use our own faces as our project inspiration. I have some special Artists that I will incprporate their styles ... artist they may relate to but have never heard of. All our work will be based on
Psalm 139:13-1413 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Matthew 10:30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
It is my prayer that as they learn how to look at thier faces, they will see what an amazing Lord we serve and He loves us SOOOO much.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Life to dry bones

2010-06-08T16:14:00.002-04:00

After Matt shared his devotion this weekend, we worshiped with the Todd Fields song; Breathe on Me. I posted it on the top left ... one of my favorites.

Forever, you are the God of my Story.

Write every line for your glory.

Breathe on Me

GRACE AND PEACE!

simplify

2010-06-08T07:14:00.002-04:00

a word from joel.

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: "The unfolding of your words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple"
(Psalm 119:130, NIV)

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Do you ever feel overwhelmed by the obligations of everyday life? Does your schedule sometimes feel complicated?
One of the enemy's greatest tactics is to keep people so busy doing so many good things that there isn't time for the most important thing. Jesus said that in this life one thing is needed and that is to sit at His feet and spend time in His Word. When His Word is a priority in our lives, everything else in life will fall into place.
Today, do you need to simplify your life in order to make room in your schedule for Him? If you're not sure how to order your day, simply ask Him to give you wisdom and show you how to manage your time. He loves you so much, and He loves it when you call upon His name. Remember, He longs to be good to those who are looking for His goodness. Simplify your life today so you can receive the light and understanding He desires to give to you.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY Father God, today I surrender everything to You. I give You my mind, will, and emotions. I give You my schedule and ask for Your wisdom to order my days. I choose to put You first and thank You for leading me and guiding me in every decision I face today. In Jesus' Name. Amen

All the activities I am involved with currently are for ministry. It is eye opening to see that even though it is good, the timing might be off, or the work might not be for me to do.
I have found that I busy myself with the Lords work to help take the focus off dealing with myself ... that is not the type of work the Lord desires from me. (am i being a mary or a martha? something for me to consider deeper)

looking forward, doing something "for me" that will also help kiddos ...
Tomorrow ART CLUB starts, I will be working with two small groups during the Summer Day Camp at Brookside Church on Wednesday Mornings. I am excited to use my professional training as a K-12 Indiana Certified Art Educator ... granted I have 12 years experiennce with High School Students and I will be working with 4th and 5th graders ... but what fun! It shakes out to 8 sessions. Today I am going to create the plan and focus. In the past the Art has been craft focused ... I am looking forward to introducing the students to artists they may have never heard of and tapping into some raw talent that simply needs some direction. I pray we will be able to have an exhibit at the end of the summer.

- please pray that my Art Teacher Mind will return, and be sharp - full of HIS wisdom.

GRACE AND PEACE!

Dry Bones

2010-06-07T19:44:00.003-04:00

Every now and then the worship leader at Northview Church (Matt Bays) shares a devotion during worship that hits me direct in my heart. It was as if he had been in the car with Aaron and I on our way to the service. Everyone dissapeared as he shared on Satruday day night - what a gift ...

Ezekiel 37 1-14 The Valley of Dry Bones
1 The hand of the LORD was upon me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. 2 He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. 3 He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" I said, "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know."
4 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! 5 This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath [a] enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.' "
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
9 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
11 Then he said to me: "Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. They say, 'Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.' 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: O my people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the LORD have spoken, and I have done it, declares the LORD.' "

On our way to church Aaron and I were both feeling blah - now I know, we were parched. Our bones were dry. For me, I was trying to find resfreshment on my own. When Matt shared this scripture, what a picture was painted in my mind not only of me being refreshed, but the Brookside Church, the Near Eastside of Indy ... it will not be anyhting that I can do - only GOD. I feel alittle silly that I forgot that part. Here I am running myself ragged, and I loose sight of the one that is really doing to work. Praise the LORD!

HUGE thanks to Matt Bays, thank you for sharing that timly word.

GRACE AND PEACE!

gentle whisper

2010-06-04T08:24:00.003-04:00

The Lord said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by."Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains a part and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 1 Kings 19:11,12

Love this passage about Elijah hearing from the Lord. It is a reminder that God doesn't reveal himself only in powerful miraculous ways. To look for God only in something BIG ... may be to miss HIM. He is often found gently whispering in the quiteness of a humbled heart.

Thank You Father, for the ways that you choose to reveal yourself. Open the eyes of my heart to hear you and experiene you today. I am yours, fully Lord.

GRACE AND PEACE!

one to gnaw on

2010-06-03T07:39:00.003-04:00

For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. 2 Chronicles 16:9

I am reading through the Bible in Chronological order, 365 daily readings. This format provides parallels with the events in Kings, Samuel, Chronicles, it puts the Psalms order of context ... anyway,
I have entered the divided kingdom. The Kings of Israel were bad, bad in the bad way. The kings of Judah, stayed closer to the Lord - but certainly struggled as well. The verse above takes place during King Asa's reign. He had turned to the Lord for help previously, and the Lord provided for him. Without fail. Then when Israel was preparing to attack Judah, he went to a neighbors instead of the Lord for help. From that point on, Asa did not seek the Lord for help again. And Judah faced trouble.

I am gnawing over this verse this morning ... In my Life Application Study Bible, the footnotes say:
It is not sin to use human means to solve problems, but it is sin to trust them more than God, to think thay are better than God's ways, or to leave God completely out of the problem-solving process.

I find myself thanking the Lord that HE is my strength. The last month (or more) has been busy - looking back it was crazy. Nothing was accomplished with out the strength of the Lord.
At the same time, I pray that my heart will be fully committed to HIM. In all things, not some of the time - but all the time. I do not want to be lukewarm or just going through the motions because it is the right thing. It is my desire that the Lord will continue to strengthen my heart to be fully committed, to be in HIS will, always.
And the Lord always knows the true state of our hearts.
I pray that the Lord will convict me in the areas that I fall short. Lord please do a quick work in me, so that I may shine with your Glory, striving to be more and more like your son, Jesus, the model for a heart fully committed to the Lord. I ask forgiveness for when I have not turned to the Lord for help and relied on others over God. Thank you dear Father that you sent the perfect example in your precious son, Jesus. I commit my heart to you- fully thank you for strengthening me. AMEN.

GRACE AND PEACE!

what if's to whatever

2010-06-02T09:06:00.003-04:00

Yesterday a friend shared an important lesson with me. She is facing, today, a decision that will be made by a court that will change her life forever. Regardless of what the judge decides, things will change.
When I asked her how she was doing ... She said, that she could be a wreck if she dwelt in the What If's ... her mind could go in millions of directions. So instead, she has handed over the what ifs and was only accepting the Whatever's from God. She is completely open to WHATEVER God desires, and has accepted that regardless of the ruling GOD is in control and he uses all things for HIS good and perfect will.

So just like my friend, I am also giving over the what ifs, and taking the whatever's. His plan is so much better then my way 100% of the time, so why even waste the time on the ifs. Praise the Lord!
We always have a choice when facing life, and I choose to face life with Jesus. He might not always remove the "trouble" but he is an excellent guide to take us through it. What a huge asset He is, through all things. He will never leave us. PTL.

Fitting ... from Joel Today:
Scripture: " But only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her" Like 10:42, NIV
from Joel and Victoria: In today's world, most people find that life is full. We have over 500 channels on TV, an unlimited number of sites to browse on the Internet, cell phones & PDA's keep us connected 24 hours a day. Everywhere you look there is something to do or some kind of entertainment all the time. If we are not careful, we fall into the trap of thinking that we've always got to be busy doing something. But Jesus invites us to be still because really, only one thing is needed.
I heard somebody say one time, what if we treated our Bibles like we do our cell phones? can you imagine people in elevators, lobbies, and shopping malls thumbing through their bibles all day long? can you see people reading and studying the Word while sitting in traffic and at red lights? Not that you should do that, but the point I am making is that we need to live our lives in balance and make the word of God a priority. Let's make sure we don't allow the distractions of life to keep us from the one thing that is needed.
prayer: Heavenly Father, today I set my heart and affections on YOU. I choose to lay down the distractions of life and put YOU first because YOU are the one thing that is needed. Help me keep my mind focused on YOU as I declare YOUR praises throughout the day. In Jesus' Name. AMEN.

GRACE AND PEACE!

a time for everything

2010-05-31T07:37:00.002-04:00

my reading today landed me in Ecclesiastes 3

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear up and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace. (1-8, NIV)

... He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also planted eternity in men's hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to to the end.
I know that there is nothing better for them than to be glad and to get and do good as long as they live; And also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor -- it is the gift of God. I know that whatever God does, it endures forever; nothing can be added to it nor anything taken from it. And God does it so that men will [reverently] fear Him [revere and worship Him, knowing that HE is]. (11-14, amplified)

While I sit and wonder how long a foundation takes ... it takes as long as it takes. And my job is not to worry about how lonog - but to do my part . God has a plan. Gods time is not my time (that I am certain!) I continue to work finding peace with God as I discover, accept and appreciate God's perfect timing.
He works on me daily to leave behind my despair, rebellion and moving ahead without his advice. I am continually reminded "HIS time, not mine"

In verses 11-14, not only have I just been reminded that there is a time for all things ... but that God has a plan that I can not even BEGIN to grasp. My life, my time is just one small part of the plan - and I receive that gift.

Today, this morning I am going to work in the flower beds. I love having perennial flowers - each a transplant from friends and co-workers. Only a few actually purchased at the store ... but in addition to the perennial flowers I seem to have perennial weeds.

What a perfect visual that I need to continue to cultivate the soil in my heart and take account what is growing there. The physical activity of pruning and weeding will open my heart to the Lord - I pray that the Lord will be with me today and help me get rid of anything that is not of him that may have taken root in my heart.

GRACE AND PEACE!

foundation

2010-05-30T07:58:00.003-04:00

what is the proper time for a foundation to be built?
i suppose it depends on the structure you are planning to build ...

in my reading today:
The end of a matter is better than its beginning and patience is better then pride. Ecclesiastes 7:8.

My Life Application Study Bible broke it down like this: To finish what we start takes hard work, wise guidance, self-discipline and patience. Anyone with vision can start a big project. But vision without wisdom often results in unfinished projects and goals.

I am declaring that I while I am tired and weary, there is a huge foundation being built ... both seen and unseen. All these "projects" that I have been working on are all part of a greater foundation, and patience is better then pride. I work in expectation of the end - beyond anything that I can begin to imagine ...

For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which he prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10

so how long will this foundation season last ...
The foundation of the Kingdom is beyond my comprehension.
I pray for wisdom and peace as I continue in the work HE has created for me - through HIM I can do it.Lord, please help me to stay focused on the task at hand, not to be distracted by other opportunities that would take me away from what you have planned for me.
I am also prayerful that as the foundation is laid, HE will continue to bring workers forward to come alongside for the work to be done.

GRACE AND PEACE!

His will ...

2010-05-28T13:04:00.003-04:00

this week i have been working through a decison ... I am dealing with hearing from the Lord what HIS will and desire is for me... I am not certain if adding a new project to my list is part of His plan - or if it would just add more to my plate.

This new project is very desirable to me, and I really want to say yes ... but I am struggling with if saying yes is for the right reason.

Today ... this was the centering scripture of an email devotion I recieved:
"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but in humility consider others better than yourselves" Phillippians 2:3

As I consider the reasons why I would say YES ... i am being convicted now that it is for selfish reasons, and while in the short term it would be a way for me to feel good about myself. But adding more to my plate at this time - would potentially be divisive to Urban Ministry, Brookside Church and most importantly my marriage. Even if just for a short season.

As I continue to work to stay the course that the Lord has for me, learing to say NO is one of them. Saying NO now, does not mean saying NO forever. Now just might have been the time to plant the seed, only to be cultivated at a later time.

Such peace comes when seeking the Lord for counsel, listening and following HIS will.

GRACE AND PEACE!

baggage

2010-05-20T09:13:00.002-04:00

this blog entry was started last THURSDAY 5.20

we all have baggage ... some big heavy bags, multiple bags, bags with wheels, or just dragging it along behind. However we choose to carry our baggage with us - one thing that is for sure it always comes with us. And the glory of it all, we have our Brothers and Sisters to help carry us and our bags.
We are told to cast our burdens on HIM.
I saw the face of Christ over and over last night, I saw us each carrying other peoples bags. They begin to get mixed up, they become each others - we are in community. no one bag seems too heavy - because they are shared.

Last night at Brookside Church was one of my most amazing nights. It was very difficult and at the same time redemptive. The Glory of God permeated the church through HIS servants last night. Love always wins!

Today, 5.24 I looked back at my journal entry for 5.19 (last wednesday)

Father you are so good and use all things for your good and perfect plan - thank you!

I desire, Lord, to look like Jesus --- when I interact, do people leave feeling like they "saw" Jesus in me? I have been looking for him in others, I tend to see him regularly all around - do others see him in me?

my daily reading took me to various Proverbs ...

As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man. 27:19

To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice. 21:3

The crucible for silver and furnace for gold, but man is tested by the praise he receives. 27:21

But he who trusts in the Lord will prosper. 28:25b

Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and men. 3:3,4

As I reflect back to last wednesday night at the church ... he prepared me ... and gave me an opportunity to look like HIM. I will never really know if I did or not - which is fine. I am so thankful as I look back that I was given an opportunity.

I need to start keeping roll of prayer requests and desires ... so I can be witness to HIS hand in my life - over and over. HE is so darn good!!

I am so certiain LOVE WINS!

thank you JESUS for going to the cross, dying for me before I knew I even needed you, then for rising on the 3rd day, to be with me always.

PRAISE YOU LORD!

I am entering this week in glorious expectation of all HIS goodness ...

GRACE AND PEACE!

thrive

2010-05-13T10:12:00.003-04:00

wow, i continue to have a hard time finding the time to sit and write this blog. not to place the "blame" in aaron - but between the work with Northview Urban Ministry & Brookside Church the time spent on the computer is creating documents and answering email. the best part ... i love it, i am truly enjoying the work that i am able to do in partnership with my husband. i cannot imagine my life different!

while i am finding it hard to find time to sit and write ... i am thriving!

from joel:

scripture: "Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers" 3John 1:2

joelandvictoria: Many people today are living in "survival mode". If they can just make it through the day, they've accomplished their goal. And, there are the times when circumstances can seem overwhelming. There are seasons that are more difficult than others. But God doesn't want us to just survive, HE wants us to thrive. HE wants us to prosper in all things.

One definition of the word thrive means "to realize a goal despite circumstances." That means you can prosper in all things no matter what is going on around you. You don't have to settle for an average year; you can have an extraordinary year. You may be planning on just getting by but God is planning on abundance. HE's planning on overflow. It's time to get into agreement with God. It's time to get in agreement with God. It's time to walk in HIS ways. It's time see your dreams come to pass. It's time to thrive because God has a plan for you to prosper in every area of your life!

prayer: Father God, thank YOU for the gift of today. I choose to cast my cares on YOU knowing that because YOU care about me,YOU care for me. Help me to see the good plan YOU have for me so that I can thrive the way YOU intended. In Jesus' Name. AMEN

GRACE AND PEACE!

A dose of reality

2010-05-04T08:39:00.002-04:00

Yesterday afternoon I had a dose of reality, when I stopped by to visit Oak Lawn Memorial Gardens - last month Aaron and I finally made the arrangements for Jeremy's marker.

I had certainly put if off long enough, there was no urgency from Aaron either ... We placed the order at the beginning of April, but did not know when it would be ready or placed.

Following a meeting at Capstone yesterday, while on my way to Aldi's ... I had the overwhelming urge to go check on Jeremy. I have not been to cemetery much since the funeral ... and until yesterday have not had any inkling to go.

I was not at all expecting the rush of emotions that followed when I saw his name, his birthday, our scripture ... all in Bronze, mounted on granite, recently set in place.

The scripture at the bottom, is from Psalm, 127:3b ... Children are a gift from the Lord.

It is still hard for me wrap my head around the fact that Aaron and I have a baby, he lived with us for 71 minutes - seeing Jeremy's marker provided a dose of reality that I have not been willing to grasp. The reality of Jeremy, his birth and death hit me like I was not expecting. Everything seemed so real. There in stone and metal was my sons name, marking that he had lived with us, ever so briefly - but he had been here. Then I was flooded with the reality that he is with Jesus. Then peace. I thank the Lord that HE continues to offer Peace that surpasses all understanding.

Visiting Oak Lawn also provided perspective on the projects i am involved with. While I want to do an excellent job and create quality programs ... Serving the Lord trumps everything. Visiting Jeremy yesterday, helped me to also slow down. My mind let go of all the "stuff" running through regarding my various responsibilities ... what a blessing.

From Joel Today ...

What's Your Part?

Scripture: "But how can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in him if they have never heard about him? And how can they hear about him unless someone tells them? And how will anyone go and tell them without being sent? (Romans 10:14-15, NLT)

From Joel and Victoria: It's amazing how God can take so many people in the world and set up a plan for us to work together for His purposes to build the body of Christ. We all have a part. One scripture puts it this wast, some plant seeds, some water and some bring in the harvest. No matter what role we have, when we work together, we are honoring God. It pleases Him when we partner with one another to share the good news of the Gospel.

Today, know that you have an important part in the body of Christ. Whether you minister in the pulpit or on the street corner, or whether you sow seed so that others can go, you are important. Don't ever underestimate the part you play because together we are building His kingdom.

Prayer: Father God, I humbly come to You today. Thank You for giving me a part to play in building Your kingdom. I dedicate back to You the resources You have given me. Use me for Your glory. In Jesus' Name. AMEN.

I am only one part.

GRACE AND PEACE!

here i am ...

2010-05-03T11:14:00.002-04:00

it has been way to long since i have been able to sit down and actually write a post. here is a return effort! :)

Busy is not really the correct word, because I am certain the work I am doing now will make an impact for the Kingdom - and while i often feel overwhelmed and completely inadequate ... as in past times the Word of the Lord is my strength.

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you. Psalm 37:5

These are the things I commit to Him:

- Northview Urban Ministry Volunteer Orientation Planning

- KidsGames Planning

- Brookside Church Youth Ministry

- Leadership for the team

- teaching classes

- my 100's of questions on HOW to mobilize 800+ volunteers in Urban Environments

- Cara's Bridesmaid jewelry

Father, I commit these items to YOU - I trust that you have a plan and that you will help and equip me and others to perform your will. Lord, this is all for your Glory - please move me out of that way that your will be done. In Jesus' precious name AMEN!

Last week these 2 scriptures stood out to me ...

the first a reminder about the work I am doing

'Get on with your tasks with a ready spirit, as if you were serving the Master himself and not human beings' Ephesians 6:7

I found myself in multiple situations that I was not honoring God in my actions or words.

This verse has seared my heart - I am in the process of many "tasks" and often find myself focused on the TASK and not the people. I desire for me heart to focus on WHO I am serving (the MASTER) and not completing a task. This is the Lords desire for me ... this is big people - a complete shift.

being aware, eyes opened ... it cannot be ignored.

What now ... what are the next steps? Good question, first step - being aware, second, becoming intentional with my actions and words .... next steps repeat?

* I will continue to seek the Lord for direction*

The second scripture that came up in my daily reading ...

May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us - yes, establish the work of our hands. Psalm 90:17

With this Psalm, I recognize that the Lord is the one that establishes the work, and then extends his favor on that work. This is a Psalm that came across my path 3 years ago when I started creating Jewelry and Beads By Beth ... I read it as the Lord blessing the work that my hands would be creating. I am reminded again - that HE is still pouring out his favor on the work that my hands create - because HE is the one that established the work ... and because HE has established the work, HE will provide the way to complete the work. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

So again, I commit all to HIM - all that HE established for me. I rest knowing that He promises to be with me ... it might be a tough route, but I rest knowing that the Lord is good and He will be with me. always.

GRACE AND PEACE!

2010-04-30T10:21:00.001-04:00

To the ZOO with the 3 little red heads & their mom:)
graceandpeace